i feel so deeply and love so deeply that it's hard to move on from anyone...no one quite understands how much i love others and seem to brush it off..."time will pass and you'll forget them"...but i never do...they're written in my heart and will always be a part of me...i don't hate them and because i don't they'll always have a place in my heart because they were once part of me...they've shaped me into who i am and i thank them for that...
how do you know you've moved on when you love so deeply ?? my love has changed and i understand that things didn't work out for a reason but this loneliness and emptiness that i sit in, where i'm missing my person...
even with just normal friends...i open up, i try to give them parts of me, i try to get involved in their lives... but it never feels like enough... i'm always stuck wanting more which feels selfish but all those friendships, relationships that i've dreamt so hard for, that i've tried really hard to work at... just doesn't feel reciprocated
i am the most grounded i've ever been in my life, yet floating far far away; i don't feel like myself and i'm lost and trying to figure out what i want, who i want to be, and where i want to go...
how do you love and continue to love and keep hope and faith when it's not returned... try as hard as i may it doesn't feel like that same energy is returned but maybe one day... for now i keep trying
