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hello there, I'm shai, 20 ❤️ sw: 154 cw: 117 lw:114 gw:110 ugw: 99 height: 5'0 active August 2021

[weighted-hearts]

Anyone else going through a weird time right now? Like you're living between being ok and wanting to die. I'm currently just floating through existence?

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Meme.

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me: it’s pretty cold today don’t you think?

my family: no wtf

my ed:

[skinni-elle]

[motivationgoals8]

[lilcherryy]

[tinyprettypls]

[lainna]

[spinelessfromthestart]

[iwishhiwasdeadl-deactivated2021]

[ventining]

[hscpital]

[dizzydaisydarling]

Reblog to ease someone’s anxiety. Even if its just a little 🌼

[skinnyshh]

You can be thin. You really can. You see this so many times on tumblr, I’m sure. Maybe it hasn’t sank in yet…

Let me say it for you again for you.

You can be thin.

Don’t just read. Think.

You CAN be thin.

You literally can be fucking thin, literally. It’s very possible.

[faster]

every eating disorder movie ever

Anna McAnna is a dancer. She’s thin, has friends and love interests. 

Dad: LOL DON’T EAT THAT IT HAS CALORIES!!! U HAVE A DANCE SHOW TOMORROW HAHA JK I LOVE U BBY

Anna goes on pro anna websites and makes dangerous internet friends. “I will only lose 5 pounds” says anna. She makes a thinspo collage on her wall/diary to keep motivated

Anna is losing weight. Her mom is concerned

Mom: um sweetie you are losing weight??? That’s not good you are beautiful. I love u bae

Anna is angry her mom doesn’t understand. She’s an anorexic tm now. No one can stop her. She goes batshit crazy screaming at everyone that offers her food

Anna’s mom finds out about her online activities. She’s worried and forces Anna to eat a meal. Anna does it bitterly and then purges perfectly no getting trained period in which your first 90 attempts you just spit some water

Anna is now purging. All her friends got tired of her bullshit and left her. Her love interest is like “lmao dude u 2 skinny u ok?????? im worried”

Anna faints and goes to the hospital

Docotr: so um ur daughter is anorexic she may die???????? It’s bad????

Anna: wow taht was v dangerois I guess I’m cured now

Anna eats happily with her family, now comletely ED free

[i-fucking-like-lemon-deactivate]

That’s why we all love “to the bone”

[disgustingly-ugly]

OK, but to me “To The Bone” was a huge train wreck. Please take two seconds and hear me out:

I trully despise how the movie put everything in such a romantic light; it disgusted me to the core. Right from the beggining they brought up the “calorie counting from memory” scene without making any remarks on how fucked up it trully is (come on, the friend just accepted it, shook her head and continued talking to her normally). There are multiple scenes throughout the film that could‘ve been written better, to make shure the viewers see how EDs make a trully awful NEGATIVE IMPACT on the sufferer’s mind and body, the effects being permanent most times.

It’s incredible I have to say it, but serious topics should be represented also in a serious way. Eating Disorders are deadly. You do not “share quick little tips with all you ana and mia frens” and laugh about you helping eachother die, “cuz we are besties, and besties help and support each other 👼🏻✨✨”. Anorexia and a lot of ED’s come with self loathing, reclusion, a serious lying habit, not trusting anyone (sometimes not even yourself when you count calories, or following the rules you set), eating rituals, not wanting to see yourself on the mirror or get pictures taken, pushing loved ones aside, crying all of the time with pure hatred, becoming obsessive in multiple ways, sometimes anemia, weakness, yellow skin, bloating, hair all over your body, not having your period and being proud of it, being cold even in the summer, risk of heart, bones, fertility problems and even brain damage.

I AM NOT saying To The Bone completelly failed as a movie. It actually had a great representation of the medical problems EDs bring. HOWEVER, I still think it comes off as if by becoming anorexic you will instantly become as pretty as the actress, get a cute dainty body, a boyfriend, make lots of longlasting friendships in recovery, meet a wonderful quirky doctor, and a habing long healthy life afterwards. It just isn’t an accurate nor realistic representation of reality.

[h00neybee-skinny]

Okay, but listen.

You’re going to look so. Fucking. Good. When you get to your UGW. I’m not even kidding. You’re gonna look like a fucking model, I swear. And I know it’s hard to wait, and it’s hard to see the scale change by so little every day, but it’s going to be so damn worth it in the end, you just have to trust yourself, because you’re the only one who can make this happen, and you’re going to do it, I absolutely know it. Just take things one day at a time, trust in the process, trust in yourself, and you WILL get there, and you’re gonna thank yourself for it.

[emtional]

me: *loses two pounds a day*

me: can u like….. go faster

[honeycloverz]

[iwannabebone]

[thinslxx]

Bitches with an eating disorder be like "I know a place" and then take you on a 3 hour walk