*logs the smell of a bagel into MFP*

SW:141 | CW:128 | GW:125 | UGW:120 5’6” 26yrs

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THIS BLOG CONTAINS TRIGGERING ED CONTENT

Dont report, just block. This blog is my safe space and reporting won't solve this issue. I don't encourage ED's, this blog is for ME to cope.

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Well I hit 128 and I am actually pretty happy, probably done with ED tumblr till I accidentally get fat again 💋 ✌️

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GUESS WHO THE FUCK JUST HIT THE 120’s

129.8lb to be exact but damn it’s nice to finally see that 2 on the scale 😭 I’ve been stuck in the 130-140’s for 2 years now.

It’s been such a toxic journey tbh but the only time it ever truly works is when I am in a good place with my mental health. I only have 2.8lb to lose before I’m at my goal weight.

Didn’t have anybody to tell that would actually care

[walmart-satan]

guys i can feel it this month is gonna be ours

[skinni-elle]

I should be fasting but I’m eating ✨emotional-support✨ chili for breakfast instead

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Sooo I didn’t gain any weight like I thought I did. Period bloat is REAL guys. I literally gain between 8-10 POUNDS the week before my period and it all drops off a few days into my cycle.

I’ve been working 2 jobs with like 5 minutes between appointments leaving me no time to eat so it’s been a lot easier to fast and do OMAD when I get home.

Weighed myself a few days ago and I was back down to 130.8lb… funny how that’s the exact weight I can’t seem to budge past. Haven’t had a scale since being at my boyfriends house this week but I’ve GOTTA be at 129 by now.. I just want to see those 120’s on the scale so bad 😩

20 more days till this vacation in Orlando, I can definitely get down to 125 by then 🤞

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i may be ugly but i used to be ugIier

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So I’ve been stress-binging for weeks now. Mostly night time eating over my entire days worth of calories within a few hours. It’s the week before my period so I normally retain water weight and get bloated around this time anyway but I’m having a rough time not believing I’ve gained like 5lb back.

I ate 600cals today and felt like I was going to DIE omg idk how to get my body on track with fasting but I was close to blacking out by 2pm and that feels kinda pathetic. My brain just melts after like 18hrs. But I feel good that I finally kept my cals low after like a month.

No I’m not really looking for advice I’m just shaking my fists and yelling into the void

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Lol this whole blog is just a review of all my failed diet attempts 🙃

Heavy restriction is really hard for me. I’m trying to increase my time frame to lose these next 10lb over 2 months so I’m not starving and binging constantly.

1000cal a day for 2 months should put me right at 120lb. Not that I want to wait 2 whole months, but I just want to be skinny for EDC in Orlando this November so that’s an acceptable time frame for me. And if I’m eating 1k calories a day I don’t get the urges to binge because I’m eating enough.

At this point all validation of an ED is gone I’m just eating like a normal person but whatever

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My mom keeps buying me XS size clothes that are way too fcking short on me lol.. but actually fit and Id never DARE to buy myself that size

I love that you think I’m that skinni but I am 5’6 🥴 this minidress looks like a shirt

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Any time I have days where I’m feeling skinny is when I allow myself to eat the most

Ending a 2 day binge rn because I could see my abs in the mirror rlly well for like 2 seconds

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Oh no I purchased my goal weight reward when I’m not at my goal weight woops

It was an expensive handbag so now I feel like I can’t even use it till I’m 120lb lol 🙃🙃🙃

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Love how I absolutely am disgusted with my body(mostly my stomach area tbh) and yet still wear tight/ revealing clothing

Guess even my ED can’t overcome the need to be a whore

[skinni-elle]

Lol I swear to god I still haven’t hit 129 on the scale after like a week of restricting.. it’s 1 fcking pound like COME ON

….not meeeee thinking about popping 4 laxatives tonight just to get an accurate body weight reading 🤡 fml

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I got one of those fancy scales that reads your fat %, water weight, all that jazz.. I literally can’t wait to see all those triggering numbers 🥰🥰