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I donât know you; those two are the only reason I came to know of you. But with no real proof of AA I knew they were spouting bullshit.
Iâm happy you stepped up to the plate. Donât let them get you down and keep on moving!!! You are stronger than they đŁđŁđŁ
{Thank you so much for the kind words! This is the first time theyâve said anything about me directly, and the only time Iâve ever stood up and said anything about them in the first place haha! Honestly, I donât really care what they say but I figured I would clear that up at least. Honestly all of us are so over it at this point, we just wanna be left alone đ}
Wow, okay. I have been very quiet when it comes to the whole drama situation with Kay/Solace and Drone/Gage or whatever they've decided to call themselves at this point. I stayed out of it for MONTHS because 1. I wanted nothing to do with the drama and 2. I blocked them both and didn't see it, nor did I care to.
However, now that they've decided to put my name in their mouths, I feel like I do need to say something at this point. I will put this under a read more as this is going to get pretty long, you can read it if you choose, or not, that's fine. But I feel as though it's time I said my piece so I can finally just be done with all of it.
First off, yes Cyn and I are dating. That much is true, however we did not start dating or even realize we had feelings for each other until after everything happened and I was already no longer in contact with either Drone or Kay.
While I do have screenshots of many different conversations Kay and I had, along with things that were said in a group chat all of us were in, I genuinely cannot be bothered to go through every single one of them at this moment in time. I can provide them if asked, but at this moment it's not my top priority.
I have stayed silent about all of this for months because I genuinely wanted no part of it. Kay, Drone and I went our separate ways in what I thought was a very simple and peaceful way, I blocked them both simply for my mental health because I had no ill wishes towards either of them, and I still don't, but I didn't want to see all of their callout posts and whatever else was going on with them. That does not mean that I won't share my side of the story if someone were to ask me for it.
Kay and I did date for a time while Kay and Drone were also dating which, mind you, I knew about and was okay with because Kay and Drone were both Polyamorous. To each their own, I still have no issue with that and there is nothing wrong with it as long as the relationship is healthy.
For a long time, Kay had talked about wanting a horse and wanting to move out to Colorado to be with me and so, like the stupid and lovesick idiot that I was, I happened across a horse when I went to the auction house and bought it for her as a gift. Looking back on it, that was not a smart move but I wasn't thinking about it logically at the time, rather it was more of an emotional decision made in the moment as auctions are very much a place of snap decisions you have to make right then and there. Kay was elated about the whole thing at the time and I was more than happy to pour everything I had into the training, care and needs of that horse on her behalf since she wasn't there physically. I paid vet bills, hay costs, poured hours of training and care into an animal that didn't belong to me and it put me over 4,000 dollars in debt which I finally have now managed to find my way out of. Kay showered me with praise and always promised that one day she would pay me back for all of it which of course never happened. At the time, that was fine, I genuinely was happy that she was happy. Even if it meant breaking myself and working overtime just to be able to keep myself somewhat afloat with everything.
However, even after her horse got castrated, he was incredibly aggressive towards not only me, but everyone else as well. Charging at me with his teeth bared, trying to strike anyone who came in to clean or feed, and so I spoke with her honestly and told her he would unfortunately not be able to stay because of his dangerous behavior despite my gentle handling.
The main reason I am bringing this up is because of her sudden allegations against me of "abusing my horses" which is about the farthest thing from the truth anyone could imagine. I have a small business pulling abused and neglected animals from auctions and kill pens, the thin conditions they come to me in are not caused by me and in fact I have rehabilitated many horses and rehomed them over the years. I will add photos of the horses I have owned and my two year old colt that I currently own now as proof of this.
I have always prided myself on taking good care of my animals to the best of my abilities and that still stands to this day. I ensure every single one of my horses has regular vet and farrier appointments, gets their blood drawn to rule out any irregularities and ensure their health papers are current, and in all honesty I buy their food and feed them before I ever feed myself.
As for her comments about my girlfriend being ten years older than me, yes. I am very well aware of that fact and honestly? We are both consenting adults over the age of 20 years old, Cyn never hid her age from me and allowed ME to decide whether or not I was okay with it. Which obviously, I am perfectly fine with because I have found someone who sees me for who I am, not what I have to give.
I am honestly irate about the entire situation as a whole at this point, it has been 7 months since everything has happened and while I have been able to let go and move on up until now, I don't appreciate being slandered either. I am not some meek little doormat to be stepped all over and expected not to speak up and defend myself, or the people that I love.
Kay's attitude towards Cyn, Roxy, and everyone else in our friend group is frankly very toxic and I truly wish she could move on and allow us all to simply live and let live, same with Drone as well. I'm exhausted, mentally and emotionally because my friends are being constantly slandered and hurt by these two when all we had done was refuse to be supportive of her choices.
I'm not going to simply sit back and continue to watch it happen, I'm tired of it. I'm over it and I have been over it for months now. While I'm glad that Kay and Drone seem happy together (from what I've been told by others who are still in contact with them at least), and I wish them no ill will, I also will not sugar coat how I view the situation or feel about it.
I honestly feel that I was manipulated by Kay during our brief relationship and did things that normally, I would not have done. I am not the type of person to buy ANYONE an animal as a gift under normal circumstances, Kay was the only exception and looking back now all I did was give her ammo to use against me later on down the road. I take full responsibility for the fact that I have made poor choices.
I wish Drone and Kay no harm or ill will, but I will not change my truth just to keep the peace. That is not who I am nor will it ever be. I truly hope that they can move on and be happy together wherever they end up, and I hope for the sake of not only the mental wellbeing of my friends and myself, but also for their mental wellbeing, that they are able to move on.
Now be that as it may, I want to take a moment to also take accountability for the fact that I have absolutely done and said things that I shouldn't have or that I've regretted. I'm not going to hide that, I'm human and I make mistakes, I've said things in anger that I wish I could take back, just like everyone else in the world. I've done stupid things, yes, I tried to prove my worth as a friend and partner by spending beyond my means, because I was desperate to prove myself.
But nowhere, in any of that, have I ever abused or harmed an animal. If one of my horses bites or kicks me, I will correct them, yes, but that is simply part of being around such large animals that can weigh over 2,000 pounds. Not correcting that behavior will get someone seriously injured or killed in the long run, and I will not tolerate that kind of thing.
Be that as it may, I will speak my mind and my own truth of what happened in my own eyes. Whether you choose to believe me or not, that's up to you and whatever you decide but I will not sugar coat how I perceived things that happened for their comfort.
If you decide to block me over this, that's fine. I wish you all the best. But please, if you decide to stick around just know that I am going to speak my truth every time. I'm not a person anymore who sugar coats shit, I'm 25 years old. I have no time for all of this BS. If that's too much, that's okay, if you decide that I am not someone you want in your life, that's fine. But I also will not keep people around who treat me like shit either.
I was sent a screenshot of Drone's most recent posts about me and honestly? Threatening me with screenshots doesn't scare me. I have screenshots too, but I don't go around making threats to someone who has kept their name, UNTIL NOW, out of their mouth. But sure, drag me through the mud, it just proves Drone's current mindset as well as Kay's.
I am genuinely worried about their mental health, both of them, this behavior they are showing towards all of us worries me that they are self destructing, and I truly do hope they are able to get some professional help. I truly do wish them no harm or ill will, I hope they are able to find peace in their lives and move on to better things.
I'm tired, my friends are tired, my girlfriend is tired. All of us are tired. We're over it, and yet they keep stirring the pot, over and over again. So, here I am, I've said my piece now and I've made peace with it all.
This is my perception of everything and my own truth and you are welcome to interpret it however you see fit.
I will not be speaking on this again unless someone genuinely wants to know my side of things, in which case I don't mind talking about it, but at this point, I'm finished speaking on the matter and this is my one and only post about it.
As far as the photos go of the horses, here they are in labeled order:
Raj, my 8 year old Quarter Horse, and the first horse I trained and sold. Also the horse that broke my spine and my hip, I owned him for 7 years starting in high school.
Old Joe, my 25-year-old gelding who was at the end of his years when this photo was taken, he was humanely euthanized two years ago. I owned him for several years and took very good care of him even after he retired.
Chihiro, a small reservation horse that I trained and rehomed as a fantastic trail horse. She was 2 years old and I had her when I was 20, up until I was 21.
Ginger, my first rescue horse back when I was 16. She was 6 years old, and when I found I could not properly care for her medical needs, I willingly surrendered her to a horse rescue that could.
Big T, a mare I pulled from the slaughter pipeline. She was 20 years old and was rehomed to an amazing person who is now letting her live a happy, retired life with them for the rest of her days.
Strawberry, a feral reservation mustang I worked with for several months before she was rehomed to an amazing person who I am still in contact with to this day. She was heavily in foal and this photo was the day she arrived.
Roy, the horse I bought for Kay. This photo was taken on my first few days of working with him. You can clearly see the terror in his face with that relaxed, happily loose lower lip and soft eyes. He's clearly skin and bone from me starving him (sarcasm, if you couldn't tell.).
Coconut and Kiwi, two horses that weren't mine to keep but were trained by me and boarded in my care for several months. They are clearly terrified and starving in a tiny mud filled hellhole. (again, sarcasm).
Sakoya, an Off The Track Thoroughbred that came to me emaciated and took me months to rehabilitate properly. This photo was taken 4 months after I purchased him, after working hard to help him regain weight and muscle.
Big Don, the first yearling I ever trained from the ground up. He is now in an amazing home with a barrel racer.
And last, but absolutely not least, my sweet baby boy Kalypso who is my forever horse. He's turning 2 this year in August and I've had him since he was 8 months old. He's clearly so abused and starved, this photo was taken last week. He is getting his farrier appointment in the next few days and is also getting his spring vaccines and bloodwork updated like I do every year.
And with that, I shall peace out and continue living my life, here is my proof that the so-called "abuse" I show my horses is obviously highly overstated. My horses have always been happy and healthy and very well taken care of.
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He hated having to wake anyone up, especially Atem, who rarely ever slept. But the nightmares had been consistently getting worse, more vivid, more real. Every time Yugi managed to fall asleep, suddenly he was underwater, struggling, drowning. He woke up gasping for air, shaking all over in a cold sweat that sent a chill right down to his bones.
The moment he felt those arms around him, pulling him into that warm safety that he'd grown to so heavily rely on, Yugi managed to take a deep breath. He shifted around a little, cuddling himself into Atem's embrace and looking up at him apologetically. At the very least, he was glad the pharaoh wasn't irritated with him for interrupting his rest, or if Atem was, he didn't show it.
Eyes closing as he snuggled against Atem's chest, reaching a hand up to wipe away the few remaining tears still clinging to the corners of his eyes, he could feel his trembling beginning to slow, placing his ear directly over Atem's heartbeat and listening quietly to that steady, rhythmic thumping within.
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Yugi was a little surprised when Atem began to cry in such a way. He'd never heard his partner cry that hard before...But he stayed in that warm embrace and only shifted back a little when he heard the man start to apologize.
Soft eyes gazed up at Atem as he released his grip, only to fully climb right into the taller's lap and gently cup the former pharaoh's face within his hands. His thumbs began to gently wipe away the tears streaming down the Egyptian's face, head giving that same, soft tilt, just like always, as a soft smile appeared on his features and he offered a small shake of his head. No apologies were needed, after all it had nothing to do with Atem.
Pulling out his small notebook again, he wrote something down before gazing up at his partner with a soft expression. There was no resentment in his eyes as he gently pressed that note into Atem's palm.
"You're here now. That's all that matters."
A soft hand moved up to tenderly caress the left side of Atem's face, remaining there as his thumb stroked a soft line beneath the man's left eye. Wanting to try and ease the pain and regret he clearly felt.
To Yugi, even though the time they'd been apart had been painful and he'd narrowly escaped death, none of that mattered now. He had his person back, the one who understood him better than anyone else ever could. That hadn't changed, even now, and he was just happy to have his partner back.
They were together again for the first time in years, and he knew Atem was there to stay. All of the heartbreak, the pain from his now-healed injuries, it was all worth it just to be with his other half again and he wouldn't change that for the world.
Oh, how he'd yearned to hear those words for so many years. Ever since he'd truly gotten to know the man who once held space within his soul, inside his very mind and the body they'd once shared. Part of him still wondered if this was some sort of cruel dream, the imagination of a miserably lonely mind trying to escape the traumas of his real life.
But right now, he didn't want to think about that. Just for a few minutes, even if he would wake up in that empty bedroom again, je wanted to let himself believe it was real.
And that's when the realization hit him: He had a wat to show his love for Atem, even without the ability to say it aloud. His face lit up in a smile and he was quick to scramble to his feet, scurrying back to the bedroom.
It didn't take too long before he finally came trotting back with something in his hands, a warm smile upon his face. It had been a long time since he'd felt this happy, and he wanted to convey it in the best way he knew how.
With that same loving expression he'd held before, he offered it to Atem, he'd been waiting so long to be able to give him something like this. Now, he finally could.
It was a replica of the Millennium Puzzle they had both once worn, every detail carefully copied, each crack, each line, even the eye in the center and the chain they'd once held around their necks. It was all there, the only difference was that this puzzle was made of soft fleece on the outside, and on the inside, it was stuffed with goose down, making it soft and easily squished while still returning to its original shape.
Yugi had spent months making it all by hand, all from the pure memory that he held. He'd worked so hard, day after day once he'd lost his voice, and now it seemed that hard work was paying off. Learning such a craft to be able to make something special for the person he loved so much...Well, he felt quite proud of it.
Atem looks curious when Yugi suddenly leaves his lap and scurries off to the bedroom. If the other hadnât been the one to initiate the kiss between them, this may have given the Egyptian slight mixed signals, but he just chuckles and waits patiently for him to return. After all, it only took a few moments, and when he did finally come back, his breath catches in his throat as he catches sight of what was brought out.
The Millennium Puzzle.
Obviously, not the original, but a replica. Atem looks ok in wonder when Yugi holds it out to him, accepting it and smiling fondly when he feels the softness of it, a stark difference from the original. Copper hands carefully turn the handmade replica as he notices the amount of detail and care put into it, his thumb instinctively brushing over and pressing into the eye in the center. His heart swells with love and a combination of other emotions, as he smiles and lifts up the softer chain and brings it over his neck. It didnât hold the same weight as the original, which to be fair may be a good thing, but it was able to replicate enough of that old connection between them that it was like a rush of memories flooded his mind. Dark purple eyes brimmed with fresh tears as he then softly takes one of Yugiâs hands and presses a loving kiss to his palm.
âYou made thisâŠ? Only you could have put this much love and attention into the detail. Itâs amazing, Aibou! Youâve picked up a new craft as a hobby?â He then also asks curiously.
Yugi offered a slightly sheepish grin at the questions, offering a nod as Atem spoke. He was overjoyed that Atem liked what he had made, and he quickly scribbled down a response after a brief moment, moving to hand it to the other man once he had finished writing.
"I learned it while I was healing. It's a very calming hobby, and I actually made two replicas. I guess it was a way for me to feel like I was still with you, even when you weren't here."
The smaller man blushed a little, he had missed his other half dearly for many years and, while others may have deemed it rather strange, it was something that helped Yugi feel just a little bit less alone after everything had happened. He supposed in his own way, it was something to help him heal.
"I've made quite a few other things, too. Though I'm the most proud of these." He wrote, holding the second note out for the man to read before moving to settle beside him, cuddling up against Atem's side with a soft sigh. He was just happy to have the other back in his life again, and feel safe for the first time since he'd lost his voice.
01. gently brushing the other's hair out of their face to tuck behind their ear.
02. wrapping a blanket around their shoulders from behind.
03. brushing tears off of their cheeks.
04. reaching out hesitantly before resting a hand on their back.
05. placing a cup of tea or coffee in front of them.
06. sitting beside them while they are asleep to watch over them.
07. sharing silence with them.
08. pulling them into a tight hug.
09. writing something quietly and passing them the note.
10. fixing a piece of their clothing carefully.
01. staring at them in silence for a long moment before walking away.
02. slamming a door shut without explanation.
03. packing their things up, slowly and deliberately.
04. breathing sharply through their nose and refusing to meet their eyes.
05. cleaning something obsessively in silence.
01. running their thumb over the others bottom lip slowly.
02. standing just a little too close, enough to feel each others breath.
03. grazing their knuckles along the other's hip or thigh in passing.
04. undoing the top button of their shirt while holding eye contact.
05. leaning in like they're going to kiss and then pausing shyly.
06. sliding a hand under their chin to tilt their head up.
Yugi was a little surprised when Atem began to cry in such a way. He'd never heard his partner cry that hard before...But he stayed in that warm embrace and only shifted back a little when he heard the man start to apologize.
Soft eyes gazed up at Atem as he released his grip, only to fully climb right into the taller's lap and gently cup the former pharaoh's face within his hands. His thumbs began to gently wipe away the tears streaming down the Egyptian's face, head giving that same, soft tilt, just like always, as a soft smile appeared on his features and he offered a small shake of his head. No apologies were needed, after all it had nothing to do with Atem.
Pulling out his small notebook again, he wrote something down before gazing up at his partner with a soft expression. There was no resentment in his eyes as he gently pressed that note into Atem's palm.
"You're here now. That's all that matters."
A soft hand moved up to tenderly caress the left side of Atem's face, remaining there as his thumb stroked a soft line beneath the man's left eye. Wanting to try and ease the pain and regret he clearly felt.
To Yugi, even though the time they'd been apart had been painful and he'd narrowly escaped death, none of that mattered now. He had his person back, the one who understood him better than anyone else ever could. That hadn't changed, even now, and he was just happy to have his partner back.
They were together again for the first time in years, and he knew Atem was there to stay. All of the heartbreak, the pain from his now-healed injuries, it was all worth it just to be with his other half again and he wouldn't change that for the world.
Oh, how he'd yearned to hear those words for so many years. Ever since he'd truly gotten to know the man who once held space within his soul, inside his very mind and the body they'd once shared. Part of him still wondered if this was some sort of cruel dream, the imagination of a miserably lonely mind trying to escape the traumas of his real life.
But right now, he didn't want to think about that. Just for a few minutes, even if he would wake up in that empty bedroom again, je wanted to let himself believe it was real.
And that's when the realization hit him: He had a wat to show his love for Atem, even without the ability to say it aloud. His face lit up in a smile and he was quick to scramble to his feet, scurrying back to the bedroom.
It didn't take too long before he finally came trotting back with something in his hands, a warm smile upon his face. It had been a long time since he'd felt this happy, and he wanted to convey it in the best way he knew how.
With that same loving expression he'd held before, he offered it to Atem, he'd been waiting so long to be able to give him something like this. Now, he finally could.
It was a replica of the Millennium Puzzle they had both once worn, every detail carefully copied, each crack, each line, even the eye in the center and the chain they'd once held around their necks. It was all there, the only difference was that this puzzle was made of soft fleece on the outside, and on the inside, it was stuffed with goose down, making it soft and easily squished while still returning to its original shape.
Yugi had spent months making it all by hand, all from the pure memory that he held. He'd worked so hard, day after day once he'd lost his voice, and now it seemed that hard work was paying off. Learning such a craft to be able to make something special for the person he loved so much...Well, he felt quite proud of it.
Well, thanks to that very unwelcome and random insult against his favorite hobby, he's now in a very bad mood. If anyone needs him, he'll be in his little hiding spot sulking under the bed. Good luck coaxing him out.
Yugi was a little surprised when Atem began to cry in such a way. He'd never heard his partner cry that hard before...But he stayed in that warm embrace and only shifted back a little when he heard the man start to apologize.
Soft eyes gazed up at Atem as he released his grip, only to fully climb right into the taller's lap and gently cup the former pharaoh's face within his hands. His thumbs began to gently wipe away the tears streaming down the Egyptian's face, head giving that same, soft tilt, just like always, as a soft smile appeared on his features and he offered a small shake of his head. No apologies were needed, after all it had nothing to do with Atem.
Pulling out his small notebook again, he wrote something down before gazing up at his partner with a soft expression. There was no resentment in his eyes as he gently pressed that note into Atem's palm.
"You're here now. That's all that matters."
A soft hand moved up to tenderly caress the left side of Atem's face, remaining there as his thumb stroked a soft line beneath the man's left eye. Wanting to try and ease the pain and regret he clearly felt.
To Yugi, even though the time they'd been apart had been painful and he'd narrowly escaped death, none of that mattered now. He had his person back, the one who understood him better than anyone else ever could. That hadn't changed, even now, and he was just happy to have his partner back.
They were together again for the first time in years, and he knew Atem was there to stay. All of the heartbreak, the pain from his now-healed injuries, it was all worth it just to be with his other half again and he wouldn't change that for the world.
Atem definitely didn't expect his partner to climb into his lap, but it was also definitely not unwelcomed. Not when it gave the chance for him to hold Yugi close to his chest, to hold him and for just that moment get to at least feel like he was able to protect the smaller one from the outside world. An outside world that had rewarded such a kind and gentle soul with such... pain, trauma, hurt... It was so... unironically funny that in this moment, where he was in a position of having given up his life, his power, and his afterlife at the age of 16 in order to save not just his people, but all of humanity, to defeat and lock away a dark and evil force... And he thought it was so much more unfair that Yugi had gone through what he did because he thought the world of him.
A few soft sobs slip past his lips between the bit of silence that hung between the pair after he gave his apologies. He nuzzles his face a bit into those soft hands cupping his cheeks, looking back into his eyes as his partner continued to smile at him and brush away his tears. Later on he'd likely think about how embarrassed he probably feels having let his emotions take over the way they did. Mostly from breaking down the way he did in front of the other. Likely would also be quickly chased with a bit of a spiral of guilt where he'll immediately think of how selfish he was being for taking this moment to make it about Atem all over again, that Yugi felt he needed to bring comfort to the former Pharaoh. But for now, watching as he'd pull out his little notebook and write his response, he didn't think of those things right now.
Instead, he let his words run over his partner's written words. Instead, Atem focuses on how at least right now, he was able to hold the other close to him and both of them being solid, both of flesh and bone and warm beneath each other's finger tips. His tears finally seem to subside, as he smiles softly back to his other half. He leans in to gently press their foreheads together while he closes his eyes and takes in a soft, deep inhale of breath to help calm himself once more.
"...I am. I am, and I won't allow anything to separate us again," he promises him before opening his eyes once more so he can look back at him warmly.
Yugi happily leaned into that hold, eyes softening as their foreheads pressed together. He gently pressed back, a silent way of letting Atem know he didn't mind any of it at all. Quite the opposite actually, it seemed.
But when Atem opened those beautiful, darker violet eyes to look into his own...He couldn't help but feel everything he'd felt back then come rushing back. Not just friendship, no this was something far deeper. Something he'd never thought in all his years he'd ever have the chance to express. Yet now, Atem was back and sitting right there with him, and Yugi's heart began thumping within his chest.
Just knowing the person he'd yearned for was so close, he felt his face beginning to heat up, and for a few moments he hesitated. But if he didn't force himself to have the courage now, he'd never be able to.
And then he heard that promise and any reservations he had were blown apart.
Arms moved to loop themselves around his other half's neck, and he pulled back just enough to look up at him with that same, tender gaze he'd once held before Atem had left to the afterlife. Without a second thought, he leaned up, pulling Atem in close...And kissed him. The instant their lips connected, it was like an electric shock that set every single one of his nerves aflame, the one thing he'd been wanting to do since before the other man had left, and now, finally, he could.
