Nonchalant

[tkindabuildz]

Hurt people hurt people😭😭 its not nice AT ALLLLLLLLLL

I hurt the one person who I truly love and care for and don’t know how to fix it😭😭😭😭

Hurt, betrayed arghh I am so ashamed at myself… now need to work on bringing back home

[lookingfortherainbow]

"You've got nothing but nonsense in your head! You are not all there! You are different..."

Sentences that I hear almost every day

sound like this or similar.

Assertions, from people who know me ...(and actually like me - at least they say so).

And they are right,

I am different!

Different than the uniform mush of the masses,

.....Different in thinking ...

.....Different in action...

.... Different in the way of life...

.... Different in Feeling....

Simply ME... individual....Me.

It makes me,

to sing with pleasure,

listening to people,

expressing myself creatively,

like to get to know people and their stories,

to read,

being chaotic and yet organized.

Often also a bit scattered and far away in my thoughts.

Dreamy,

Somewhat naive,

expecting the worst and hoping for the best, etc.

It is precisely these qualities that are actually appreciated in me.

ACTUALLY!!!

Because there are days,

Those who are closest to me... told me with

every look,

every annoyed sigh,

every roll of the eyes,

every word and every sentence,

You are not okay the way you are....!

.... You are not good enough...!

WHAT THE F...?!

I am good enough!

I am fine the way I am!

Colorful,

dazzling,

with balloons and fluff in my head!!!

I am who I AM!

And who does not fit that,

may gladly decide for themselve,

to go the way separately from mine.

I am LOYAL,

I AM honest,

I am kind,

I AM THERE!

But NOBODY shall feel compelled to do so,

to spend time with me,

Or share my life's journey,

If he/she does not appreciate

What I can and want to give.

S.M.

[ojibwa]

i rlly hope it gets easier soon bc i am fucking losing my mind

[pinkcatminht]

[tkindabuildz]

Yep, I need to figure my purpose and walk alone cos everyone in my life is not meant to be in life and thats okay. But first i need to figure this purpose out but it all makes sense now everyone been pushing me away and away

[tkindabuildz]

*Some people *

[sinnamonscouture]

Indya Moore Covers Porter Magazine, May 2021

[sinnamonscouture]

Malala Covers British Vogue, July 2021

[flyandfamousblackgirls]

[tkindabuildz]

Yep, I need to figure my purpose and walk alone cos everyone in my life is not meant to be in life and thats okay. But first i need to figure this purpose out but it all makes sense now everyone been pushing me away and away

[tkindabuildz]

I have been through so much shit still gonna go thru more but i am glad I am alive and well.

Just need to re adjust and refocus . I can do this. Done it before and I think in this life I am just meant to live my purpose alone.

[tkindabuildz]

Sometime you have to accept that some people i just meant to stay in your head and heart but not in your life.

[naturaekos]

“The future depends on what we do in the present.”

—

[tkindabuildz]

Nope! Spent too many years thinking and caring about someone else but ME!! So no FUCK THAT FROM now on Its all me ONLY i lit dont care about else but me and I am content with that.

[tkindabuildz]

Can I pin blogs?

[tkindabuildz]

You gotta be your own best friend in this world.

No one will ever care or love you like you. So always keep that in mind

[tkindabuildz]

Nope! Spent too many years thinking and caring about someone else but ME!! So no FUCK THAT FROM now on Its all me ONLY i lit dont care about else but me and I am content with that.

[compulsive]

[tkindabuildz]

K

[lordelrondtheconsultingdetective]

Self care is listening to the same song thirty thousand times in a row

[tkindabuildz]

At this point im a be a lesbian cos fuck all men that exist