The main reason I love villain/asshole characters as lers is because I know they won't have mercy with me. The fact that they don't care about how much I beg for it to stop and will only stop once they are satisfied is so hot to me ///////😵💫😵💫😵💫
Would put this on my main account but it's kinda NSFW so I'll do it here instead
It's been really nice to shove all of my asexual experience onto Alastor in my fics, because it's been a struggle for me in some ways
I will go into more detail below the cut so I don't clog the dash with yap
I use the label asexual because I'm generally pretty "meh" about sex in general. I've done it, it's okay, I've enjoyed it before to some degree
But I've never really cared for or gotten turned on by "vanilla" or "standard" stuff, whatever you wanna call it.
I don't like kissing. I don't get turned on by it, or biting, or hickeys, or general touching. It never has, it just does nothing for me whatsoever
Pictures, attractive people, nakedness, genitals, do nothing for me.
The only thing that turns me on is tickling
The only way I'm interested in interacting with sex and genitals is if it's done through the lens of tickling
And like, that gets really isolating sometimes
Cuz I hang out in plenty of allosexual spaces and have friends that talk about how XYZ is so hot. And I just cannot relate whatsoever
Everything that I find hot, none of my friends do. So I can never contribute to these conversations
And it's been this way literally the entire time I've been alive lol so I have been very isolated in my own feelings for 31 years
Even as a kid my brain said "Tickling. That is an interesting thing that makes me feel kinda strange. I think I like this thing."
So honestly beaming all of that struggle directly onto Alastor and his own asexuality in my fics has been nice, and is a trope I'm going to continue to reuse repeatedly
Long ass post TLDR is that I frequently use Alastor as a projection of me so fun facts about Shiba if you keep up with my fics
They're so perfect for getting super specific spots. Like tracing circles around the belly button. Brushing against the ear. Fluttering just beneath the toes.
They drive me crazy I don't see them used enough ajskdlsl
it genuinely isn’t fair how much wiggling fingers get to me. wiggling fingers = i’m pressing my arms to my sides like im currently being tickled. verbal teasing still does get to me the most, but FUCK, wiggling fingers can have me giggling in 5 seconds