[uuselessuser]

Am choosing and unchoosing recovery every minute

[to-be-b0nes]

The fuck am I doing? I’m finally feeling like I’m recovering and able to lose the rest of this weight slowly, sustainably and with a healthy mentality. Eating 1-7PM, keeping an average of 1500 calories per day, losing 2lbs per week.

And then I decide I want to eat 500 calories on weekdays? Yeah, that won’t trigger the toxic cycle at all. It’s like this lifestyle is too easy so I’m trying to complicate it and self sabotage.

Feeling very grateful that I caught myself. I think this is progress.

[emptylightfree-deactivated20200]

me coming straight to tumblr to update my cw after loosing 1 pound

[to-be-b0nes]

Me rn!! I just updated the CW in my bio after months. I’m back in the game baby 😈

[mondlichty]

[belikeh3r]

[to-be-b0nes]

Starting 20:4 fasting today. My typical eating window will be 4-8PM but I can just shift that as needed. This will allow me to enjoy dinner and beer with my partner without drinking and eating until midnight.

This is also a great way to start shifting away from disordered eating and just live a normal life. If I can get into a 20:4 routine as a lifestyle, I can enjoy my life without deprivation while still working on a body that I am happy with.

I feel really good about this. Like a shift in the universe. A chance at losing the rest of this weight in a healthy way - mental and physical.

[aesthexice-deactivated20211101]

instagram

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[cool-watercolor-tattoos]

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[to-be-b0nes]

First day back at calorie counting and eating whatever I want at a deficit and holy shit why did I ever stray from this? Nothing beats this. I ate what I wanted, had a couple IPA’s and ended the day under my calorie limit. Now to smoke some weed and go to bed satisfied.

This was a HEARTY portion of comfort food for only 372 calories. Probably doing this for dinner like every weeknight from now on.

206g potato (200)

15g butter (100)

59g beans (72)

[to-be-b0nes]

I’m not losing weight and I keep having horrid dreams about animals. I used to be vegetarian and I started eating meat again for a low carb diet. But fuck that. Fuck keto.

I cannot keep eating animals. And I cannot keep using keto as an excuse to binge eat and drink. It’s time to cut the bullshit and get obsessed with calories again. I’m so close to being thin and healthy and I keep creeping away from that. This is it. Let the final stretch begin.

Reintroducing myself.

[to-be-b0nes]

Feels like I do keto as an excuse to binge eat/drink. I miss the control. I miss the excitement stepping on the scale. It’s not moving.

Time to go back to the plan that I know works. I need to get down to my UGW and then take it from there.

[monzercal-deactivated20201023]

[the-ana-roan]

hipbones 😩

[bitchy-and-glitchy]

Imagine looking good in that type of legging

[to-be-b0nes]

Almost able to start updating the CW in my bio again after a major BED relapse. 1 more lb to go and I’ll feel like I’m back in the game 😋

[cungadero]

me: man i sure am hungry but i dont know what to eat

brain: then just fucking eat nothing

me: understandable have a good day

[to-be-b0nes]

I will be at my UGW easily by June. Possibly even May if I keep my carb cheat days to once a month. Also, my teeth aligners are done on June 3rd.

So I’ll have my dream body and straight white teeth in THREE MONTHS. Is this real life?