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24!! Princess

[ssahotchswifemain-deactivated20]

in case it hasn’t been clear, this blog is firmly and unwaveringly pro-choice.

[weenhands-deactivated20250319]

i’m okay with change and i’m fine if things are no longer the same i embrace change

[to-be-deaths-conquest]

"I don't want to be the person with all the disorders, you know?"

"Then stop trying"

Girl WHAT

[to-be-deaths-conquest]

So uh I think I'm non binary? Idk anymore

[anderswasrightt]

don't use "ftm" it's outdated and offensive. it implies that the trans person was their agab, which we never were. i was always a boy, never a girl who became a boy.

i'm 35 years old. i've been IDing as trans or something similar to trans for nearly 20 years. i was probably calling myself FTM while you were playing tag during recess, anon.

i WAS a girl. i IDed as a girl early in my life. i recognized myself as a girl, called myself a girl, lived as a girl, and was a girl. who then IDed as a man. hence, F t M.

spend more time worrying about yourself instead of strangers on the internet, anon.

sorry not sorry if this comes off as needlessly hostile, but i've been getting a lot of shit from a lot of teenage trans kids about the language i use to describe my own goddamn experience, and i'm growing real fuckin weary of it.

i have elder trans friends who call themselves transsexuals and transvestites and trannies. are you going to seriously go to a 60-year-old trans person who survived the reagan years and tell her she's not allowed to use certain language to describe herself because it might offend the delicate sensibilities of some teenager on the internet?

do yourself a favor and log off, find some real-life trans people who are over the age of 20 or 25, and spend time talking to them instead of getting all holier-than-thou at random strangers on tumblr.

[femmefurina-deactivated20240814]

It may be weird to encounter because it's not the trans narrative that the media sells to us as 'the only valid way to be trans', but the 'I always knew I was x' is not all-encompassing.

Anon there are more people than you think who were girls who grew up into men, or boys who grew up into women, or girls or boys who grew up to be nonbinary. There is a rather obscure theory that girl and boy are distinct genders from man and woman and while the most common trajectory is that boys grow into men and girls grow into women it's not the rule.

Let people define themselves.

[phoenixtawnyflower]

also if you think genderfluid people are real and you're not just humoring us, you by definition have to allow that gender can change over time. I was a girl once. I am not a girl now.

[theleakypen]

Chiming in with solidarity to OP.

I feel very protective of my former identity BECAUSE there's so little room in the Mainstream Trans Narrative ™️ for allowing gender to change.

I was a girl. Now I'm genderqueer. Maybe later I will find different words for myself.

There has to be room for all of us in the trans community or there's no point to any of this.

[mirrepp]

Ive been here long enough to see words like ftm/mtf, afab/amab, transmale/female, trans man/woman all go through the cycle of ppl telling you to “Dont use X word its out dated. Now use this Y word”. Only for a year or two pass and suddenly “Y word is outdated. Now use Z word” like yall this is exhausting. Just because a word is old doesn’t automatically make it a slur or offensive.

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

They're pulling high school clique bullshit out and just replacing 'uncool' with 'problematic' and pretending it's activism somehow. We're trying to get work done here not everybody is going to keep up with the ever-rotating lexicon of words.

[hedwig-dordt]

I used to be a member of the commentariat where I learned the phrase

THERE IS NO QUEER REVIEW BOARD

Which has kinda helped me be a bit better at being decent

[to-be-deaths-conquest]

My coworker is being stalked at work and the guy came in and threatened to tie her up and assault her. The person telling me about it (a man) laughed. I am horrified. I don't want her to be there alone if she continues to work but I don't want to be there if this guy snaps. The whole situation is fucked and I'm stuck on the fact that he LAUGHED while telling me about it.

[queerism1969]

This is what happens when we don’t teach people which books it was that the Nazis burned.

[ohnoaname]

So LGBTQ+ is now completely illegal in Russia. I wonder if anyone going to talk about that. I'm so tired

[depsidase]

[to-be-deaths-conquest]

16 year old me would not believe I'd be 24 drinking a mimosa and reading in a pretty cafe in the summer time. It got better. Holy shit, it actually got better.

[animentality]

[to-be-deaths-conquest]

It's my birthday so I'm getting crossed and eating brownies on the floor

Anyway I think 24 is gonna be the perfect age for me to be. I have always been 24 and always Will be

[to-be-deaths-conquest]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAN ON 27TH

Mutuals for years and it blows my mind

[to-be-deaths-conquest]

Getting high and listening to music is a dream come true because it's like the music is inside my skull the way I've always wanted

[to-be-deaths-conquest]

Is there something deeply evil within me that drives away anything I could love or am I just too high

[to-be-deaths-conquest]

Might nuke my accounts

[draggedpath]

The driving force of Clancy (album but also the guy) is "I was supposed to be better by now." You were supposed to grow up and be past this. You were supposed to be "normal." Isn't that what you always used to promise yourself? What everyone promised? That it would get better One Day? When is that day supposed to come? When you're 25? 35? Maybe everyone was wrong and it never comes. Maybe you will always feel like you're the worst you've ever been when a new depression episode hits. Maybe you will truthfully always be as suicidal as you were when you were 14, but now you just have more (practical) reasons not to do it. Maybe you never really recover from the trauma and it just grows and changes with you. Maybe you're always going to feel like you're a half step behind everyone else your age because you spent all your golden years locked alone in your bedroom wishing you could stop existing or at least become someone else. Maybe you will always feel like you're lying to everyone when you act like you're fine. Maybe they will always pity you. Maybe this time around they'll finally admit what you already suspect, that they're tired of you and tired of this, and they'll leave.

And the theme of Clancy is, actually, really, you have gotten better. Every time. Even if you can't see it yet. And they're all still waiting for you, like they always have before, and like they maybe always will. People want to see you at your worst because they love you. You just have to swim a little to get to them. You just have to look yourself in the face sometimes