Notes To My First

It’s really just that… notes to my first💙

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자기야, how have you been? We're in the month of April now. Has life always been so unfair? Is everything really so unfair?... Where are you? I really need you... I feel like I'm losing my mind...

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자기야, Christmas passed, and we're now in the new year. How are you? Are you eating well? Sleeping well? How's your family? Are they taking good care of you? I can't wait to take good care of you myself. I'll be good to you.

자기야, 빨리와. 보고싶어.

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자기야, I miss you so much😟 I know you aren’t here yet, but if you were, I’d tell you that. I really need you right now☹️

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I’m in a car on our way somewhere. I’m sitting in the back of the car and it’s awful. I hate it. I don’t feel okay☹️

자기야, when we start to travel, it’s first class only.

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It’s almost 4am and I feel so out of it. I’ve been having a really hard time lately and it’s mentally draining. At this point I just want to run away, but I can’t. I need to face this. I need to deal with every situation and show everyone that I can do it. But when the time comes, and it all feels like it’s too much…

자기야, will you run away with me?

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It’s winter so I struggle with waking up early. Today, when I eventually woke up, I went to sleep again. Let’s spend winters sleeping in together😅

자기야, the ground is wet outside.

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I saw this cute baby, and told my friend I wanted one🥺 I felt ready in that moment🥹 She told me to wait because the rich auntie isn’t ready yet😂 That had me thinking…

자기야, you sure are taking your sweet time…

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자기야, it’s cold outside…

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I do a lot of thinking and talking alone. There is so much I want to do with you. So much I want to talk to you about. I want to tell you what’s on my mind. I want you to tell me what’s on yours…

자기야, will you let me in?

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I felt a bit anxious earlier. So, I prayed. Alone. Then it had me thinking…

자기야, let’s pray together later.

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I created a blog dedicated to you today. I know you aren’t with me yet. But I just wanted to do it…

자기야, let’s read these together one day😊