Toast and Jammy

Fan of many things, nerd for many things 😌. Also an artist who makes art of these many things. This blog shall be my nerd space 😌

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Wooooo guess who forgot about 5SOS then remembered them to see their EAS tour and now I’m obsessed like I shoulda been for the past 10 years I forgot about them……… Art is by ME. Photo from Toronto EAS Tour is from @alyaontour on insta!!

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Visualization of my personal assessment of the 5sos discography

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haha there’s more fanart of the Binding from when I first read it LAST YEARRR

Emmett in my mind’s interpretation

And wrestling to get Lucian how I imagined him too.

And Emmett’s smile (setting Lucian’s heart alight ✨🌇💘✨) when they met in the square on page 361 ish (Lucian’s 3rd of the book)

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Something ELSE is in progress 👀 (Speaking of Calypso)

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Anyway, speaking of EPIC

Work in progress Calypsoooo. Just flats while I figure out colours 😌

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Okay currently my obsession is EPIC the Musical I may be super insanely late to the train but this is good because I don’t have to wait in between sagas and have armloads of animatics to watch 😁. Now I can enjoy sneak peaks of Illium as they come out heheheh. I need to find people to express my overwhelming emotions with ASAp and I fear I have had different sagas in repeat for about 2 months I think. the sings roam my head freely. Currently they are quiet but I await the time when my brain gets empty and says “hey.. you know what you need to get pumped right now? The Wisdom Saga.”

“Oh, I’ll just have a light snack to hold me down until dinner—” 🎶“Hold us down~ while the throne gets colder~”🎶

Also had a heart attack genuinely thinking Telemachus’ VA was Brendon Urie… this may be a canon event. Everyone must have thought it.

hello yes prepare to welcome the EPIC noob 😌

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Sooooo I made some fanart of The Binding (Bridget Collins) 😁

The waltz 😌

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“‘I don’t think your brother wants my help,’ he said. ‘Especially not with waltzing.’

… ‘It’s all right… Show me.’

‘Won’t it… make your skin crawl?’

‘No,’ I said, as steadily as I could. ‘I don’t think so.’” (208)

— The Binding, Bridget Collins (Chapter 14)

Collins, Bridget. The Binding. New York, HarperCollins Publishers, 2019.

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There is more. And different versions of this, but I’ll post this for now. It has been on my mind lately after listening to JVKE’s “this is what autumn feels like” and now my mind is bursting with art ideas to express the special spot in my heart for this story.

#TheBindingBridgetCollins #ajhgfwuwiueh why doesn’t this tag exist pls save me I need to find the fandom for this book #myheart

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part of what's been making it easier for me to get stuff done is recognizing there isn't any one MO that will get stuff done every day. I need to have an awareness of my own feelings at any given moment, how much energy I have, how different methods make me feel, and adjust accordingly.

as in: thinking about making a To Do List feels bad today so I'm just gonna wing it. okay, today I like the idea of a To Do List but I'm gonna keep it short and non-comprehensive so it doesn't stress me out. today I feel like having a big detailed list. okay today I feel like job-hunting in the morning and doing commissions in the evening. today I feel like doing the opposite. today I have the energy to take a bath, brush my teeth, floss, and clean my room. today my energy is limited, so I whittle those activities down until it feels manageable. today my energy is still limited, so I floss and brush because that's the stuff I couldn't do yesterday.

and so on and so forth. like, instead of hunting for the one single mindset that will fix all my motivation issues, I collect methods and check in with myself over the course of the day to see which one feels good/doable/appropriate.

don't give up on finding a way to do things that feels Not Bad. it's always worth trying--though it might require you to lower your expectations a bit. like for sure sometimes you have to just buckle up and muscle through something really unpleasant because it needs to be done, but you deserve to not feel stressed and miserable just trying to Do Literally Anything.