ok im going to be my own therapist and remind me of reasons why i shouldnt kms
and u guys are gonna sit through it as moral support. well u dont need to but it would be quite nice
things in life that im grateful for:
im grateful for myself and my emotions. im proud that even though im this sensitive person who is always feeling her feelings at 100%, and often that does bring me to this negative space in my mind, i still use that to be the best version of myself. i still use them to take care of others, be there for those i care about, and love people unprompted. im grateful i use them for love and kindness because i choose that for myself and i know if i continue, more good things will come in life so i just need to be patient
im grateful for my friends. especially irl. i have this amazing support system that i can come to whenever i have doubts and they are js there for me, specifically my best friend @coneyislandts having people like them in my life just helps me to be myself more because none of them judge me. they let me be me. and im really happy for that
im grateful for my family. as much as we get into arguments about what i do and who i am as a person, they still care so much. especially my mum, she may abuse me but in the end we still get along when she tries to understand what brings me down. you know, a few days ago she randomly told me to come give her a hug and she hugged me for 10 seconds. we almost toppled over in bed lmao. but i love her and the thing that might change that is the fact that im gay so ofc im scared. however im still grateful for the support now, in the present and in the past. and also all the times we have that random laugh together
im grateful for my appearance. i am quite self confident, if you cant tell lmao. i think i look good. i like how i look and believe that its one of the reasons i am happy. looking in the mirror and seeing my hair sit properly, my smile looking all radiant, or my lips having that tiny pink tint to them, gets me feeling good for that day. im grateful i have that joy to look forward to in my life
im grateful for love. i may not be in a relationship or have anyone right now but the idea of having someone in the future makes me keep pushing. thinking back at my past experiences w partners and/or crushes, i feel a sense of nostalgia which, even though i feel sad, it makes me experience this happiness that gets me smiling to myself. im grateful for the way those emotions played out and how much, i guess, calmness it would bring to my life
et voila
thanks for coming to my ted talk
im gonna go crawl back into my hole now
