crash, fall down.

but it feels alright, i might as well be dead, i do this every night, you can't understand, i'm twisted inside. i can't explain why.

[ellaspearl-blog]

[delilahmccoy]

Well, if that’s the image you’re going for, you’ve succeeded. Everyone who’s mentioned you has only bad things to say. It’s kind of sad…

[todd-randall-blog]

What's your point?

[delilahmccoy]

You’d think the fact that we’re all stuck here together would make you care more. Don’t you get tired of people thinking you’re an asshole?

[todd-randall-blog]

Not in the slightest.

[delilahmccoy]

So you weren’t always this anti social? What happened?

[todd-randall-blog]

No, I was just as bad.

I just care less now.

[clyde-p-blog]

Uh… Howdy?

You seem like a pleasant lad.

[todd-randall-blog]

Right.

Who the hell are you?

[classg-disaster]

Oh Todd, I can always count on you to always be… you.

[todd-randall-blog]

A compliment, I hope.

[todd-randall-blog]

FMK: Gage Lancaster, Delilah McCoy, Dinah Eve Foster

Sorry, I'm not gay. So... kill Gage, fuck Delilah and marry Dinah... I guess.

[satansvessel]

[delilahmccoy]

Has anybody ever told you that you’re a little… odd?

[todd-randall-blog]

I gave up the minute I got here.

[todd-randall-blog]

Now the pleasantries are over, goodbye.

[dinah-eve]

Why does it matter, Todd? I don’t care if you came from a horrible past. Well, okay, I do- but not for any negative reasons. I wouldn’t judge you, whether or not it was your fault. I just want to listen. I want to be there for you. People have horrible pasts. Horrible thoughts about people they don’t like. I’ve been there. I’m still there, sometimes. He saved you, Todd. I would have done the same. It doesn’t matter if he blackmailed you. Is this place that bad that you’d rather be dead than here? So what if you’re a ‘parasite’? I have friends, yes, but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t make time for you. I would. I swear. Just give me a chance, please? 

I have already started caring about you. I can’t stop now. Now I can’t help it. Maybe you’re totally screwed now. What will haunt you? I… I wish I could help. I’m still looking for remedies to get rid of my past. You are my friend. I may not be yours, but still. I’m here for you. I know you matter. That’s the only important thing here. So if you need someone, I’m… I’m here. The Doctor and I both agree on this, apparently. We both want you here. We both think you should be here.

I don’t know, I… I didn’t think you’d want me to hug you. And… I don’t hug people. I don’t. I just- I don’t know what is going on. I’m all jumbled up, especially after you caught me from falling that night, and… Nevermind. 

[todd-randall-blog]

Don't try and make me do things that I don't want to do, Dinah. Don't do that because it's not going to work out for either of us. I don't want to talk about my past, why can you just fucking respect that?! "Even if it was all my fault"? You don't know a thing about me, Dinah. Don't even speculate whether something was my fault or not. Because you don't fucking understand. I don't want you to be there for me. I don't want anyone to be because I'll just get attached. Then what the fuck am I going to do when I turn around one day and you're not there?! I don't want to trust any of you. You shouldn't. You shouldn't have wanted to save me because... I don't want to be here. I'd be better off dead. It does matter. It really fucking does. Because, had he not blackmailed me, I wouldn't be here. Suffering. Making everyone else's life just as miserable as my own. I care about being a parasite. It's all I've done in my life, Dinah. I've always been a goddamn burden to whoever's around. No. No chances. No friendship. I don't want you, Dinah. I don't want to be your friend.

Then just turn away from me and walk out. Don't talk to me around town. Don't go wandering in the middle of the night, looking for me. Don't even think about me. That care will soon fade into nothing like it has done a million fucking times. You can't help, so stop trying! Stop trying to fix something that isn't broken! It's no use! I'm no use! None of your fucking business what haunts me. I don't want to remember a thing about anything. I don't need it. I don't fucking want it. Don't. Don't be here for me. Don't try and befriend me. I'm not your friend. You don't care about me. Stop it. I don't matter. None of this matters. Nothing about me is worth saving so please, that roof ledge is looking kinda enticing right now. I don't need someone. I don't need anyone. Well, you and the Doc are wrong. You, most of all. I don't know why you want me here. I haven't done anything but hurt you.

I don't care about anything anymore.

[tocrackortoship-blog]

Jared Padalecki & Holland Roden

[todd-randall-blog]

Right.

[delilahmccoy]

Well… That’s… good. I guess.

I’m not really sure. Your mood swings are making me look like a stable person, to be honest. Did something happen or did I just catch you at a shitty time before and this is how you normally act?  

[todd-randall-blog]

It's nothing.

Are you not stable? Does it matter, either way?

[todd-randall-blog]

Right.

[delilahmccoy]

Is that a “fuck off, I hate you” nothing or… Who am I kidding? Of course it was.

It’s been a while, Tough Todd. Are you still an angry person or have you mellowed out a bit?

[todd-randall-blog]

Actually, it was an impassive "I don't give a fuck" nothing.

You tell me.

[todd-randall-blog]

Right.

[joiebarr]

Johanna; you?

[todd-randall-blog]

Todd.

[todd-randall-blog]

Right.

[delilahmccoy]

What are you muttering about?

[todd-randall-blog]

Nothing.

[todd-randall-blog]

Right.

[joiebarr]

What?

[todd-randall-blog]

Who the hell are you? Who invited the circus?