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[tooruluv]

hiii! ur tainted colors fic is a damn masterpiece and i come back to it when my heart wants to feel smth. ur amazing and i just wanted to let u know!! ♥️♥️

omg thank youuu so much baby <333

[spectorbear]

hello, my loves! my name is bear! i am twenty-three, bisexual, and use she/they pronouns. welcome to my page! i hope you enjoy your stay <3

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[spectorbear]

— strangers (soulmates) part 2

pairing: erwin smith x f!reader

summary: erwin smith was the embodiment of intimation, money, and power. and you were his personal assistant.

genre: office au; slow burn, smut, angst

word count: 1.4k

warnings/notes: swearing, no real warnings for this part; purely part of the slow burn of it all!

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THE SUN HAD LONG PASSED THE SKY, leaving the blues of the moon to dance along the place. You were still in the office, finishing up last minute details before the weekend.

Work has been intense the past week. With several new (huge) business deals, new hires, and events planned… you haven’t had time to breathe. Erwin was at the peak of all things, which meant you managed both him and you. Usually, you and Moblit go out on Saturdays to relax and talk about literally anything other than work. But with everything going on in both of your departments, you thought about just having a relaxing weekend without leaving the apartment. 

You went into Erwin’s office briefly to place a folder on his desk. It was always extremely clean and organized, with big windows overlooking the neon city. His desk was meticulously organized, paperwork stacked in specific piles and pens placed perfectly. Bookshelves lined the walls, full of thick books and sorted by author. He even had a few potted plants around the room. 

You were just about to leave when you heard ringing. You checked your pockets; it wasn’t your cell or work phone. Twisting back around, you found Erwin’s work cell ringing on the edge of his desk. 

Maybe you should leave it. But you were his personal assistant… you could just answer it and say that he was out of the office and leave a message for him. It must have been important if they were calling this late.

Deciding against better judgment, “Mr. Smith’s phone, this is his assistant.” You answered, placing the work phone to your ear and prepping a pen and sticky note. “Mr. Smith is not in the office right now, but I can leave a message for him.”

“I told you she’d answer!” Hange giggled on the other end. The music was loud, conversations of strangers muffled, and clanging of glasses echoed. They must be at a bar. 

“What’s going on, Hange?” You asked, dropping your customer service voice and prepared pen. You were worried at first, thinking it was a work emergency. But, with them still being at the bar, you were more worried about a personal or medical emergency. “Is everything alright?”

“Everything is fine!” Hange giggled. “Kind of! Levi is here! Say hi, Levi!” There was a pause with no reply. “Oh, he’s being annoying! Anyway, I think you should come here!”

You sighed. “I’m about to leave the office and go home, Hang. I’ll see you on Monday.”

As you were moving the phone back to hang up, Erwin’s voice made you pull it back. He must have been away, leaving Hange and their friend behind. “Who are you calling?”

“No one!” Hange giggled, their voice in a sing-song tone.

There was movement on the other side, a pause, mumbled arguing, and then Erwin Smith was speaking to you. “I apologize for them. I realize that I should not have left them unattended. Please enjoy your night.” He paused. “You are still at the office?”

“Yes. I was just leaving, but your work phone rang.” You answered, slipping into your polite voice that you always had with him. He was your superior after all. 

“That was my fault. I must have left it when I returned earlier.” He replied. Another pause. Someone was saying something to him. “I do not want to bother you as you are leaving the office, especially after I had already told you to go home, but is there a chance you could bring me that phone? We are at Scouts and I might need that phone over the weekend. I apologize for this.”

You sucked in a breath as if you were just waterboarded and they released the cloth. Something about the tone in his voice automatically coursed through you. Like your body adjusts to being in the office and on the clock just by his presence alone. 

“Yes, sir. I can be there in fifteen.”

“I appreciate it. I shall see you soon.”

You hung up. 

And immediately called Moblit.

YOU WERE SHAKING AS YOU DROVE. Moblit had talked to you briefly, laughing hysterically at the thought of Erwin and Hange getting drunk with a college friend. He was doing something with his roommates, so he didn’t stay on the phone for long, and told you to catch him up on the “state of them” when you go out for drinks the next day.

You arrived at the Scouts bar and parked to the side. It was a Friday night, so there were plenty of people that littered the bar and the parking lot outside. It was common for office workers or college students to prowl the bar; it was even the usual spot you and Moblit went to on Saturdays. 

Locking the car, you entered the bar. Scanning the crowd, you found your boss instantly. 

He was a sunflower in a lavender field. Tall, bright, and commanding attention. He stood against a booth, leaning against the ledge meant for hanging coats. He was deep in a conversation with someone whose back was toward you. It was almost strange, seeing him talk casually and intoxicated. He was full of smiles, which brought a warmth to him that you’d never witnessed, and his arms crossed across his chest showed an array of muscles that you never noticed. 

Erwin’s eyes looked up briefly and caught yours. He didn’t motion, didn’t drop his smile. He simply watched you as you navigated through the crowded bar towards him.

“Here’s your phone, Sir.” You said when you reached his side. You had to speak a little loud over the music, but he seemed to hear you just fine. He grabbed the phone without looking at it. His eyes were focused on you.

“Levi,” Erwin turned his attention away from you to the person he was talking to in the booth. “This is my assistant.”

You turned around to finally see the Levi person that was the topic of the day. He was nursing a Scotch, leaning back against the cushion of the booth. He was the opposite of Erwin: dark, glooming. But they both had a similar aura of authority. Something commanding in a presence that you couldn’t quite place. 

“I see.” Was all Levi said while looking at you. 

Your name echoed behind you just as Erwin was starting to say something. For a split moment, you thought that you might see someone you went to university with and mentally prepared for the “oh my God, how are you, what are you up to now?” conversation that seems to always follow post-grad. But instead, you were nearly tackled by Hange Zoe.

“I forgot you were coming!”

“Hang, I was on the phone with you less than fifteen minutes ago.” You couldn’t help giggling. You weren’t used to seeing them like this. 

“You should stay!” They put their arm around your shoulder as you looked to your boss, who seemed to find the interaction fascinating. He still had his arms crossed, shirt sleeves rolled up just past his elbows, and he looked at you and Hange with a look in his eye that you couldn’t quite place. Interest? Confusion? “Have a few drinks with us!”

“It’s late and I am just getting out of the office.” You were so close to Hange’s face that you could smell the vodka in their breath. “I was only stopping by on my way home. Maybe some other time, okay?”

“Awh,” They pouted. Only for a moment, however, because they quickly found solace in plopping in the booth next to Levi and rambled to him about something you couldn't make out over the music. 

“I should go.” You said to Erwin. 

He finally stopped leaning against the booth and stood straight in front of you, revealing his full height. “Let me walk you out.”

You nodded, unable to answer. He nodded to Levi and Hange before leading you back to the door. You followed without a single thought, easily slipping into your position a few paces behind him. It was common for you to follow him like this. It was unspoken. Natural.

The brisk midnight air hit your face as he walked you to your car. The parking lot had a lot less people, but you could still see the stragglers and a few groups waiting on Ubers. 

“Thank you, but you didn’t have to walk me out.” You told him, opening your car door but not getting in. He stood in front of your door near your headlight, placing his hands in his pant pockets. “I hope you have a good weekend, Sir.”

“You do not have to refer to me by that outside of work.” Erwin said. You froze. “Sir, I mean. You can call me Erwin. We are both off of the clock. You are not my subordinate or assistant right now.”

You blinked. You didn’t know what to say. There was something different about him tonight. You had always felt breathless around him, but now you were speechless too. You had never talked to him this much outside of work-related topics or at work until tonight. You’ve had brief conversations before, sure, but never anything that goes beyond something you’d have in your resume. 

But tonight he told you to go home early. He worried about the amount of work he’d been giving you. He asked you to bring him something outside of work hours. He said the words “I apologize for this” to you. And now… now he was telling you that outside of work, you can drop the honorific you gave him. 

Maybe he was drunk and you couldn’t tell. 

“Okay.” Was all you could say. 

He nodded as a confirmation that he heard you. He took a step back from your car, and gave a simple, “Thank you for bringing my phone. I’ll see you Monday.” before heading back into the bar.

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[tooruluv]

Heya! Idk if you're still around, but jic I just finished your kageyama series (love the sin, hate the sinner) and I just HAD to send something in. I'm surprised my non-attentive-ass got thru it but I was hooked on each chapter. It was so much chaos. New mess after new mess. Pouring one out for Tsukki and Kawa (they deserve to move on the most...) and hoping the best for you wherever you are! All of your characterisations (even the reader) were hella entertaining. And fuck kags all my homies h8 kageyama /jkbbyuweremyfirstfav.

thank you so so much! that was such a fun fic to write bc everyones reactions were so fun and different and it was so exciting <3 i am so glad it's still getting all the love!!!

[tooruluv]

Bro I’m begging u to write a part two to the Bakugou soulmate LIKE HELLO U CANT LEAVE not like that

OMGGGGG.... not me forgetting that fic existed....

it'll come! sometime! maybe! i wrote most of part two forever ago but then a bunch of stuff happened!

luckily i am graduating college soon and will actually have time to follow through on a lot of these <333 raindrops will be up on my list!!

[tooruluv]

Did you delete peppermint parts

hello! yes, i did! but don't worry, they're only archived! i planned on rewriting and editing them (forever ago). i will probably get around to posting them all again soon! <333

[spectorbear]

— strangers (soulmates) part 1

pairing: erwin smith x f!reader

summary: erwin smith was the embodiment of intimation, money, and power. and you were his personal assistant.

genre: office au; smut, angst

word count: 2.1k

warnings/notes: swearing, no real warnings for this part; purely self-indulgent bc i just watched aot for the first time and i love him so bad

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[tooruluv]

me logging into this account is insane bc i forget just how much love i get on here :((((

i cant promise to update anything BUTT i can say that i have some pretty sick (finished) drafts on here that i can quickly revise and post at some point!

love y’all so much <333 and if any of you are into marvel/mcu or aot, i have just posted my very first aot fix on @spectorbear (it’s the account i’m typically logged into) <333

sending love & positivity! and who knows! maybe something will be updated or posted soon on here! i don’t want to get anyone’s hopes up :T

[tooruluv]

mya!!! i hope ur doing well ;_; i just found ur blog and i wish i found ur enemies to lover series sooner T.T i love your work, hope studies are well for you!!

thank you sm!!! i am so glad you liked my works <3333 (and i cannot WAIT for school to be over! only one more semester and i’ll be a college grad!)

[tooruluv]

exes confront each other • kozume kenma

[ how did you meet? ]

you: 

kenma:

you: i think it was a couple weeks into freshman year of college?

kenma: i think so, yeah. 

you:

kenma:

you: 

kenma: i’ve missed you. you look good.

you: thanks. i’ve missed you too.

kenma:

you: your hair is longer. you’ve grown out the blonde.

kenma: yeah, yeah. i was thinking of cutting it, but i like how easy it is to pull back.

you: it looks good.

kenma:

you:

kenma: thanks. 

••

you: sorry, back to the question.

kenma: right. um, class. it was one of the gen classes we have to take.

you: i think it was some sort of math?

kenma: you were one of the only people writing their notes instead of typing them.

you:

kenma:

you: and you were playing games instead of paying attention.

kenma: [chuckles] yeah. 

you: 

kenma:

you: eventually, you started to turn your screen so i could watch.

kenma: i remember that! i would feel your eyes so i figured...

you: it was definitely motivation to go to class.

kenma:

you: well, what? i had to see you beat the game at that point.

kenma: 

you:

kenma: and you did.

you:

kenma:

you: and i did.

[ why did you break up? ]

you:

kenma:

you:

kenma:

you: i still think i made the right choice.

kenma: 

you:

kenma: i think you did, too.

••

you: i broke up with him. when he started to get big online, streaming or whatever, i thought it was better to... end it before it got too serious.

kenma: “too serious”...

you:

kenma:

you: you said...

kenma: i know what i said.

••

kenma: my focus drifted away from us, too, so i can’t blame you for breaking up with me.

you:

kenma: i...

you: kenma...

kenma: 

you:

••

you: you know that it was hard for me to do, right?

kenma: 

you:

kenma: i know, i know. you just made it look easy.

you: it wasn’t. i had to try really hard to get over you.

kenma:

you: 

kenma: me too.

[ what did you love most about each other? ]

you:

kenma: i loved how you always drank energy drinks.

you: oh my god.

kenma: what? you would argue with me about how water was bland! it was so funny to see you pop up anywhere we went with an energy drink.

you:

kenma: it was endearing.

you: 

••

you: i loved cuddling with you. it might be cliché, but i did.

kenma:

you: you always let me play with your hair. it was so soothing. even if we were just laying around, you would let me put little braids in it. 

kenma:

you: i loved that you trusted me that much, and that you were that comfortable with me.

kenma:

you:

kenma: see, now i want to change my answer.

••

kenma: i loved that you would watch me play games. 

you:

kenma:

you: what?

kenma: you would just sit with me for hours, watching me play and cheering me on. i loved that about you. you never complained once.

you:

kenma:

you: well, you were good at them. it’s fun to watch people be good at the things they do.

kenma: 

you:

[ what did you hate most about each other? ]

you:

kenma:

you: i don’t like this question.

kenma: i don’t, either.

••

you: you go first.

kenma: i went first last time, you go.

you: 

kenma:

you: okay.

••

you: i think i would say that... you got distracted easily.

kenma:

you: it was hard to feel important or needed when you would fall into your screen.

kenma: 

you:

kenma: i always knew you were there, though. i never...meant to make it seem like you were invisible.

you: i know. but you did. 

kenma:

••

kenma: i guess... i hated how easy it was for you to go.

you: i told you, it wasn’t...

kenma: but it was, though.

you:

kenma: you didn’t want to be a part of my online popularity. and i get that, i always have. but you could’ve stayed. i could’ve hid you from the viewers, could’ve just told them i had a partner without posting anything about you, could’ve had both...

you: but you know that i didn’t want that.

kenma:

you: i would’ve been miserable that way. to be yours but never be yours in front of those who matter so much to you.

kenma:

you:

kenma: i know.

[ do you think you could try again? ]

you: i don’t know.

kenma: 

you:

kenma: me neither.

••

you:

kenma:

you:

kenma: i was in love with you.

you:

kenma:

you: what?

kenma: i loved you. still do, i think.

you:

kenma: 

you: can i have a minute?

••

you:

kenma: i’m sorry. for not telling you before and for telling you now.

you:

kenma:

you: i loved you, too.

kenma:

you:

kenma: you did?

you: i did. 

kenma: and...

you:

kenma: do you still?

you: i think i always will.

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[tooruluv]

in case anyone’s been wondering where tf i’ve been !!!

hi hello sexy individuals !!! i cannot believe the immediate feedback i got logging back into this account (holy shit)

i am not dead ! i am not discontinuing this acc !

i’ve been studying abroad and focusing on my studies !! over the past year i’ve been to england and scotland, and now i’m in italy!! focusing on school has been such a liberating thing.

but! i have been writing a lot more recently. it’s my form of comfort and a way to make me not feel homesick (lol).

i have been writing on my marvel/mcu account (if you want my username dm me! it’s mainly moon knight hehe)

so it may take me some time but i do plan to revive this acc!

what to expect:

more of my “exes confront each other” (i do believe i owe you guys some characters!)

“i knew” tooru oikawa x f!reader (post break up, angst)

“peppermint (part 3)” edited/revised version

thank you all for your patience and i hope that i am welcomed back with open arms !!! it’s been a long while, but i hope that it was worth the wait <333

-tooruluv 

[tooruluv]

literally binge reading all your stuff it’s so good 😭😭 you’re so talented it’s crazy. tbh ur works are breaking my heart this can’t be good for me 🥲

that ISSS my specialty <\333

(but i do hope you’re enjoying them!!)

[tooruluv]

Hi hi!! First time dropping in and I wanna say that you were one of the first blogs I followed on here before turning into an author and I’m binge reading your works! Just got done with hate the sin, love the sinner and I gotta say. I was hooked to finishing it. Loved the way the little flashbacks came in, and I was genuinely… just sucked into reading it. Hana, what you did was not cool and you still have a knuckle sandwich left from me. Tooru, babe. I love you cause you’re cleaning up my messes. Kageyama. ಠ_ಠ you are responsible for making messes in the first place.

Anyway, I hope you’re doing well. And I also wanna say that I get excited anytime you pop into my dash… even though I’m very silent about it. I’m trying to change that now; and I just wanted to let you know that your writings are amazing and I’ll keep revisiting them. ⁄(⁄ ⁄ ⁄ω⁄ ⁄ ⁄)⁄

I hope you have a great day 🤍

omg hi!! you are so so much for this !!

i think a lot of the reason i deviated from this account was because of my lack of motivation so hearing people being vocal ab my works and seeing their reactions means everything to me.

i hope you keep revisiting! new stuff coming sometime within the next couple of weeks <333

[tooruluv]

hi everyone ! how is everyone doing lately <3

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[tooruluv]

dumping my love for you

I LOVE YOU BAE