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okay puppy god eyes were enough 👍 i’m going home

i feel like i might cry aaaand the results haven’t come out yet. oh my god

what do you mean nobody else is coming in today. i didn’t plan to work overtime. i can’t work overtime actually

#vnt txt #i’m so frustrated. i’m overstimulated and sweaty and i was supposed to leave almost an hour ago #if they want me to stay i’m killing myself

results come out tomorrow.

#vnt txt #everything is. too much for me.#i will shower tomorrow

i kinda feel. odd that one of my mutuals that even before we kinda fell out before getting back into contact kinda. never really reblogged my stuff. and now like really just reblogs their other mutuals. like i wouldn’t be offended if it was just one mutual MAYBE. or if they didn’t reblog anybody else’s. then that would be a different story. but i just. i dunnoooo i dunno man it makes me feel bad

#also just seeing that the mutual they have been reblogging a lot of stuff from is an ex friend of mine #who just. happens to ship with a lot of characters that i ship with #especially after i start shipping with them 🫩#it’s my paranoia on the shipping part there’s no reason for me to be like eughhh and YES I KNOWWW I DONT OWN A CHARACTER #or that nobody else can ship with them. it’s not even that part #like i know they can’t be stalking me anyways because i have them blocked #unless they have an alternative. which is unlikely #i dunno brooo i dunno im just eughhhhh blehhhhh booooooo #vnt txt

unfortunately i had to get off of tiktok because i got reminded that it will never get easier living as a woman of color in this world and it really. really sucks

#vnt txt

genuinely started ruminating on the friendship breakups that i still haven’t gotten over. i don’t think people understand how badly those hurt. genuinely you were supposed to be the one i could come to when everything was too much for me and i had nobody else to talk to. the one i grew more comfortable showing stuff and telling things about, all of my issues. the one that helped me be more open and i never minded on listening to you when things were bad. and then they both met through me, became closer friends with each other than they were with me, and collectively dropped me because “I Changed” and it became uncomfortable for them. i’m sorry i grew more comfortable around you.

#👍 genuinely just pushed back so many years of improvement #vnt txt

it’s crazy cause the only thing i did for was reach for the utensils (cause he found the packets) and then he snatched them away from me and told me to go use the other ones. then gave me a stank face. like Okay so you want me to just go kill myself it seems

#vnt txt

my coworker has lowkey been a bit snappy with me lately and it’s even worse today cause our shift lead is off today and now i’m kinda getting pissed off because bro what did i do

#rnt txt #i hate meeeeeen oh my god bro

gonna brush my teeth and hopefully i feel better

#val txt

i am genuinely so off of my game today i don’t know how im gonna make it through work without messing up

#vnt txt

let’s be anemic at work with mama

#val txt #oh this is gonna be a pain to get through

sorry ☹️

#vnt txt #i feel so stupid feeling this way over this audition #but it’s all i’ve ever really wanted in life

i just want my hector

#vnt txt #sorry i’m so unprepared. i can’t play one of the pieces all the way and it’s my fault #i mean not really. life and my body got in the way.#but. god #i just don’t think i can do it