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#トワ & matt gachikoi ᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠᅠtired alcoholic student, I also have health issues

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ning, male, 17 and I really love towa & matt, I'm a gachikoi

I am eunyung baek

I love drawing, so I'll probably draw about my relationship here + talk about them mostly

I am heavily disordered, unmedicated and prone to relapsing

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brah being with my irl friends feels better than my online friends dude

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last dinner

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towa pits

[srgical]

well , iwas going to draw ( really, I was../) , but everything's ddead so i figured m ight as wel post something old to fill the space...

problem is i deontlike anyting older than maybe a week

i think this wwas for a volunteer prompt. dont remember

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I MISS OVERDOSING IM SAD IM SAD IM SAD

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I hate you

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I AM TRAPPPEDD IN HELL HELL HELL HELLL HELL EHLLLR HLL HELLL HRLLL HRLLL HE ELLL

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OIGHH I need to be checked so bad I feel like I'm going crazy I'm going fucking crazy IM GONNA KILL MYSELF AGAIN!!!!!! AGAINNNN!!!!!!!! NNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!

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I feel so so bad for my friends that like talking to me alot because I'm genuinely so fucking depressed right now this always happens when I romantically like somebody I'm sorry wor or even when I just like someone so much I should die I'm crine I just really wanna slit and die

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I hope you don't ever talk to me again pissing me off actually

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no one getting a reply from me especially from P isn't getting shit too if you don't care about me just say so oh my god I'm not even going to text you at all or anyonedo whatever you fucking want do whatever you want do whatever you want do whatever you want

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life low-key better when you splat Ur head against the concrete to die

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no I won't open discord no I won't open Instagram no I won't open twitter actually they all deleted bro messenger too cuz like dada is about to hang himself caca offline as FAAKKKK

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girl it's the summer who gafs if I'm alive even

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I don't know why I have a small resentment for everybody I know that they didn't do anything and I don't let that get in the way because I'm aware of my feelings for all of them but oh my god I feel so guilty for thinking this way and for even wanting to kill everybody over it I don't even have a reason to I feel so shit right now I just HOPE I die bro shiballll

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I'm gonna kill myself everynyan goodnight I can't even od please stock up on pills soon