Hey Miss Murder

I am fucked up and insane.

[towritekellinonherarms]

Tackling depression on your own is so hard. It's even harder when you have a little human who depends on you and your love and your stability. Who needs you to be the best you that you can be. It's hard when your partner is on a different radio wavelength than you. It seems like you communicate in different languages instead of love languages. It can feel like such a battle to defend yourself while fighting for yourself and also being compassionate. It can be so hard to have such a big heart. When you WANT to feel hate, and maybe for just a split second -- you do; but you can't hold onto it. Is it being a kind person? Is it trauma manifesting itself? Morphing you into the person you needed when you were younger? Who was there for you? Who went to bat for you? WHO protected YOU? I love being a mother more than anything. I don't love feeling like I'm doing it on my own. Nothing worth having is ever easy, but FUCK if I knew it would be this.... lonely...

I play with temptation and fight the fight of relief because my demons know what will silence my fight. I am strong enough. I am a better person for my son. He hangs the moon in the sky--paints EVERY star in the sky. He is enough.

[towritekellinonherarms]

It has been a long time since I've allowed myself to get this hurt. It's also been a long time since I stopped numbing myself and now I'm feeling everything I've numbed for all these years. I don't expect to be understood. I don't expect compassion. I have to do this on my own. I'm afraid I'll be colder than before to protect my heart. Why did I let the walls down? Why did I let people trample around my sanctuary? They don't appreciate my beauty or how hard I worked for this. I am misunderstood and sad.

Who even cares?

[towritekellinonherarms]

Ahh, hello crippling depression. . . My dear old friend

[towritekellinonherarms]

It's sad when your family doesn't make you a priority. I'll be over here building my own and making sure they never have to question if they're loved or not.

[grayskymorning]

LENE

[approvers]

[approvers]

[botanical-artistry]

[stonerparty]

[perfectlymarilynmonroe]

Marilyn Monroe photographed by Milton Greene, 1955

[love]

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[qoodbyedean]

Marilyn Monroe in Niagara (1953) dir. Henry Hathaway

[major]

[naughtywritings]

Your fingers look nice but they would be nicer inside of me.

[unxqueness]

“You were temptingly beautiful

but stung when I got close” 🌹

[major]

[thepersonalquotes]