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Drunk

I’ll call you whiskey. For reasons you know why. The feeling that came along with you felt like whiskey. Very very smooth. Very. Almost too smooth. As soon as I decided to take a sip, I could feel you enter my body taking over my mind and actions. Oh whiskey. You could do it every time too if I let you hu? Just one sip is all I needed to be hooked. One sip is all I needed to feel the internal stampede. Everything crushing my good judgement, morals, running away from what I know to be right headed in the wrong direction. But it all seemed right. In the moment. Because in the moment you were so put together so poise. Or maybe you’re a mess. Just like me. Because whiskey had to make some sacrifices before stepping to me. But two wrong don’t make a right. Although two negatives do make a positive. Maybe we should test that theory. I’ll be the one hurt from it. You’re protected. You’re ok. You whiskey have nothing to worry about.

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I’m a human

Blessed. Blessed I am. I am a 22 year old woman. I have a heart full of love and good intentions and a mind full of adventure. My dream is to be rich and not struggle with insecurities. Speaking of blessings, IM PREGNANT. 12 weeks. Everyday I get more anxious and more excited about meeting my baby. I’m not sure if it’s a girl or a boy so I call the baby nugget. It’s a family name. Gratefully my family is happy. Well everyone but my hating ass uncle who married into the family. He doesn’t know how to treat people who aren’t his own. It’s hilarious. So I gotta put him in place ever so often , but I am a mother. Very protective over my child. I haven’t quite took my blessing to social media because it is toxic. People really think having a baby is meant only for the rich and old. It’s funny because even the judgmental ones wernt bone under those circumstances. If anyone were to come for my child I don’t know what I would do. If anyone were to come for my parenting I don’t know what I would do. I wish I had someone to talk to about this stuff. Not what to do if someone talks shit but what to expect, advice (my hard head ass is open Asf for advice, what has this baby done to me ) , and someone who loves me. Thankfully I have my family and YouTube. What would the world be without the two.

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Ode to friendship

Ah here I am again with another shitty post about friends quote on quote doing me wrong. At this point it’s funny. Lol girl you pick these people to love! I mean you can’t have a little bit better judgment, gosh! Anyway so my best friend (not name dropping) orange I love with all my heart. she wants to be a good person and I see that but damn I just get treated so wrong. Lied to, used as a journal of feelings that aren’t real, I mean like shit. You tell me so much crap about this girl who you so call cant stand, yet turn around and call her best friend and not only that but you call her you child’s god mom. Oh yea tumblr I’m grown now. God mom age. Well except my best friend doesn’t make me the god mom but the girl who is extremely jealous of her and faught her. But clap clap for you. I couldn’t forgive that whole heartedly. And my other friend blue. She’s just a bitch and sometimes she brings the bad out of me cause I won’t let someone bitch me, but then turns and act so sweet. Are you trying to drive me crazy cause no I won’t have that. And blue ask for so much. If I wernt talented but still had my personality would you still fwm? And well I really only have 2 friends so this was a short vent. EMBARRASSING. HAHA. I GUESS ONE OF THE MAIN REASONS IM SO (forgot to turn caps off too lazy to delete) sad is because well I love those people and really want happy friendships but I’m struggling to take the baggage some people come with. Will I never have close friends? Or is it just my pregnancy talking. Ay dios mios. Help me.

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When he says no to giving you the world so you gotta move on.

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Memories captured by tumblr. These nights I'll remember with my heart. Nothing can replace these moments.

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I'm a go getter. If I want it. I must have it. And I will do all I need to get it. It may seem like a fast life thing but it's not. I like security. Security from a partner too. I am faithful. I just want a partner in crime to explore with. We can do everything together. That's what I want. And love me as much as I love myself 😌

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As soon as I knew it was all over is when it hit me most. It came back and flashed all the memories. But you didn't come along with them. Part of me knew this wasn't something I should do, and I knew this was going to happen. not cause of what you would say or do, but the feeling that came along with you. Idk if I'd feel this again, but I don't know if I should. Your light burned so fast and light shined so bright. How could the devil pull you to someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you. And it's like when you saw me and I saw you I lost my balance. The worst part of it all wasn't losing you, but it was me losing myself.

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As soon as I get heart broken I remember I'll always have bae to wipe my tears.

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#dab

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When he starts to act up and you realize who you really are

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No matter how annoying I am you will never stop fwm 😇

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When I look back on my weekend I'm glad I got to actually go home. Despite what happened I learned a lot. People who love you will accept you for who you are. You don't have to prove yourself to them. If you're lit, they'll know you're lit. I'll never work to impress someone. I'm doing me to do me. For me

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ODE to friendship

Ode to friendship, i felt like mean girls in that situation. I am such a good friend said gretchen when she gave up the white gold hoop earrings to please regina. well i basically gave up the guy i like to make my friend happy. She wants me to date her cousin. i only agreed cause he was cute and i thought my crush didnt like me anymore. i told him i wanted to be friends so i can talk to my crush. my friend got mad like i bs'd her. being the good friend i am. i kept talking to her cousin, not to dis my crush but cause i am SUCH a good friend. Ode to friendship right.

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stupidity

how could i be so stupid to think bari actually really liked me. and to think i would have fell for it. gosh he is stupid. i listened to all of the i still like you, oh i was shy, oh i am so stupid for listening to other people say you have a boyfriend. well yes you are stupid and now im sad. how could i let my guard down and like someone so much. how could i put a GUY in a higher category, and just forget the foundation of him. he started off bad, and after not even a week i expected him to be different. no raci, not quite.