Botgesian spatialities: exploring the latent space of desirable wholesome books.

Janaina Medeiros

JBB: An Artblog!
đȘŒ
No title available
Today's Document
almost home

ç„æ„ / Permanent Vacation
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
Jules of Nature

Origami Around
DEAR READER
Aqua Utopiaïœæ”·ăźćșă§èšæ¶ă玥ă
tumblr dot com

romaâ

ellievsbear
Keni
No title available
Cosmic Funnies
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH

No title available

seen from United States
seen from Syria
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from Ireland

seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from Australia

seen from TĂŒrkiye
seen from Indonesia
@transcognitarian
Botgesian spatialities: exploring the latent space of desirable wholesome books.
Some of us
Entryways
asdf arst ahoy
Making sure I can post stuff here. I feel a need for an outlet, Iâd like to rave and rage and rant, put my thoughts into words and push them out there. Iâd like to engage with people at some point. I remember Tumblr having a very nice crowd, havenât been here in years though.
I find some unresolved tensions here. I had a notion that it would be cool to post stuff regularly somewhere as Iâm progressing with *computational art* and my various projects. Iâd like to build towards a public portfolio. I have a bunch of processes going on, and I often feel lost and stuck. I notice that putting things *out there* for other people to interact with helps a lot, it feels like closing a feedback loop. I can move on to the next idea, without feeling live Iâve abandoned the previous one, even if it didnât make a splash.Â
So letâs go with it.
Hereâs a shader animation made with GLSL in KodeLife and turned into a gif
If you've ever tried to snap dried pasta in half, you know that it's hard to get just two even pieces; what you usually get instea
This place is for me to have fun
Which means, in particular,
Not silencing myself when I have a random observation to shout into the ether;
Not being awkward to the point of never ever posting anything,
Allowing myself to actually engage with people I admire from the distance,
Not being paranoid about online privacy or who might see me saying what where.
Being goofy with the language,
Posting bad snapshots of work-in-progress-probably-never-to-be-finished,
Mismatching punctuation,
Vaguewhining about issues Iâm living through but donât care to explain
Whatever I feel like it might mean at the moment.
dan-was-on-fire-once said:
So now asking for pronouns is offensive too? You people are crazy
Hey, so, I think youâre not really understanding the purpose of conversations like this one, or why people want to have them. People go to bars and go to parties and run discussion groups and moderate book clubs and volunteer at youth shelters, and they care about how to address one another in a way that lets people make their needs known while not putting them on the spot or forcing them into conversations they arenât ready for.
And this is hard. In some cases, itâs literally impossible - some people need the exact thing which will hurt other people, and any conceivable policy is going to feel like a punch in the gut for someone. In other cases, itâs possible only with a ton of hard work, and with other tradeoffs, like having more complicated verbal discussion prompts, which can be hard on people with language processing challenges.Â
But itâs still worth knowing what the tradeoffs are, and brainstorming about ways to thread the needle and offer more to people. Because we can. Because even if we canât find anything that works for everyone, we can find something that works for more people, and thatâs worth it all by itself.
If youâre interpreting social justice as âa bunch of people deciding which things are offensiveâ, then of course âevery possible set of norms is going to harm some peopleâ is ridiculous - whatâs the point in declaring everything offensive?Â
But if youâre doing social justice because you want to give people more options and learn more about what they need and learn, from them, more about what you yourself need -
- then, well, youâd better be able to work in a complicated world where there isnât a single perfect course of action that hurts no one, and where often you try to do something and then realize that itâs created a new problem or made an existing one worse or run up against another limitation.
I recognize that there are people who harass others in the name of social justice, and thatâs meant that for a lot of people it feels really urgent to figure out what the Approved opinion is, and what course of action definitely wonât get them harassed and called a horrible person. But -Â
- well, firstly, there isnât such a course of action. Some people will be dicks to you no matter what youâre doing. Even if there were one True Social Justice that harmed no one and required no further analysis and learning, people wouldnât agree on it, and in the real world people have access to completely different experiences and needs and of course they donât agree.
- and secondly, if your engagement with social justice is around trying to identify opinions people wonât hate you for so you can hold those and not be a terrible person, then I think you actually should stop engaging in social justice for the time being. Itâs really important to come to activism from a place of âI want to build a better worldâ rather than âI want to not be evil and hatedâ. Itâs really important to feel able to independently evaluate ideas and go âyes, this seems trueâ or âno, I think this is missing somethingâ. Itâs really important to be filling in more pieces of your understanding of the world rather than replacing your own understanding with the one being yelled the loudest. Itâs better to take a step back than to blunder through looking for the wrong thing and learning to ignore yourself whenever you disagree with it.Â
So what do you do if you just want people not to hate you?
Iâm not saying this isnât a totally reasonable thing to want, but -
it doesnât work. People are really varied, and value really varied things, and there are a lot of them, and theyâre all going through their own stuff, and some of them are deliberately awful to others and some of them are doing their best but are kind of awful anyway. There are people who will hate you for being a woman and people who will hate you for being a man and people who will hate you for being anything that isnât a woman or a man. There are people who will hate you for thinking Israel should exist and people who will hate you for thinking it shouldnât and people who will hate you for not having an opinion about Israel.
There is no shape you can contort yourself into so no one hates you. So what you have to do is go - okay. I am valuable; I matter; my suffering is bad and my happiness is good.  I have access to truth - that doesnât mean Iâm always right, or always have the answers, it means the opposite of that, it means that I have the capacity to learn, and the capacity to reject things as false or identify things as true, it means that when I go out into the world and try to learn things I can do more than answer âwho hates meâ or âwho yells the loudestâ. I have access to truth that other people donât have - I know what itâs like to be me, and I know when I feel strengthened and empowered and able-to-truth-seek and when I feel dismissed and unwanted and obliged-to-conform. And Iâm going to start building my world off of that, because I am the only one who can.
And then you block people on the internet who hate you and maybe get a pet who adores you and you seriously consider moving somewhere where you wonât be surrounded by people who hate you and you keep track of the answer to the question âis this friend/meetup/ideology/blog making me more able to uncontort myself, or just giving me new things to contort around?â and you pursue the places and the people where you donât feel hated, and donât feel like you have to confine yourself into someone who isnât hateable. And people will still hate you but they wonât control you, and people hating you matters a lot less when they canât control you anymore.