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@trapped-captain-ava
Remaking the intro post <3
Hello! I'm Kai, and this is my first rp blog. I haven't used Tumblr much before this and I'm still learning things. I used to roleplay a lot when I was younger, but there was a long break and now I have dove straight into this. So I'm sorry if I'm still bad at it lmao
More below 💛
@captain-lyre YYOOOUUUU BIIIITTTCHHHHHH >O<
Look at the sillies!
While I already haven't been too active lately, all my rp blogs will be put on temporary pause for! Reasons! 💛
[A cup of hot cocoa apoears in front of Ava, now reusing that same old cup.]
"Good morning :D"
-💖
The taste of cocoa is becoming very.. familiar. While she obviously knew what it tasted like, it's starting to become a part of her routine, a little.
The ship is at the Consolidation, now. Biter has already been given command in her absence... She just has to build up the courage to go back... Her old Captain- he didn't care, last time. Not about anything he's done to her. Nothing. But he won't kill her, so she will threaten every life in that goddamn station, to get her own submarine!
She picks up the cup, and takes a long sip. It tastes like courage, and.. she definitely needs it. "Good morning, Callie! Thank- thank you..."
Ava was gone as soon as there was light in the sky, to water the flowers. It was sometime afternoon when she had finished, and found Scar again.
"Hey, I'm back!" She actually sounds a little excited, now. "Do you still have enough time to show me around?"
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@trapped-captain-ava
Scar yelps, he hadn't expected company. But there's a sigh of relief once he sees who it is.
"Ah, yes! Of course. I did promise a tour of the server, didn't I? Do you want me to show you by foot or by camel?"
Ava looks awestruck. "Why does it *look* like that?! Can- ...can I pet Cheerio...?"
-
@secret-life-scar-blog
"Of course! But don't insult Cheerio! She has feelings."
Scar tugs Cheerio's bridle gently, causing her to move forward in order to get closer to Ava.
Cheerio rests her chin on top of Ava's head, relaxing a bit.
Ava is thrilled. She's never seen an animal in person before!
"She's... So- so cute! Hello Cheerio!" She pets the camels neck a little. "You're going to- to help us?"
"Oh, yes I will!"
Scar mimicks an odd voice, pretending to be Cheerio before laughing it off.
"Anyway, wanna hop on?"
"It's not.. not dangerous or anything, right? I'm not gonna fall off?" The Camel is tall. She might prefer walking.
Ava was gone as soon as there was light in the sky, to water the flowers. It was sometime afternoon when she had finished, and found Scar again.
"Hey, I'm back!" She actually sounds a little excited, now. "Do you still have enough time to show me around?"
-
@trapped-captain-ava
Scar yelps, he hadn't expected company. But there's a sigh of relief once he sees who it is.
"Ah, yes! Of course. I did promise a tour of the server, didn't I? Do you want me to show you by foot or by camel?"
Ava looks awestruck. "Why does it *look* like that?! Can- ...can I pet Cheerio...?"
-
@secret-life-scar-blog
"Of course! But don't insult Cheerio! She has feelings."
Scar tugs Cheerio's bridle gently, causing her to move forward in order to get closer to Ava.
Cheerio rests her chin on top of Ava's head, relaxing a bit.
Ava is thrilled. She's never seen an animal in person before!
"She's... So- so cute! Hello Cheerio!" She pets the camels neck a little. "You're going to- to help us?"
Ava was gone as soon as there was light in the sky, to water the flowers. It was sometime afternoon when she had finished, and found Scar again.
"Hey, I'm back!" She actually sounds a little excited, now. "Do you still have enough time to show me around?"
-
@trapped-captain-ava
Scar yelps, he hadn't expected company. But there's a sigh of relief once he sees who it is.
"Ah, yes! Of course. I did promise a tour of the server, didn't I? Do you want me to show you by foot or by camel?"
Ava looks awestruck. "Why does it *look* like that?! Can- ...can I pet Cheerio...?"
-
@secret-life-scar-blog
Ava was gone as soon as there was light in the sky, to water the flowers. It was sometime afternoon when she had finished, and found Scar again.
"Hey, I'm back!" She actually sounds a little excited, now. "Do you still have enough time to show me around?"
-
@trapped-captain-ava
Scar yelps, he hadn't expected company. But there's a sigh of relief once he sees who it is.
"Ah, yes! Of course. I did promise a tour of the server, didn't I? Do you want me to show you by foot or by camel?"
She did not mean to scare him, Ava looks immediately worried about him. "Are you- I.. what? What is a camel?" Well, now she has to know. "That. Let's do- do it that way."
"You don't know what a camel is?! We're getting that fixed straight away, Captain. C'me on, follow me! You have to meet Cheerio, non-negotiable."
He grabs Ava by the hand before dragging her to the animal pen near the sunflower field. Looking for his companion.
Cheerio. Sounds like an earth pet name.
"So.. what do camels usually look like? And why- why would we need a camel for.. a tour, if it's an animal..?"
"Oh, camel is a huge animal! Maybe like, seven feet? They are usually fuzzy, with snouts and very gorgeous eyelashes. Though they're most known for their humps, which can carry water and are strong enough for humans to mount on them!"
"That sounds.. weird," Ava laughed at the idea. "How did you get a camel? What does it eat..? Actually.. is it... fluffy?"
Ava was gone as soon as there was light in the sky, to water the flowers. It was sometime afternoon when she had finished, and found Scar again.
"Hey, I'm back!" She actually sounds a little excited, now. "Do you still have enough time to show me around?"
-
@trapped-captain-ava
Scar yelps, he hadn't expected company. But there's a sigh of relief once he sees who it is.
"Ah, yes! Of course. I did promise a tour of the server, didn't I? Do you want me to show you by foot or by camel?"
She did not mean to scare him, Ava looks immediately worried about him. "Are you- I.. what? What is a camel?" Well, now she has to know. "That. Let's do- do it that way."
"You don't know what a camel is?! We're getting that fixed straight away, Captain. C'me on, follow me! You have to meet Cheerio, non-negotiable."
He grabs Ava by the hand before dragging her to the animal pen near the sunflower field. Looking for his companion.
Cheerio. Sounds like an earth pet name.
"So.. what do camels usually look like? And why- why would we need a camel for.. a tour, if it's an animal..?"
Ava was gone as soon as there was light in the sky, to water the flowers. It was sometime afternoon when she had finished, and found Scar again.
"Hey, I'm back!" She actually sounds a little excited, now. "Do you still have enough time to show me around?"
-
@trapped-captain-ava
Scar yelps, he hadn't expected company. But there's a sigh of relief once he sees who it is.
"Ah, yes! Of course. I did promise a tour of the server, didn't I? Do you want me to show you by foot or by camel?"
She did not mean to scare him, Ava looks immediately worried about him. "Are you- I.. what? What is a camel?" Well, now she has to know. "That. Let's do- do it that way."
Change is inedible
*spits out coins.*
...Pardon?
Ava knocks on the Trader Scar's door. "You in there? I- I finished watering your flowers. There is a lot of them."
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@trapped-captain-ava
Scar opens the door, and he has a grin on his face.
"Why, thank you! Sorry about the quantity, I had a lot for free time and just never thought when to stop making the sunflower field grow... wanna head in?"
"Oh, a tour would probably be very informative. Yeah, we could do that. Is- is this planet named Server?"
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@secret-life-scar-blog
"...planet? I mean, this is a server, not named server. Its... name should be Secret Life actually. Secret Life Server."
Scar is completely confused with the question. He hadn't thought of that, actually.
"But I guess since the Overworld is kinda called Earth, and we got the Nether, which is Hell, and The End, which is... The End, then I guess this can be a planet."
He shrugs.
Earth...
"Oh...m'kay.. good to know. Well, then! I look forward to seeing the Secret Life a little more, tomorrow. Rest well, Scar."
Secret Life. What an odd name.
Ava knocks on the Trader Scar's door. "You in there? I- I finished watering your flowers. There is a lot of them."
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@trapped-captain-ava
Scar opens the door, and he has a grin on his face.
"Why, thank you! Sorry about the quantity, I had a lot for free time and just never thought when to stop making the sunflower field grow... wanna head in?"
"Oh, a tour would probably be very informative. Yeah, we could do that. Is- is this planet named Server?"
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@secret-life-scar-blog
Ava knocks on the Trader Scar's door. "You in there? I- I finished watering your flowers. There is a lot of them."
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@trapped-captain-ava
Scar opens the door, and he has a grin on his face.
"Why, thank you! Sorry about the quantity, I had a lot for free time and just never thought when to stop making the sunflower field grow... wanna head in?"
...Okay. He's almost certainly killed many people, and does not care in the slightest. Definitely of Eden.
"I- I think I should just go to sleep, now." She can't even hide her fear anymore. "That's probably a good idea.. for me to.. do."
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@secret-life-scar-blog
"Feel free! Do you want pajamas with that? No offense, but, uhm, personally, I don't like sleeping with dry blood all over me so I could give you something more comfortable if you like."
He's already look through the barrels, trying to find anything she could use as a new set of clothes for the night.
"Oh.. none taken..? I mean. Like, I'm used to it. Cleaning the submarines isn't easy, especially not the clothes afterwards. But I wouldn't mind changing." It would probably be nicer.
She feels very indebted so far, but very worried about the possibility of Scar randomly murdering her.
"Good idea, though. I don't want to make your home a mess."
"Well, Good and Idea are my middle names! But you got me curious, you used to work in a submarine?"
Oh, so he's just clueless, then.
"Yeah, I- I used to send criminals down to handle the work. It was their retribution, they could earn the right to work in the Consolidation rather than.. you know. Being so worthless they aren't needed. I had to start going down there after we lost someone."
Ava shrugged.
"How about you? Had any jobs before the sunflower garden?"
That sounds like a prison, then again, if they were criminals, then that must be it. But again, with the worthless part? They must be validation seeking individuals back then...
"Oh, me? I don't know! Well, I do know, but I can't just be labeled one thing. I used to be a builder, then a criminal, a wizard, an animal caretaker, a brother, and... a salesman. Well, part salesman, but I was known as the local villain of your local server! Scary, right?"
"Local.. villian? The other jobs sound valuable, at least. Being a- a criminal is not something you should be proud of, though..."
She yawns.
"You are definitely.. worrisome. Hopefully you- you've changed for the better, then?"
"Well, I like to think that I have. There's nothing murderous about planting some flowers now, is there? I'm just... taking life slow for now."
Scar finally finds some clean clothes for Ava and hands it to her.
"Here! You can change in the bathroom."
"Living slow.. huh."
The clothes are a lot softer than any fabric she's used to. And way cleaner too.
"Thank you." For being a.. probably a murderer, he's quite giving. "I owe you more."
She finds the restroom, and takes a while to change in there, but when she comes back out, she's holding the bloody clothes.
"I can wash these with the river water in the morning.. can I put them anywhere for the time being?"
"Anywehere is fine really! Or just use your inventory if that's not full."
Scar hums, sharing space with someone might be harder than he thought.
"How about I give you a chest where you can keep your stuff?"
"..Inventory?" It was probably the most unamused tone she could have possibly said that with. "Yeah, I don't have a lot, but storage would be nice."
"Okay! I'll make you a chest then."
Scar walks over to the nearest crafting table and crafts a chest, once he's done, he hands it to Ava.
"Huh. Thanks. I'll.. I'll keep it next to the bed."
Ava stashes the clothes inside. She's been given so much already, and all she's done to repay is one day of work.
"I guess that's all, then? If I finish watering the flowers early tomorrow, could I get an extra job to do?"
Snrk. You're acting like it's my first time loving a "villain".
I've loved a warrior whose head was full of voices, screaming for bloodshed. He ravaged cities, he murdered, he betrayed and was betrayed. The Blood God, they called him. And yet there was an endless amount of universes where his violence was directed instead towards protecting the ones he cared for. Endless universes where violence didn't define him, his care, his humour, his passion did.
I've loved an actor who has been taken advantage of since its childhood, who grew up spiteful, afraid, knowing that it's either kill or be killed, that showing mercy is a fool's game. Somebody who massacred hundreds of people, his friends and family included. And yet, that wasn't the end of its story. It got another chance, and it took it. It has a family now, friends, a life. That does not erase its actions. But there is hardly any value in death when one's life can still bring joy and connection.
I've loved people who destroyed their universes before, too. Not one. You're hardly unique, and you're hardly as unlovable as you believe yourself to be. Just because you hate yourself it doesn't mean that everyone else does, too.
-💖
Your desire to love those who harm others is intriguing. Do you think that by doing this, you are compensating for the harm you have inevitably caused? That it may be more of a selfish act, to convince yourself of the idea that you may have someone like you choose to see the flaws in your being and want you around despite it?
Choosing to forgive the harm we have done to people who you have not met, nor even know the names of is a selfish act. You are giving forgiveness you have stolen from the dead, to those who have murdered cruelly.
And in their eternal rest, what would they think of you for forgiving the hands that put them to slaughter? If they could think, hypothetically speaking, of course.
Ava knocks on the Trader Scar's door. "You in there? I- I finished watering your flowers. There is a lot of them."
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@trapped-captain-ava
Scar opens the door, and he has a grin on his face.
"Why, thank you! Sorry about the quantity, I had a lot for free time and just never thought when to stop making the sunflower field grow... wanna head in?"
...Okay. He's almost certainly killed many people, and does not care in the slightest. Definitely of Eden.
"I- I think I should just go to sleep, now." She can't even hide her fear anymore. "That's probably a good idea.. for me to.. do."
-
@secret-life-scar-blog
"Feel free! Do you want pajamas with that? No offense, but, uhm, personally, I don't like sleeping with dry blood all over me so I could give you something more comfortable if you like."
He's already look through the barrels, trying to find anything she could use as a new set of clothes for the night.
"Oh.. none taken..? I mean. Like, I'm used to it. Cleaning the submarines isn't easy, especially not the clothes afterwards. But I wouldn't mind changing." It would probably be nicer.
She feels very indebted so far, but very worried about the possibility of Scar randomly murdering her.
"Good idea, though. I don't want to make your home a mess."
"Well, Good and Idea are my middle names! But you got me curious, you used to work in a submarine?"
Oh, so he's just clueless, then.
"Yeah, I- I used to send criminals down to handle the work. It was their retribution, they could earn the right to work in the Consolidation rather than.. you know. Being so worthless they aren't needed. I had to start going down there after we lost someone."
Ava shrugged.
"How about you? Had any jobs before the sunflower garden?"
That sounds like a prison, then again, if they were criminals, then that must be it. But again, with the worthless part? They must be validation seeking individuals back then...
"Oh, me? I don't know! Well, I do know, but I can't just be labeled one thing. I used to be a builder, then a criminal, a wizard, an animal caretaker, a brother, and... a salesman. Well, part salesman, but I was known as the local villain of your local server! Scary, right?"
"Local.. villian? The other jobs sound valuable, at least. Being a- a criminal is not something you should be proud of, though..."
She yawns.
"You are definitely.. worrisome. Hopefully you- you've changed for the better, then?"
"Well, I like to think that I have. There's nothing murderous about planting some flowers now, is there? I'm just... taking life slow for now."
Scar finally finds some clean clothes for Ava and hands it to her.
"Here! You can change in the bathroom."
"Living slow.. huh."
The clothes are a lot softer than any fabric she's used to. And way cleaner too.
"Thank you." For being a.. probably a murderer, he's quite giving. "I owe you more."
She finds the restroom, and takes a while to change in there, but when she comes back out, she's holding the bloody clothes.
"I can wash these with the river water in the morning.. can I put them anywhere for the time being?"
"Anywehere is fine really! Or just use your inventory if that's not full."
Scar hums, sharing space with someone might be harder than he thought.
"How about I give you a chest where you can keep your stuff?"
"..Inventory?" It was probably the most unamused tone she could have possibly said that with. "Yeah, I don't have a lot, but storage would be nice."
Incorrect, sucker!
I find you interesting, I find your habits silly and cute, I find your method of communication easier to understand than some other people's, I find you pretty, I find your worldview interesting to ponder upon (albeit wrong, but I like thinking about it and picking it apart nonetheless), I find your reactions to things amusing, I find you compelling and I enjoy speaking to you and spending time with you. I also care about you. Ergo, I love you.
Clear enough?
-💖
.....
You remain stubborn. Congratulations on your consistency. It is clear. It is not understood, however. Believe what you will, but we both know I have ruined this universe beyond true repair.
Love could not flourish for someone like that.
