the haunting of hill house
  sentence meme.
you believe me, donât you?
when i was a kid, my brother taught me how to spot faces in clouds.
and i mean⌠that fucked me up pretty bad.
itâs normal for kids to have imaginary friends and nightmares.
we could have a heck of a yard sale.
big boys know the difference between whatâs real and whatâs imaginary.
that one doesnât exactly keep me up at night.
i know weâre all going to have a lot of feelings about that.
weâre not in a relationship.
how the fuck do you expect people to get through this without friends?
i just wanted to make sure you were okay.
iâm gonna fix this.there are moments you kind of remind me of her.
the only other person that believed in me like that was you.
nothing left to do except maybe fill this place up with kids.
i mean, you know the definition of insanity. doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
when we decide to get clean, itâs not because we expect it to be fucking exciting, you know?
you ever seen someone in withdrawal?
just because you care about someone, it doesnât mean they wonât burn you.
thirty days clean so you can make me feel like shit again.
itâs taken me ten years to get ninety days clean.
iâve been called a lot of things in my life, but âfearlessâ is not one of them.
i was always a scared little kid, and i thought iâd get braver as i got older, but i didnât.
any addict alone is in bad company.
listen, i know i fucked up.
please, please let me come back.
they say sheâs a nightmare, but sheâs real.
if she comes back, you come find us, okay?
i was planning on waiting until the end of your visit to ask you out for coffee.
iâm gonna have to get used to that, but i like it.
itâs perfectly normal to want to find something to blame.
donât worry. i donât expect you to believe me.
iâm not supposed to have things that are fragile.
use your cup of stars. insist on your cup of stars.
iâve been having a hard time sleeping in that house without him.
i need to get well before i go in.
itâs just you and me. thatâs it.
i always believed in you, you know that?
we all just need a little help sometimes, right?
that is not the way you help an addict.
i am feeling serious fucking concern.
i thought we might get drunk and fucking cry.
you look worse than you did four months ago.
heâs not exactly impressing me and i know what the fuck iâm talking about.
iâve got your back, but i also have my limits.
you never cared about anyone more than yourself, and thatâs sad.
my family is just like any other family; we donât always agree on everything.
youâre supposed to protect me, but you say the meanest things to me when i try to tell you.
you donât come in here and embarrass me like that.
you donât get to just start smashing up our lives because youâre transitioning into a new treatment.
this was not the time or place.
the problem is that you havenât confronted your past.
how can a house, just a collection of bricks, wood, and glass, have that much power over people?
i donât know what i saw.
you should get some sleep. youâve had a rough night.
itâs just a carcass in the woods.
we were going to have a tea party.
we always knew. we always believed you.
iâm so sorry that we fought.
itâs time to wake up, sweetheart.
in movies, they always say that they look like theyâre sleeping. she doesnât look like sheâs sleeping. she looks dead.
you did a really good job as usual.
you might want to slow down. itâs going to be a long night.
please. donât fuck this up.
she was always trying to get all of us together in one place. someone shouldâve told her she didnât have to try this hard.
if itâs all the same to you, maybe we can save this conversation for a little later.
if you were married, youâd know that sometimes people need a little room.
iâm drinking every time i feel like punching something.
itâs not like we were really talking each otherâs ears off before that.
this is his coping mechanism. he turns into a waiter.
you werenât in bed. whereâd you go?
i had the strangest dream.
you guys hear a scary noise?
but you know what storms do? they pass.
stay down here and stay away from the windows.
you wearing those gloves to bed now?
theyâre not here to hurt us.
itâs okay, weâre totally safe.
this house has been here for a long, long time. itâs seen plenty of storms and worse than this.
i was holding her hand the entire time.
i wonât let anything happen to her. to any of you guys.
all words are made up at first.
i know those stories âcause i was there for those stories.
iâm trying to drink her back to life. would you like me to stop?
you know some religions wonât let you be buried in their cemeteries if you kill yourself?
she knew the price the rest of us pay when someone does that, and she did it anyway.
i donât know why she didnât feel like she could talk to me.
thereâs nothing she was going through that wouldnât have been okay.
weâre all aware of how you like to hold back information.
weâve all got questions and i think itâd be swell if you gave us a few answers for a change.
any psychiatrist worth their shit wouldâve kept her on a much shorter leash.
she wasnât worried about herself, she was apparently worried about you.
why do i need protection from the truth?
youâre entitled to your anger.
itâs very generous of you to allow me to feel my anger.
what else am i entitled to while youâre being so fucking generous?
you might want to check yourself before you start talking about the truth.
sheâs drunk. iâm just pissed.
you took all that paranoia and craziness and you mass-marketed it.
you were happy enough to exploit all of us for some blood money.
you donât know what i felt. and you donât know what i feel. and i am allowed to process that any way i want to.
i have enough of my own grief. i donât need yours too.
youâd have to be a real stubborn bitch not to, so.
you donât get to lie to me, and live off me at the same time.
if i were you, iâd get off that high horse before i fall off.
if you were me, you wouldnât be such a fucking asshole.
do you have any idea how much youâve humiliated me?
i canât look at either one of you right now.
i donât know why sheâd go anywhere else by herself.
i donât want to upset anyone any more than weâre already upset.
anything i did, i did it for a very good reason.
i was screaming and shouting and none of you could see me!
donât do that ever again.
iâll never let you go again. i promise.
