i havenāt used this blog in forever but i see i still have 200 followers for some reason. random update i guess. the stuff described in my last post before i disappeared was very real and iām in therapy for that now, i had a lot more than no-contact online abuse, iām bettering my relationship with my mother (surprisingly) and learning to love myself, shitās been rough but yeah iām surviving and itās nice to at least not be in constant denial or wondering if iām making shit up. i have no plans to use this blog again as of rn but if youāre interested in following me somewhere else i use twitter mainly now, iām rottingichor on there although my personal ramblings are moreso on my personal shatterzero.
side note i noticed a lot of really kind messages were left for me on some of my old posts that i never saw and i want to say thank you to anyone who said something kind to me. means a lot, even in retrospect















