a collection of sentences tied to those rough patches in life and the moments where those who once stood close proved to be different than what you almost dared to hope for.
β but it hurts, it hurts more than you can even imagine. βΒ
β when youβve been through the kind of crap that i have, you sort of get it. β
β i thought i would learn something from all this pain, but iβve never felt more stupid. β
β if lifeβs teaching me a lesson then i want to skip it. β
β itβs a burden thatβs constantly there, constantly looming, constantly wearing me down. β
β it just wonβt let go. β
β sometimes it just feels like iβm failing the world, and the world is failing me back.β
β lifeβs got to be the worst tinder match in history. β
β i would very much like to stop feeling like this, but itβs not that easy. β
βi watched you lose interest in someone you said youβd love till the end of time. from that moment on i realized iβd never fully trust the words of a lover's mouth again.βΒ
βi watched our folded hands was change, and now we would never see each other again.β
βi gave up being pretty when society raised the bar of beauty. β
βi slept so comfy in your embrace but then i realized that you weren't really there.β
βto be portrayed as a burden by someone whose supposed to be your rock is the greatest weight in the world.β
βitβs as if something is eating me up inside, and i donβt even want to stop it.β
βand maybe i am supposed to feel sad. maybe itβs karma. maybe I do deserve it.β
"i don't know how to feel."
"but you did leave me. you did leave me, and i waited for you."
"you don't get it do you? what it feels like to let someone inside your heart, your life and your very soul, only for them to tear it all apart as if it was nothing. you did that to me."
"i waited for you, over and over again."
"do you really think i forgot, after all this time?"
"everyone seems to have found their happy ever after and i don't even know if i'm made for that."
"everyone who touched me took a part of me with them."
"to break and to mend myself over and over again, i'm sick of it."
"don't to dare look at me like that when you brought us here in the first place β don't you dare make me feel this way."
"i moved on, i moved away from you."
"so, that's it then? nothing else? just ... done?"
"all the ones that claimed to love me... i just pushed them away."
"who is to say that you won't leave me, too?"
"right, because that's how it goes. you crack a joke, i laugh and then i'm supposed to fall for you, just like that. a snap of a finger... and then a snap of my heart when you've had enough of me."
"everyone says that they can take it, that they will love me no matter what but the moment i peel away that exterior i've worked so hard on, everyone pulls away... and i can't even find it in me to blame them."
"nothing good will come from regretting."
"the worst part is how i started to think that you were different."
"i could have expected it from everyone else but... not you."
"hands have never been kind to me, and words nothing but sly."
