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“The insecure person is fearful and prone to jealousy, clinging, possessiveness, and attachment in relationships, an approach that always brings frustration. The purpose of these feelings is to bind and tightly possess the other, to achieve security by preventing loss and, at times, to punish the other for our own fear of loss. Again, these attitudes tend to bring into manifestation the very thing that we are holding in mind. The other person, now feeling pressured by our energy of dependency and possessiveness, has an inner impulse to run for freedom, to withdraw, to detach and do the very thing that we fear the most. These attitudes lead to constantly wanting to influence others. Because people intuitively pick up our wish to control them, their response is to resist. So the only way to bring about relinquishment of their resisting us is to let go of wanting to influence them in the first place. This means letting go of the inner fears as they come up.” ~David R. Hawkins

I struggle with my self consciousness, constantly thinking of myself in the eyes of others and wanting to be loved. I’ve spent a lot of time changing my ways of thinking and perspective on life to find peace and fulfillment.

The more I understand about myself the more distant I feel with everyone else.

The only thing I desire in this world is a place to feel comfortable to be myself around people who care.

Life is a conundrum of confusion. I miss being ignorant to the world sometimes.

I'm not really sure what to say but I feel like I should share my thoughts.

we try not to dwell on the past but why is it that the past persists?

I stay extremely in the present lately, distracting myself with the same things but with the occasional outings to remind myself that I am human. My future seems so unknown that I feel like I can't plan anything further then a month away even though nothing has changed besides my mentality the last 9 months. Yet I find myself thinking about the past and things that I can't do anything about now.

I'm aware that it does not matter now. Nothing will ever be the same as it was yesterday and that's fine by me.

I'll never feel the same I did the nights where I wondered if I was destined to be alone.

I'll never feel the same I did when I played games with friends who are no longer here.

I'm aware that I will feel similar feelings in ways I can't comprehend now and that I've experienced feelings I didn't understand until much later.

I let my feelings wash over and pass through me forever chasing for a place where I can feel the most myself that I cam be. I can only hope the people I let into my life can be aware of their impact on me and vise versa.

I'm unsure the point here. I hope it this makes you think of the people around you, everyone has struggles in which they never speak.

I love you all. Keep you head up but your chin level.

I feel myself changing, this year feels like a mental transcendence.

I feel so above and below

Ima be real with you, it puts a big ass smile on my face when I go creeping and see you still talking about the past.

I don’t even think about you once I realized how different our morals and character truly are.

Continue to live in the past. I’ve learned from it.

You obviously don’t know how ✌️

konoko

Lately I feel out of sync with everyone around me.

I wish to isolate away from people but desire human connection so I’m trapped in a constant anxious state.

Thing’s will improve, I’m just lost again. maybe I should get a pet

manga-meow

Hope the pets are doing well

Living in the past doesn't help anything does it? Was I really this monster you claim me to be or do you tell yourself this to justify yourself? Either way it doesn't matter does it?

It changes nothing and you continue to dwell.

I’ve been truly working on me. Have you?