The Choice You Made Hurts Him
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Prompt: You made your choice
High school was a hierarchy. Everyone knew it. They knew where they belonged; or, even if they couldn’t name the group they were a part of, they knew which groups they weren’t included in.
There were some who, if lucky enough, could move up the ranks. This could happen a few different ways: their parents getting raises, lifting their family into a new tax bracket. A sudden burst of puberty, revealing shinier hair, glossier skin, a trimmer body. In rare cases, a student could move up the social ladder simply by badmouthing the lower rungs within earshot of the right person (though this was the riskiest of all– if it backfired, one would find themselves floating in the abyss between rungs, the higher castes not impressed enough to welcome them in, with the lower castes shunning them for their insolence).
The final option relied on dating. But the rules here were strict: the person in the higher position had to be the one to reach out to the one in the lower section. It had to appear that the more popular person was magnanimously dating the other, despite the social barriers. It made the relationship that much more palatable for everyone else.
Unfortunately for Eddie, that’s what was happening with you. You, his best friend since seventh grade, had somehow caught the eye of the king of douches himself, Steve Harrington.
It started easily enough, innocently enough. The two of you were sitting at one of the tables near the back of the library during your free period. You were diligently trying to work on a science paper; your brow was creased in the middle as your eyes scanned the ancient textbook in front of you; your teeth were digging into your bottom lip, an absent-minded habit that happened whenever you were concentrating, something Eddie had noticed a few years back but never mentioned. He, on the other hand, was diligently working on anything but schoolwork. His notebook was spread open before him, the lined pages covered in doodles of dragons and knights and one pathetic little stick figure who had suspiciously good hair bleeding out, oversized Xs as eyes.
A shadow fell over the table. The two of you looked up.
“Hey,” Steve said, the corner of his mouth lifted in what Eddie suspected he thought was ‘charming’ but was really just… annoying. “Y/N. We got paired together for Gruber’s history project, right?”
Steve’s grin widened. “Cool. You got any ideas for it yet?”
“Can’t think of your own, Harrington?” Eddie mumbled. Steve’s eyes flicked to him, the grin faltering for just a moment, the typical scowl the jocks gave Eddie flashing over his features, before he turned back to you.
“I… maybe,” you said, shrugging noncommittally.
Steve nodded, his expression lightening once more. “Right,” he said. “You, uh… want to come over to my place tonight to get started?” That damn smile reappeared. “I’ve got basketball practice after school, but I’ll be done by five. Home by five thirty. Gives us plenty of time.”
“Harrington!” A sharp whisper sounded from a few tables over. All of your heads swung in the direction, finding Tommy and Carol beckoning Steve over to their table. Steve held up a hand, turning back towards you.
“Five thirty,” he repeated before heading back towards his friends.
You watched him go for a moment before turning back to your textbook.
“What a tool,” Eddie said. “You know he’s gonna make you do like, all the work, right? And then he’ll take the credit.”
“And that’s different from you how?” You glanced up, the corner of your mouth twitching, your tone light.
“Ouch,” Eddie said, pressing a hand to his chest. “I’m wounded, Y/N. Truly. I turn to you for answers because I know you’re much smarter than me. I bow before your wisdom.” He cocked his head towards the other table. “King Steve, on the other hand, is just lazy and doesn’t want to put forth any effort into maintaining his mid-range GPA.”
“It’s fine, Eds,” you said, turning once more to your homework. “I just want to… get it over with. No need to rock the boat.”
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Much to Eddie’s dismay, the appearance of Steve Harrington in the outskirts of his life did not end after your project was turned in. First, it was little things: glances shared between the two of you across the English classroom. Extra peacocking on Steve’s behalf as he jogged around the gym while you and Eddie took it at a more leisurely stroll. A wave in your direction as you climbed into Eddie’s beat up van, Steve’s BMW peeling out of the parking lot with a squeal of tires.
Then, there was the appearance at the lunch table. Eddie swore the decibel level in the cafeteria dropped, all eyes pinned to your corner table, wondering why Steve Harrington was standing next to it, instead of making his way to the table in the center of the room, the center of attention. Was he lost? Did he get hit with a rogue basketball during gym and was suffering amnesia?
“Hey,” he said, all charm and seemingly unaware of the ripples pushing through the lunch room. He held out a familiar orange package. “I, uh… remembered you said these were your favorite.”
Eddie watched as you reached out, taking the candy. “Thanks.”
Steve nodded, easy. “There’s, uh… room at my table,” he said, cocking his head in the direction his friends were sitting. “If you ever want a… change of scenery.”
You and Eddie watched as he turned and headed for his table, glancing at you once over his shoulder.
“What a douche,” Eddie said. “‘A change of scenery’. As if his table isn’t in the same disgusting lunch room as this one.”
You tore open the cellophane and held a Reese’s cup out to Eddie, the motion familiar– he’d lost count of how many times the two of you had shared this candy over the years. You always offered him the first one out of the package without thinking about it.
He took it, letting the chocolate and peanut butter melt on his tongue. “He likes you, you know,” he said quietly, his eyes trained on the scratched tabletop.
You shrugged. “Maybe he’s just being nice.”
“Nice,” Eddie repeated. “People like Harrington don’t do ‘nice’, not for people like…” Normally, he’d finish that thought with ‘us’. But as he studied you, he began to wonder if you and he were really so similar anymore.
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A few weeks passed, the buzzing around of Steve’s growing more frequent. One day, Eddie dropped into his seat at the lunch table, finding the spot across from him empty. Strange– you usually beat him here. He looked around, wondering where you’d disappeared to. You’d been here this morning.
He spotted you standing near the entrance of the cafeteria, talking to the hairsprayed weirdo. You were too far away for Eddie to even attempt to read your lips, but there was a small smile on your face. Steve’s head was cocked to the side, lowered slightly towards you, as if asking a question. You paused, considering, before giving a small nod.
Eddie watched as you made your way towards him, sinking into the seat across from him. “What was that all about?”
“Steve asked if I’d go to his game tonight.”
Eddie’s brows rose. “What’d you say?”
“I said maybe.” You looked over at him. “You wanna go with me?”
“To a basketball game?” Eddie let out a scoffing laugh. “Not really my scene, sweetheart.”
‘Didn’t used to be yours, either,’ he thought, but kept his mouth shut.
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That was the beginning of the end, at least as far as Eddie was concerned. You started changing, spending more time with Steve, actually daring to sit at his lunch table at least once a week. There was even one really awkward time when you had Steve come sit at your table with you and Eddie, the silence sitting on all of you like a ton of lead. You started going to basketball games and parties thrown at the Harrington abode.
Sometime around February, it became official– you were dating Steve Harrington. You spent more and more time with him, less and less time with Eddie.
Eddie told himself it didn’t matter. He told himself that sooner or later, Harrington would realize his mistake and dump you, that you’d come crawling back to him. (The longer this took, however, the more he went back and forth as to whether or not he’d graciously accept you back into his fold.)
He was sitting out on the picnic table, the one hidden away in the grove behind the school, ditching sixth period. Already on his second cigarette, nearly to the filter. His fingers were reaching for the cardboard package when he heard the step behind him. He turned, finding you standing at the edge of the treeline.
“Hey,” you said quietly. “Can I join you?”
Eddie shrugged, tried to ignore the increase in his heartrate. You crossed over to him, settling on the bench beside him. His knees brushed your shoulder as he shifted on the tabletop. He lit a new cigarette, handing it to you without a word.
“So,” he finally said, breaking the silence. “You haven’t been out here in a while. What’s up?”
You shrugged. “Just… wanted a break.”
Eddie nodded, even though your back was to him. “How’s… things?”
You blew out a stream of smoke. “Fine.” You paused. “Prom’s coming up.”
You let out a dry chuckle. “Steve’s trying to convince me that my dress shouldn’t be black. Said black reminds him of funerals.”
“Christ,” Eddie muttered. “Here we go.”
You turned. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Y/N, I haven’t talked to you in weeks. You’ve been out here less than five minutes and you’ve already brought up the king of the douche brigade. You…” Eddie shook his head. “You’ve changed. The Y/N I knew would never be discussing prom dresses, especially not in relation to Steve Harrington.”
“No.” The word was harsh, sharp. “I never see you anymore. You never call. You spend all your time with him– he drives you to school, you almost always sit with him at lunch, you go to his stupid sports practices.” He squinted at you. “And are you wearing makeup? Like, actual makeup? And your hair, it’s…” He gestured towards you, a single handwave encompassing the streak of blush on your cheeks, the bouncy ponytail, the cheap gold necklace hanging from your throat that Steve had given you for Valentine’s Day. Eddie shook his head. “I don’t even fucking recognize you anymore.”
“That’s a shitty thing to say.”
Eddie shrugged. “Whatever. Go cry about it to your boyfriend. Tell him that the Freak of Hawkins High hurt your feelings.” He took another drag on his cigarette. “Get the hell out of here.”
“No, Y/N.” He glared at you, his mouth set in a hard line. “You made your choice. So go.”
The air was thick, filled with static, like the moment before a thunderstorm. You studied Eddie for a moment before slowly grinding your cigarette on the table, leaving the butt beside him. You stood and stomped out of the clearing, back towards the school.
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A month passed. Complete radio silence between you and Eddie. You no longer sat with him at lunch or let him copy your math homework. The two of you moved through the halls like ghosts, barely brushing past each other.
But Eddie saw. He saw the way you trailed after Steve, the way his arm looped around your shoulders, the smile on your face as you looked up at him.
And it hurt. But Eddie couldn't say anything. After all, he'd been right: you'd made your choice. And he had to witness that choice every goddamn day.
But he couldn't let go. Not completely.
So now, Eddie sat across the street from your house, working up the courage to go to the door. He saw the light on in your room upstairs; you hadn’t left for the prom yet. He took a few deep breaths and grabbed the plastic box from the seat beside him, opening the van door with a metallic groan before he could second-guess himself. His feet led him up the path towards your door, hands trembling slightly. He tried to think of what to say, but nothing felt right.
He stood in front of the door, looking down at the box in his hands. ‘This is stupid,’ he thought. He bent and placed the box on the doormat before turning and heading back towards the van. He’d only made it a few steps away before he heard the door creak open behind him.
He froze, standing stockstill for a few seconds before slowly turning.
You stood in the doorway, light spilling out behind you. The dress you were wearing was pink, overly fluffy, sequins glittering from the bodice.
“Hey,” Eddie said, voice cracking slightly. The single word was lame but weighted.
You looked down at the box on the doormat before crouching down, the skirt of your dress puffing up around you like a cloud. You picked up the box and stood, studying the corsage inside, a single black rose with a sprig of baby’s breath on a white band. “What’s this?”
“I, uh… I know you said that black reminds Harrington of funerals, but…” Eddie gripped the back of his neck. “Sorry. It’s stupid. I’m stupid.”
You looked at the corsage for another moment before holding the box out to Eddie. His heart stopped, his breath caught in his throat. This was it– you were officially cutting him from your life, this last-ditch effort being for naught.
Eddie blinked, unsure if he’d heard your quiet question. “Yeah, okay,” he said, reaching out and taking the box from you. The plastic crinkled loudly as he flipped open the lid. His fingers were shaking as he picked up the delicate bloom. He slipped the elastic band over your extended wrist, straightening the blossom slightly. “There,” he said softly. “A bit of badassery to go with all the… cotton candy.”
You laughed, the sound loud and bright. “Oh, god, it does look like I’m wearing cotton candy, doesn’t it?” You grabbed the skirt, pulling it out and letting it drop, doing nothing to de-emphasize the poof. “It’s so ridiculous.”
Eddie felt his own laugh bubble in his throat. “Yeah. But… you look nice, Y/N.”
You smiled softly. “Thanks, Eddie.”
The two of you stood there in silence for a few moments, but this silence felt different than the last one you’d experienced: softer, friendlier.
“Y/N, I’m sorry,” Eddie finally said. He shoved his hands into his pockets, his gaze dropping to his feet. “I was a real asshole. I shouldn’t have said what I did. I was just…” He sighed. “You’re the one person in my life who makes me feel like I’m not a freak. And I didn’t want to lose you. But it felt like you were pulling away, that you were becoming one of the popular snobs, and I…” He shrugged. “I guess I wanted to try and save myself some of the hurt.”
A pause. Eddie scuffed the toe of one boot against the concrete path. “Ended up causing myself more, though.” The words were almost unintelligible.
You let his apology settle. “You were right,” you said. “I did change. I did stop making time for you. And I shouldn’t have. I didn’t mean to.”
“It’s okay,” Eddie said, trying to wave it away.
“It’s not.” You took a step closer, the skirt of your dress swishing softly. “You’re my best friend, Eds. And that’s not going to change, no matter who I date. I’d rather have you in my life than a hundred Steve Harringtons.”
Eddie chuckled before he could stop himself. “God, can you imagine? I don’t think the world could handle that many.”
“There’d be so much hairspray,” you said with a giggle.
Eddie finally looked up at you, a smile on his face. The two of you watched each other in the yellow porch light. “I should go,” Eddie finally said, the words coming out slowly, like pulling taffy. “Harrington will probably be here any minute to whisk you away.”
You nodded. “Tomorrow… breakfast at the 5th Street diner? My treat.”
Eddie paused. The 5th Street diner had been a classic haunt for the two of you, sharing baskets of fries and bemoaning the tragedies of high school. Eddie hadn’t been there in weeks… didn’t feel right going alone. “Yeah,” he said, a smile, a real smile, tugging at his mouth. “Sounds great.”
Before he could register what was happening, you leaned forward and wrapped your arms around his neck. Eddie froze for a moment before letting his own arms lift, his hands resting lightly on your back. The sequined bodice of your dress was rough beneath his palms, but your floral perfume that tickled his nose was familiar, a scent that used to fill the trailer.
Eddie forced himself to pull back after a few moments. “Have fun tonight, Y/N,” he said quietly, and he found that he meant it. “But not too much fun, you hear?”
You rolled your eyes slightly, a huff of a laugh escaping. “Okay, Mom.”
Eddie gave your shoulder a brief squeeze before turning and heading towards his van. Just as he reached the hulking metal figure, he turned and called over his shoulder. “Hey. Y/N. Bring Harrington to breakfast tomorrow.”