Troubled Tea

This is a blog to journal and share my attempt at EDNOS recovery. I suffer from Binge Eating Disorder with Bulimic tendencies along with depression and anxiety issues. I will largely be following the guidelines set out in Dr Christopher G Fairburn's book 'Overcoming Binge Eating'. This is not a pro-ana, pro-mia, pro-ED, thinspo, fitspo or diet blog. This is a recovery blog. I am still really at the beginning of my recovery. There will be times when I talk about binging and purging and self harming. There will be times when I get drawn back into the addiction that is 'thinspo'. Please understand I am not promoting any of these behaviours, and if you see me slipping into them it means I need help getting back on track. If anything here triggers you please leave. If all else fails, drink some tea. p.s. This is a sideblog so I can;t follow you from it, though I will probably follow you back from my main blog. Please excuse me if I don't let you know who I am, and if you think you do know who I am please respect my privacy. This space ceases to be helpful when I don't feel I can be honest here.

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Help! I binged! What do I do now?!

First, know your binge. What caused it? How could you have better handled it? What alternatives are there to bingeing? What KIND of binge was it?

Subjective vs. Objective Binges

3 Tips to Eat “Normally” Again

Brain Over Binge: How I Stopped Acting on Urges

Alternatives to Bingeing

10 Strategies for Overcoming Binge Eating

Advantage/Disadvantage Chart for Unhealthy Behaviors Printout

Now if you is you DO binge… because it does happen from time to time in recovery… here are 20 reasons not to hate yourself after a binge [x].

And here are some other posts that may help you after a binge:

Binge Recovery

How to Recovery from A Food Binge: 10 Steps to Feel Better

How to Recover from an Unplanned Binge

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Honestly I’m so sick of seeing rich-girl fitness. Don’t show me pretty vegan smoothies in mason jars held by a girl with perfect makeup, a manicure, and a color-coordinated running outfit. Show me diets and workouts that I can manage when I’m working 13 hours days and living on a budget. Show me how to eat healthy when I have 5 minutes for lunch. Show me small things I can do to help my body. Show me workout plans that I can do outside of a gym when I can’t afford a membership. I don’t have time. I don’t have money. Half the time I don’t have the motivation to get up in the morning. But I have a body. I want to be healthy.

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This is important.

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Model: Kimberly Jay Photographer: Niel Galen

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God bless her booty unnnfff

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depression: i want to die

anxiety: but what if you die

me:

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Today little sister cracks open a second egg and mom’s eyes dart across the kitchen. 'You are not supposed to eat more than one egg a day you know that is far too much cholesterol.’ The first meal I ate at the hospital was a two-egged omelette drenched in cheese. My mother sat across from me while the nurses and social workers retaught her how to feed me. They told her I was not allowed to hide cheese under my plate, or pick off the tortilla shell and avoid the egg yolk. They told her there were new rules, now 3000 to 5000 calories a day, every day no more sugar-free jello egg whites and tea That night we went to the grocery store and felt the world tilt upside down We walked passed the low fat, no cholesterol sugar-free Until we hit the goldmine: poppyseed muffins, ice cream bars whole milk full fat butter. Foods that would make my heart beat regularly again and put life back in my eyes. Today I tell my mother I think it is fine for little sister to eat two eggs, cholesterol be damned. But she looks me in the eye and says “It’s different for you.” This is the same phrase she repeats when I ask her why she does not want us to cook noodles for mother’s day dinner or why she is not eating sugar this week. It is a phrase which means: because you showed so much control that you grew out of control You are Hereby Exempt from the Dieting Culture It is a phrase which means, ‘I am drawing a firm line between the South Beach diet The No-Carb diet The No-Sugar diet The Atkins diet The You Are Inherently Flawed and in Need of Fixing Diet and illness.’ Because nobody likes to think about the fact that perhaps we are all playing with fire that perhaps The American Dream (and by this I mean weight loss) is nothing but a smokescreen. That perhaps shrinking oneself successfully does not actually move mountains, paint your soul in bright gold, or part the seas. That perhaps making ourselves disappear won’t fix the real problems our good intentions will never pave the path to heaven. Tomorrow when I wake up I am going to breathe in the morning air and thank the universe for poppyseed muffins, ice cream bars whole milk full fat butter I am going to change the world and fry two eggs for breakfast.

Sarah T, Two Eggs

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Alrighty I’ve written and drawn another post on ohbeshhnow about a time I put some bran flakes in my boots. 

[This post does come with a trigger warning as it is about eating disorders. Please be discerning and do not read it if you think it will be upsetting]

here it is

[troubledtea]

I really cant handle my new job. Everyone else who works there is tall and thin and glamourous, EVERYONE. And I'm surrounded by massive full length mirrors everyday and its so fucking triggering I cant stand it.

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Mixed media on paper, 8”x10”. Also available as a print.

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I have depression, soxial anxiety, BED, and self harm issues. I just wanted to let you know that your blog helped me a lot throughout my journey. I fee like there is someone by my side (even if I don't know much about you). Right now I am recovering. I don't count calories anymore. I haven't binged nor cut for a while. Thank you for everything. Stay strong. I love you.

It does really really help to know there are others out there with the exact same issues as I do, much as I wouldn't wish them on anyone, it helps to know I'm not alone. Im so happy you're recovering, I've been relapsing terribly lately and it helps to remember recovery is possible. I love you too sweetie, thank you xxx

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i swear to god ive been bullied for a lot of my life but 90% of it was about being posh or smart or having spots or ecezema very little was about my weight. Almost every instance of someone making me feel bad about my body has come from my family. How the fuck are you meant to handle that. I've cut all those bullies out of my life but i cant cut my fucking mum out.

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i cant stop crying today and i cant get the idea of taking all my antidepressants out of my head and i cant stop thinking about cutting and i already relapsed into counting calories only to fucking binge like crazy as a result and i feel out of control of my body and my life and ive cut myself off from all my friends and im drowning in debt and unemployed and im just in so much trouble right now

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Even though some of the links go directly to the iTunes or Android store, still double check them because most of them are available of both platforms as well as others :)

12 Steps AA Companion (iTunes/Android)

Alura: Cognitive Therapy

ASK & Prevent Suicide (iTunes/Android)

AutisMate

Beating the Blues

Beat Panic

Beat Social Phobia (iTunes/Android)

BellyBio Interactive Breathing

Bipol-App

BioZen

Body Beautiful

BrainHQ

CBT Referee

Circle of 6

Cogmed

CogniFit

Cognitive Diary CBT Self-Help

Cognitive Enhancement Therapy

Constant Therapy

COGPACK

Control Alcohol (iTunes/Android)

DBT Diary Card and Skills Coach

DBT Self Help

Depression CBT Self-Help Guide

Eating D

eCBT

eMoods Bipolar Mood Tracker

Emotions and Feelings - AutismFeelings Book

Fit Brains

Focus Trainer

Guardly

Happy Habits: Choose Happiness

HAPPYneuron

HELP Prevent Suicide (iTunes/Android)

iCBT

iCounselor

iMoodJournal

ImQuit – Quit Addiction

iPromises

iStress

Just-in-Case

Kissy Project

Life Mood

LifeLine Response

Live Happy

Lumosity

Mobicip Safe Browser with Parental Control

Mood and Anxiety Diary

Mood Panda

Mood Tracker

Mood Tracking Journal and Diary

Mood Watch

MoodGYM

MoodKit

Moodlytics

MoodMaster Anti-Depression App

Moody Me

MyBrainSolutions

MindShift

My Mood Tracker

MyThoughts

OneHealth Meeting Finder

OnWatch (iTunes/Android)

Operation Reach Out (iTunes/Android)

Optimism

Overcoming Social Anxiety

Panic Aid

Project Toe

PSSCogRehab

PTSD Coach

QPR Suicide Crisis Support

Recovery Box

Recovery Record

Rise Up + Recover

Sad Scale

SAFE Alternatives

Safe Helpline

Safety App

Safety Plan

SAM – Self Help for Anxiety Management

SAS – Social Anxiety Support

Scientific Brain Training Pro

Self-Esteem Blackboard

Self Help Classics

Sobriety Counter

Stop Panic & Anxiety Self Help

Stop Drinking (iTunes/Android)

STOP!T

StopSelfHarm

Suicide Lifeguard

T2 Mood Tracker

Take Control

Teen Hotlines

The Now

This Way Up

Thought Diary

Watch Over Me – Personal Safety App

Way of Life

WhatsMyM3

Wingman Project

Worry Box- Anxiety Self Help

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Yoga Guide: Yoga for the hips! (New post up on sassy-yogi.com!)

Hip flexibility is something that is so important but yet so overlooked in our daily lives. Our daily routines can create a lot of tension in our hip joints without us even realising it. 

Therefore, today’s practice is a very yin style of practice, that can help to gradually open up our hips, gain greater range of motion, and help to prevent injuries!

Check out the 10 asanas and their detailed write-up here!