soni

28 years old. I've a degree in Cinema. Someday i'll meet Taylor. Brazilian. The soundtrack of my life is Taylor's albums.

[troublegirl13]

financially broken. i’m f*cked. that’s it.

i don’t feel the will anymore to come here, even when it comes to check your beautiful @taylorswift ‘s artworks.

it used to make me happy, but honestly. i’ve never been badder.

depressed, unemployed, broken, unvaccinated*, hopeless, sad, anxious, desesperate, with the feeling that i will die next or my loved ones. At the same time.

i hope you guys are well. please vaccinate if you can, take care, use mask, stay home if you can. don’t aglomerate. 

* we dont have vaccine for all here where i live. so...

[troublegirl13]

don’t know what else to do

Well, i’m very embarrased and i say sorry in advance. 

But things is getting worse for me. 

I still didn’t find a job. 

My father had to do another surgery and that delayed once more his radiotherapy for his cancer. My mother is in debt. My country seems to go downhill and i can't move from here. I’m an failed artist.

I just wanna respectfully ask to you: if you have any money, anything really, even cents, that you can donate, i made a paypal account. I can send it to your DM. Anything will help, really. 

Sorry for this. 

Thank you for reading.

[troublegirl13]

my life is going downhill. 

i’m tired.

my father has cancer.

i’m unemployed and broke.

i have no perspective.

i don’t dream anymore.

i live in the worse country in the world.

i’m depressed more than before.

i can’t afford therapy.

i don’t have friends.

i’m tired of quarantine away from everyone.

i’m contemplating suic1de.

after 5 years being clean, i’m doing seIf h4rm again.

i don’t know that to do.

in 14 days, it will be my 28th birthday and i didn’t accomplish anything.

i’m tired tired tired.

i don’t have hope.

i don’t have money to try to do something to earn money to survive in this pandemic situation.

i’m tired of going to hospitals and seeing my dad deteriorating.

not even taylor swift’s music has cheered me up anymore.

i’m all alone.

no one is going to miss me.

there’s nothing to live for.

[spendforevers-deactivated202301]

“I love everyone who’s inspired me to write a song, whether you know it or not. I love everyone who has ever turned the volume up when my song comes on the radio, anyone who has bought this album. Anyone who can sing along to my songs when I play them live. Anyone who’s ever requested my song on the radio, or even remembered my name. If you ever see me in public, I want to meet you. I will thank you myself. You have let me into your life, and I will never be able to thank you enough for that.”

[troublegirl13]

Sorry @taylorswift but i always skipped "soon you'll get better", because it broke my heart everytime.

Now that my father has cancer, i won't ever listen to it again. I'm sorry. I can't.

@taylorswift @taylornation

[cages-boxes-hunters-foxes]

Look At Them Looking At Each Other

[taylorswifh]

oh gosh

[solassitudes]

we’re manifesting!

[g0thcats]

i want to be a cat. jobless. educationless. useless. there to be pretty and soft

[troublegirl13]

a little help

I graduated from college in june, and still hasn’t found a job, even outside my area.

Government monetary help ends this month, and it’s so low that i can’t aford this month bills. It frightens me next year. I’m terrified.

I live in a shitty country and i don’t even know when people will be vaccinated, let alone me. I don’t know if “normal” life will ever comeback here. So i’m just staying home, studying and trying to find a job. Any kind of job.

So i decided to create a online course in which i will teach Cinema & Audiovisual. Dates: 04 to 07 in january.

I have a major in cinema, i’m post graduating in production designer, i have lots of experience and did so many capacitations, courses, workshops, etc. 

But only 5 people bought it. 

It was my last hope to pay some bills in january.

It costs just R$ 55,00 (currently $10.54) 

(which is extremely low price for the amount of information i’m gonna give)

Can you help me? 

I’m gonna teach in portuguese, but later i can teach you in english, separately. 

Or, if you can and want, you can buy just to help me and give me some hope. 

I hate to ask for help, but here i am.

The link for my course is:

https://www.sympla.com.br/oficina-introdutoria-de-cinema__1076696

My parents are poor, but they’re helping me. but there isn’t enough money for us all. Besides, they can’t help me forever. I’m old. On top of that, we discovered that my father has cancer and he will operate in january (the operation was marked to december 22, but the doctor delayed it), which it’s taking its toll on me. After that, he will do radiotherapy. I didn’t even managed to process that information yet. I can’t even think about it now. Everything seems to be going downhill.

I’m gonna tag Taylor and Taylor Nation, maybe they can reblog this post? Although everyone here speaks english… but maybe there are people who speaks in portuguese and maybe they get interested in it.

@taylorswift​​ @taylornation​

Sorry in advance.

[troublegirl13]

Trying again because what else can i do?

[troublegirl13]

Trying again and again

@taylorswift @taylornation

[troublegirl13]

Can someone help me?

[whitepeopletwitter]

[troublegirl13]

I give up

[troublegirl13]

a little help

I graduated from college in june, and still hasn’t found a job, even outside my area.

Government monetary help ends this month, and it’s so low that i can’t aford this month bills. It frightens me next year. I’m terrified.

I live in a shitty country and i don’t even know when people will be vaccinated, let alone me. I don’t know if “normal” life will ever comeback here. So i’m just staying home, studying and trying to find a job. Any kind of job.

So i decided to create a online course in which i will teach Cinema & Audiovisual. Dates: 04 to 07 in january.

I have a major in cinema, i’m post graduating in production designer, i have lots of experience and did so many capacitations, courses, workshops, etc. 

But only 5 people bought it. 

It was my last hope to pay some bills in january.

It costs just R$ 55,00 (currently $10.54) 

(which is extremely low price for the amount of information i’m gonna give)

Can you help me? 

I’m gonna teach in portuguese, but later i can teach you in english, separately. 

Or, if you can and want, you can buy just to help me and give me some hope. 

I hate to ask for help, but here i am.

The link for my course is:

https://www.sympla.com.br/oficina-introdutoria-de-cinema__1076696

My parents are poor, but they’re helping me. but there isn’t enough money for us all. Besides, they can’t help me forever. I’m old. On top of that, we discovered that my father has cancer and he will operate in january (the operation was marked to december 22, but the doctor delayed it), which it’s taking its toll on me. After that, he will do radiotherapy. I didn’t even managed to process that information yet. I can’t even think about it now. Everything seems to be going downhill.

I’m gonna tag Taylor and Taylor Nation, maybe they can reblog this post? Although everyone here speaks english… but maybe there are people who speaks in portuguese and maybe they get interested in it.

@taylorswift​​ @taylornation​

Sorry in advance.

[troublegirl13]

Trying again because what else can i do?

[lonelybitchversion]

You know my train could take you home Anywhere else is hollow I’m begging for you to take my hand Wreck my plans, that’s my man

[troublegirl13]

I love everything about this 💛

[taylornation]

Happy Holidays! 🧙‍♀️❄️🌲 We hope the season brings forth an incandescent glow, and a mythical forest covered in snow, ever and evermore. https://taylor.lnk.to/evermorealbum

📷: Max Wanger

[troublegirl13]

a little help

I graduated from college in june, and still hasn’t found a job, even outside my area.

Government monetary help ends this month, and it’s so low that i can’t aford this month bills. It frightens me next year. I’m terrified.

I live in a shitty country and i don’t even know when people will be vaccinated, let alone me. I don’t know if “normal” life will ever comeback here. So i’m just staying home, studying and trying to find a job. Any kind of job.

So i decided to create a online course in which i will teach Cinema & Audiovisual. Dates: 04 to 07 in january.

I have a major in cinema, i’m post graduating in production designer, i have lots of experience and did so many capacitations, courses, workshops, etc. 

But only 5 people bought it. 

It was my last hope to pay some bills in january.

It costs just R$ 55,00 (currently $10.54) 

(which is extremely low price for the amount of information i’m gonna give)

Can you help me? 

I’m gonna teach in portuguese, but later i can teach you in english, separately. 

Or, if you can and want, you can buy just to help me and give me some hope. 

I hate to ask for help, but here i am.

The link for my course is:

https://www.sympla.com.br/oficina-introdutoria-de-cinema__1076696

My parents are poor, but they’re helping me. but there isn’t enough money for us all. Besides, they can’t help me forever. I’m old. On top of that, we discovered that my father has cancer and he will operate in january (the operation was marked to december 22, but the doctor delayed it), which it’s taking its toll on me. After that, he will do radiotherapy. I didn’t even managed to process that information yet. I can’t even think about it now. Everything seems to be going downhill.

I’m gonna tag Taylor and Taylor Nation, maybe they can reblog this post? Although everyone here speaks english... but maybe there are people who speaks in portuguese and maybe they get interested in it.

@taylorswift​​ @taylornation​

Sorry in advance.