“I’m not trans.”
*Chooses gender as a topic for paper and researches endlessly on what gender is as a concept and how that factors into the everyday life of the average person*
“I’m not trans.”
*Always plays the girl in videogames when possible*
“I’m not trans.”
*Decides to start growing out hair*
“I’m not trans.”
*Follows a bunch of trans content creators and blogs obsessively*
“I’m not trans.”
*Reads up on the effects of HRT for a bit to better empathize with trans peers*
“I’m not trans.”
*Gets incredibly excited shopping in the women’s section of a thrift store for a sweater that looks just slightly effeminate*
“I’m not trans.”
*Finds a women’s workout and diet routine meant to widen hips and thin waist*
“I’m not trans.”
*Happens to read that cutting out red meat could help hrt work better and conveniently goes vegan shortly after*
“I’m not trans.”
*Grows beard, gets depressed*
“I’m not trans.”
*Feels depressed and shaves all hair off of body and feels much more comfortable and natural*
“I’m not trans.”
*Buys a few skirts and some tank tops because guys can wear that stuff too
“I’m not trans.”
*Throws out those tank tops after wearing them once and seeing huge shoulders in the mirror and crying for a half an hour*
“I’m not trans.”
*Spends 5 hours in the bathroom scrutinizing jawline, hairline, square chin, and forehead and wondering how to make those features softer and rounder*
“I’m not trans.”
*Starts watching makeup tutorials, many of them by trans women, and starts wearing makeup around the house when no one else is home*
“I’m not trans.”
*Starts having close friends call you by gender-neutral nickname*
“I’m not trans.”
*Has vivid recurring dreams about waking up in a woman’s body and feels vague sense of excitement when remembering them*
“I’m not trans.”
*Stays up all night researching permenant hair removal methods, eventually settling on electrolysis*
“I’m not trans.”
*Stays up all night again to research facial reconstruction surgeries*
“I’m not trans.”
*Does price and budget analysis on electrolysis and facial reconstruction surgeries, adding up to just over $10,000*
“I’m not trans.”
*Cries about not having the money even though you totally never planned on doing any of this for real right*
“I’m not trans.”
*stops going outside for a week. doesn’t look in mirrors or put hands near face*
“I’m not trans.”
*shaves. styles hair to cover forehead. puts on makeup. puts on skirt. puts on tanktop that didn’t get thrown out. Stares at the mirror and starts to hyperventilate out of some strange combination of excitement and intense distress*
“I’m not trans.”
*sleeps on bathroom floor dressed like a woman*
“I’m not trans.”
*Makes an appointment with psychiatrist, deciding to only tell them about the emotional distress and not make any connection to gender in order to not make things ‘difficult’ on yourself*
“I’m not trans.”
*Sees psychiatrist that brings up the possibility of being a transgender woman and completely freezes up at the mention of it*
“I’m not…”
*Breaks down crying and can’t complete sentence*
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