Untitled

[tryingtobehonesttomyself]

letter to myself

Happy.

that is what i hope to attain,

that is what i will attain,

that is what i have attained.

[tryingtobehonesttomyself]

my last letter to you

my biggest fear is if he lies or cheats

when he says even the smallest of lies 

it breaks pieces of me bit by bit

he will never understand….

the amount of trust i struggled to put together 

FOR HIM.

the effort

FOR HIM.

the love i will forever keep

….just for us

what’s next for us and our always and forever?

is it now over and never?

i hope you never love anyone as much

trust anyone as much

stare at someone as much 

but just be mine till after eternity

forever be the perfect puppet 

i have pieced you to be in my head

forever and always my darling.

[tryingtobehonesttomyself]

untitled

today i starved myself so i look good for you

so i feel good when i am with you

so you can love me when i am with you

so i can forever be with you.

am i enough now?