OH god. oh godohgodohgod. I really, truly wanted to keep calm. I’ve written letter after letter to the others trying to close things up, but. I guess I wanted to hear your voice again, because I think my time is just about up. You didn’t really pick up, I’m sure you’re busy with more important things, but I seriously, don’t think I can hold on much longer.
I guess this is really sudden, I never told you how long this has been going on and I’m sorry. It’s not that I don’t trust you, I do. I trust you more than anyone, you’re my best friend. It’s just that I didn’t want to bother you. I really didn’t want to be the rock that disrupted and broke up the tidal wave, or something like that I don’t even know how to explain it. I just wanted you to have peace of mind and for me to go through this battle alone.
Because I guess I never went at this alone. You were always there for me. No matter what it was, you were always there and I wish I could’ve been there for you too. You helped me so much, and I’m sorry you were always there for me and I can’t even live out my time with you. I wish I could. I would give up anything to be by your side in the end.
I’m so sorry I can’t be by your side anymore, and I’ll miss you. You’re more important to me than anything. I can’t even describe it, you’re my best friend ever and I just feel so connected to you and I can’t imagine going on without you and I’m sorry I’m putting you through exactly that.
But this is getting long and I feel really, really tired. My whole body feels heavy and so does my mind and the only thing keeping me up anymore is this terrible, terrible feeling that I won’t wake up again. I just wanted to send this message, because…
Well, I guess I just have a lot more to say. I never really told you how important to me you were. And how much I already miss you, just talking here now, and… I guess I just gotta say goodbye now.
You’re my best friend, and that’ll never change. I’ll miss you more than anything else in my life. And I love you, in that respect. And I only wish I could have told you this stuff when I was still here.
Thank you, for everything.
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