(THE SEDUCTION OF)

bare your teeth

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guess I should catch you all up on my life a little

was single for a while, now in an open relationship (the most healthy supportive relationship I’ve ever been in tbh) with a really really really really really great dude, officially dating for 15 months but including the “we wanna be low key let’s not label this” phase it’s more like a little over 2 years. guess I’ve been pretty absent here lol yo.

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yeah I’m still here I just mostly check out bear dad blogs tbh because I’m a thot for thick fuzzy older dudes what’s good

ps don’t mind the url change 

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hey sometimes I still log in here lol

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hey hi

I logged in here for the first time in forever and I had several questions about commission stuff in my inbox. I’m not open right now and I’m incredibly infrequent on this account so if you want to keep up with me and have more reliable contact follow my public twitter @ edgedestroys

ty xoxo

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ps before any more of you ask, no I don’t have a kik and no I don’t rp sorry lol

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Heya! do you like musk?

MUSK IS GOOOOOOODDDDD in the sense of like pheromones from someone’s crotch, like I’ll smell someone’s balls after they’ve worked out any fuckin day of the week but straight up unhygienic BO or like armpit musk is not my jam. I’m pretty much in it just for the junk musk haha.

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what do you typically look for in people you consider dating?

I’m not sure tbh!! Everyone I’ve dated it just kinda... happened? I never go looking for a relationship, things with a friend usually just kinda click haha, it’s always just fallen into my lap so to speak. If I had to pick things though I guess I’m really into passionate driven people. I feel like if I’m not doing something I’m wasting my life and opportunity so people that are complacent in just sitting around all the time kinda get me down. I make whoever I date a big part of my life so making lethargy a big part of it really is a buzz kill haha. It’s totally cool if that’s all someone needs to be happy but it’s not enough for me.

I definitely like progressively minded people. I’d say I’m a social justice advocate (not warrior, I’m down to have a level-headed discussion if someone wants to actually learn about stuff or talk about things calmly and respectfully), so people that are cool with being respectful of pronouns and you know aren’t racist is a big plus. Nothing turns me off faster than people that pull that whole HEY I’M AN EDGY OFFENSIVE ASSHOLE I PROBABLY HATE YOU F*GGOT half-assed shock humor bullshit like, ok? Not a goddamn person in the world is impressed by that and honestly it’s pretty depressing that anyone would think it’s a good idea to make being an insincere prick a personality trait.

Similar music tastes is always cool, obviously I won’t say no based just on that but I produce music and DJ, music is a HUGE part of my life so having a connection there is obviously a plus. I always joke that whoever I date has to like Moving Mountains because they’re my favorite band but so far that’s always been the case.

Other than that... I dunno! Like I said I’ve never really pursued a relationship, they always just kinda happen so I’ve never really put a lot of thought into the prerequisites for dating me haha.

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What things do you feel make you unready for a relationship at this time?

OK THIS WILL BE REALLY LONG BUT!!! 

I’m not even sure to be honest haha, it’s a really nebulous and ineffable feeling. After the last few I’ve been in it seemed really foreign for some reason, like I don’t know why or how but the idea of dating again just felt... weird?

I think I have a lot of cognitive dissonance because right now I’m like maxed out on thirst hormones and want to mess around a lot, more than any one person should be burdened with having to keep up with haha. But also I tend to be a pretty monogamous person so trying to balance my sex drive with that kinda sketches me out. I’ve become a lot more open minded and I’m ok for the most part with the idea of open relationships as long as I know the other person INCREDIBLY well and know I can trust them (I have a lot of trust issues from previous relationships and fucked up roommates in the past doing some fucked up shit to me lol). Polyamorous stuff kinda escapes me though, I think it’s awesome for people it works with but it’s a wavelength I don’t think I operate on haha.

To be honest though I think the biggest thing is I’m just not ready to feel pressured by commitment and the aftermath of a breakup. I don’t believe most any relationship is 100% built to last and I enter any of them knowing it probably won’t, the idea of hurting someone at the end of a relationship makes me really uncomfortable so I think just the idea of trying to commit to someone and not being able to stick it through holds me back.

All that said, since it’s been ages since I last logged in here, around last september I started casually dating my friend Feros. We’ve kept it super low key and super casual, not labeling things, not trying to make some big exclusive deal about it, it’s felt incredibly refreshing. We’ve both rushed into relationships in the past to try to seal the deal and had it totally blow up in our face trying to move things too fast and we’ve both come out of relationships pretty roughed up because of it so taking the super slow and steady pace has been ridiculously nice. We feel like adding a label right now just adds tons of superficial and superfluous expectations to whatever we have and just being really chill and “hey I’m not gonna stop you from having fun if the opportunity arises” about it has been GREAT. I really don’t know what I want out of a relationship right now, what they even mean to me anymore and if I’m ready to be committed to one person or any of that right now so just feeling things out with a good friend is nice.

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has anyone ever told you that you are literally the hottest and most attractive person theyve ever seen because god damn youre amazing

I’m not sure if anyones ever given me THAT high of a rating but I appreciate it haha thank youuuu.

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Where did you get your collar?

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/indy5brad

Same as my harness, they vend at cons sometimes too!

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yo, you absolute hottie, where do you buy your underwear? what are your favorite brands? or anything you could share about the topic, I'm trying to help the bae shop online for gay underwear and I thought you'd be the right place to start. bless u.

THANK YOUUUU

The stuff I wear most often is calvin klein, armani, 2xist, andrew christian and diesel but there are TONS of other brands doing cool stuff. I actually can’t remember most of them off the top of my head but I have lots of friends that are super huge nerds about underwear brands. I’ve been focusing on updating my wardrobe just for shirts and stuff lately so I’ve neglected underwear a lot haha. 

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what kind of hyena is Acacia?

A brown hyena! [Hyaena Brunnea]

THEY’RE GREAT

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HELLO FRIENDS TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY AND I HAVEN’T HAD SEX AND I HAVEN’T SIGNED IN ON THIS IN LIKE A YEAR I’M GONNA ANSWER ALL THE ASKS IN MY INBOX AND I GUESS ANSWER MORE IF YOU SEND THEM BEEP BEEP

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send help I can’t breathe

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so this happened tonight?????????

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feng shui shade

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since I still get asks for this pretty often, a reminder that

-no I don’t have kik sorry

-no I don’t RP, especially with people I don’t know

xoxo