Hi Tay! I wanted to share this letter I wrote to you right before I started my senior year just a few months ago.
Tomorrow is my first day of senior year and it’s bittersweet.
It’s crazy how you can go from middle school being the bullied shy nice girl then go into a completely different school as the girl who will always have your back. After being bullied all throughout grade school I have learned that these battle scars on my heart and conscience have only made me stronger. Every obstacle I faced has made me the person I am today.
I owe a lot of my ability to stay strong to you and your music. While it did cross my mind on some occasions, I never changed for someone to like me more and never would step down to the bullies level in order for them to think I’m cool. Instead, I would take the person being picked on and befriend them so I would hopefully have a friend for the first time. Most of the time this turned out in the bullying victim ignoring me and becoming a bully themselves but I always have an effort to be kind like you taug
I never thought that the being picked on in grade school would end. I thought all the girls were like this. Wow. Now looking back I was so wrong...I knew I could not go to the same high school that all the girls in my grade were going to. I knew I needed a change. An escape.
My first day of high school was surreal. I made so many friends and from the moment I stepped foot on campus & I immediately felt at home. This has been my happy place for the last three years and I can not wait for my final year even though I’ll definitely “cry like a baby coming home from the bar” on graduation day.
Thank you for being such a constant in my life. You and your music have always been there for me and I will forever be grateful. Thank you for teaching me to be kind no matter what and to smile at every single person you meet because you never know what they are going through. As I start my senior year in less than twelve hours I want to dedicate my year to you.
I will think about you during every test and know that I need to do my best in order to get where I’m going because then I’ll know that it was myself who put me there.
I will continue to never give up or lose all hope because one day I’m going to be living in a big old city and those bullies are only ever going to be Mean.
I wanted to write this post with the hope that maybe whoever reads will know that things do get better if you continue to be kind and fight through your daily battles. There is another side to every storm. Once the storm does pass and you can finally see the sunshine and rainbow you realize that you are stronger because of you everything you have been through. You came out of that awful point in your life as a resilient, strong, and remarkable person who is about to set the world on fire. I can not wait to see the amazing things you do in this world.
Do what I did and listen to “Mean” on repeat when you start to lose hope that things will get better.
https://open.spotify.com/track/5yEPktRqvIhko5QFF3aBhQ?si=cXcXujH1RNeVQPzH4EXw4Q
With lots of love and hugs,
I was just accepted into my top two colleges' business schools! One in the big city of Pittsburgh and the other in a suburb of Philadelphia!
I want to pursue a career in sales and management and hopefully, one day do something in music to give back to the thing that has given so much to me.
