Vlkry

Melancholic and Miserable

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It’s been 4 years and I still hate myself so deeply

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Daydreaming abt all the food I’ll be able to binge on when I live alone.

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I think I lack the parts to be truly happy, like even if I was perfect I’d still be sad.

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I wish he liked me back

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Another one bites the dust (I’ve been diagnosed with an eating disorder)

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Sinister and silent

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I want to speak to you

Without talking

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I have the anxiety levels of someone living in a war zone.

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Is it a crime to want to look like other people my age?

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Sitting across from him after binging sm and gaining sm weight knowing he can see me and he doesn’t want me anyways but I’m just getting more pathetic and undesirable by the second.

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One day I’ll be in charge of myself and I’ll make my own choices and no one will ever take that away from me. Freedom is not denied it is simply delayed.

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I’m so inhibited by daydreams I somehow don’t realize that I’m alive and my actions shape my reality.

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I actually don’t deserve this at all what the fuck

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The highs are straight lined no beeps on the machine barely abnormal, but the allows are banal, they run me haggard I can barely breathe when I lay my life in front of me. I’m so attached to misery and the pretense of being normal. There’s no escape just sights of a city I feel so fucking trapped in that it makes me sick.

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Maybe one day my body will look like all the other girls, I won’t be some flabby aberration that sulks in the corners of others lives. Lingering and bursting with fat, I wish I could wipe my slate clean and wake up with their bodies in a different city at a different school.

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i want a bf but also men scare me

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