1: NOVEMBER 30, 2017
NANDITO NA NAMAN AKO MAG-ISA AT NAGLALABAS NG SALOOBIN KO. I TRY TO BE POSITIVE. I TRY TO WASH AWAY ALL THESE BAD FEELING RIGHT NOW. I FOUND A NEW WAY SOMEHOW TO THROW AWAY ALL OF THESE AT DITO NGA YUN SA PAGPOPOST KO ABOUT WHAT I'M THINKING.
You don't know how much I sacrifice! I let go so many friends for you! but I feel left out now when I'm with both of you! it was an issue for me at first because when we fix our supposed to be already finished friendship I already see the changes of how we are now compared to what we were before all what happen because of your stupidity, but then I try to understand the situation, but whenever I try to understand it and don't give a fuck with it the both of you become more insensitive and this makes me become more independent and take a different road, I avoid contact with both of you so I can breathe a fresher air I feel stress and depress with you guys I feel unworthy, worthless, trash and just a recipe for your cooking show. I never feel again the essence of our friendship and I asked myself "May pagkukulang ba ko?", "May mali ba ko?", "Ano bang ginawa ko para mangyari sakin 'to?", "Tama bang binigyan ko ng another chance 'tong friendship na 'to?" I know time will come for me again that this kind of problem will stressed me out and still I didn't learn anything I still forgive you but I never forget. Kahit kaiwan-iwan kang kaibigan I tried to keep up with you kahit sinasabi na ng iba sakin na iwan ka I decide na hindi kasi tiwala ako na walang bibitaw satin pero whenever I'm with you hindi nagiging healthy yung utak ko.