25 v 6-4

泪 he still loves her, she doesn't care anymore. 泪

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

mock a grieving heart if you have to.

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

fell into a rabbit hole picture folder today.

obviously I'm stupid as heck.

admired pictures of you.

I can't believe how much I was in love with you.

Literally obsessed.

None of my personal failures diminished the depth of my love and admiration for you.

never.

I will die on that hill.

I hope you're well, dear.

that's all.

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[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

"if things had been different"

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

June, June, June, it'll always be like that.

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

of course.

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

.

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what was broken will be made whole.

that's the course of everything.

just not here.

and just not now.

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

every evening I still search for you. in the night sky, in the moonlight, in lit candles and the scent of late-night herbal tea, in cigarettes on balconies and the darkness of empty staircases. in the lines I write and the books I read, in the songs I listen to and the films I watch, in the melodies I sing and the chords I strum. I search for you in my body and my soul. there is no escape from love. you are everywhere because you are everywhere in my mind. I hurt in all the places that matter to me. I can never let this go. take care, dear. I am so sorry. I love you so.

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

you remain as the sadness in my heart.

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because she doesn't love you anymore.

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

you stayed in my heart.

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"grief makes odd things make sense."

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

flesh to flesh, heart to heart

...

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

I have waited for 13 years to make this joke. I thought you'd be there, when I do.

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

I miss you in the days and in the nights of my life.

[twentyfiveorsixtofour]

whatever happens, happens.