yr fav jester

skymommy said dance so dance i must | 19 year old girl(?)fail man(?)thing | gods most beloathed prophet | do not perceive me.

[twinetailedjester]

✦ | name(s) : twine! or jest :)

✦ | gender : multigenderflux(?) still figurin it out. im gnc asf. perfered pronouns are a secret that you can discover if your heart is pure or you tear me apart and study me. it/its is second most fitting, he/she are fine too- anything except they/them

✦ | sexuality : queer, aroace spectrum(?)

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☆ | interests (obsession levels denoted by exclamations) : tf2, carrion, splatoon!!!, horror movies, [horror/shoujo] manga, stardew valley, west of loathing, being freaky and perverted!! and also cozy sandbox games

☆ | fyi : i am depressive, probably autistic, bpd questioning, and schizotypal questioning. this blog is just a place for me to yap whatevah comes to mind. occasional vents, occasional nsft. i WILL come off as strange and esoteric.

everyone should get more freaky and perverted and everything ever is subject to change! tagging info below the cut ;9

#[twineposting] is yapping tag, anything not tagged with this is either a reblog or i forgot or i was inebriated or really emotional or suicidal

#[pain and misery for twine] is for vents w varying degrees of seriousness ranging from complaining to suicidal, i will usually tag suicidal ideation/self harm seperately with [tw sui] or [tw sh]

#[/sx] is how ive been tagging my sexual posts lately, but i’m indecisive about how i tag so some of it is tagged [say gex] some is [nsft], will change when i land on a system

#[irl rl] is me liveposting, #[da weed] is about (or me on) weed,

[there-is-still-some-liquor-left]

a body count not as in homicide nor as in sexuality but as in the trail of people from my childhood and adolescence i should’ve been a better friend to and taken better care of but i was too busy being caught up in my own heartache to recognize their own and therefore our relationship tapered off in an extremely unsatisfying way that continuously manifests itself as a thrumming sense of grief in my chest. anyway which restaurant chains have the best free pre-meal bread?

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stalkerxstalker is one of my favorite dynamics who and me. please.

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through the media we’ve read together we are still in some way tethered. i will forever link this to you and link you to me. i cant let you go yet, i’m sorry.

i’ll miss you, my dokja

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was reminded yesterday that i still very much am scared of the dark

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love me for who i am or else i’ll never get to what i should be

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we ain’t hopeposting anymore it’s time to give in to the doomer mindset

[deadeyed-dykething]

hey. shut up. i'm going to take care of you from now on. let me wash your hair for you. condition it. you have to leave it in for a while before you rinse. i'm going to take care of that. i'm going to brush your teeth for you. you don't have to worry about it anymore. i want to cook for you. you don't have to do anything. i know how hard it's been. you get to let it all go now. it's hard to pretend to be a person. i get it. i'll do all that for you. you don't have to-- stop, stop struggling. it's okay that it was too much for you. you don't have to try anymore. i can do it for you. i know you feel like you're supposed to feel bad about this but you don't have to. i'm making you, right? i'm forcing you to let me take care of you. you don't have to feel guilty. i'm forcing you. the personhood that never fit, that was too hard, i'm taking it away. you can just let it go. I'm going to take care of you. i'm going to take care of all of it. quiet. you'll get used to it. i promise.

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my depression meds are awesome bc they make me not want to kill myself but they kind of suck bc i don’t get delusions anymore

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there have been 8 ghost notifs that have been bothering me for a week now does anyone know how to put these things down

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ahh wordpress. the last bastion of light novel piracy.

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i had a friendship wherein the friend also really liked manhwa and stuff and now sometimes when i read novels i get really really sad because i remember him

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funny as hell how ppl comment on manhwa scans

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sweet sweet wifi

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its a little funny how you can just tell when the author of an ao3 fic actually mains wattpad

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losing so bad i had to strip butt naked and tie my hair up

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picking up luggage is a humilation ritual

i need to exist to someone or else i will go insane

i bought an evil $20 burger king combo

i will soon be home

i am so unbelievably horny