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not gonna lie andrew vanwyngarden gives me a funny feeling in my pants daddy where do babies come from

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you know what, disregard that last post

i need to go back in time and erase myself

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i think this blog is around 6 years old, or something. i believe i was 16 when i had this blog, and now i’m 22. so much has changed. reading my old posts and wondering 'who was this kid? who did they think they were? Was that really me? did i really think that way? i don’t remember using those kinds of words, having those kind of thoughts, liking those things...’

i don’t know why it’s so hard to remember this time period, most of my life ages 14 - 17 seem to draw a blank. which is why it’s so surreal to see it all preserved in 14,000+ posts on here. i wish i could say it was the darkest point of my life, but it’s turned out to be far from it, though i suppose it was in terms of my personality. i forgive my teenage self though, nobody that age doesn’t make a fool of themselves at some point, and i had a lot going on that were majorly exacerbating the angst.

the funny thing is, i still love the beatles, though not so much paul mccartney. so i guess me and 16 year old me would have that to talk about, at least. i doubt anyone still following this blog is even around anymore, but i’ll just leave this here for myself when i come back in another few years. 

reminder to self: you’ve grown so much, and you’re still growing. be proud, not ashamed, of the fact that who you used to be was a far less refined person. yeah it’s sad that in many ways you’re still living exactly like you did when you first made this blog, and it will be that much sadder if that’s still the case when you return to read this a few years from now. but it’s not too late. please don’t feel bad. it’s never too late. you haven’t stopped growing.

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Jesus... do you ever read your blog from when you were a teenager and cringe? Thank the fucking Gods I'm not this whiny emo pissbaby anymore. Finally got outta here and got a life. Still keeping his old thing around though just to look at whenever I'm feeling myself turn into that again, makes for a rude wake-up call, man. I really doubt anyone remembers me and that's probably for the best, idek why I'm typing this. Fever logic, I guess...

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So I just saw a young naked and wet Malcolm...

*dead*

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...........how naked we talking here?

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yum<3

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I opened a book up at a store I was interviewing at and his art was on the first page. Credit well do Matt Furie.

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ugh the clingyness and insecure jealous paranoia is starting to kick in

if anything ruins this relationship it's going to be me

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how did every wish i ever had get granted in just a few days?

i guess some higher power just got really fed up with my endless whining

[miinamata]

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sneasel's a cat??

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uplardin 4 a frend

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johnofe said: i dont believe you. really?

why would i lie?

admittedly, i go to a very.... alternative school so its a lot easier to get away with. there's a stairwell thats sealed off for some reason so we did it in there cause no one goes there.

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Woop I don't smoke either buttt here you can buy alcohol too which is waaay better so YAY <3

oh wow, really?? damn that seals the deal, im flying over there asap!

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so tired

must sleep

must

sleep

tired

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newjerseykeepmybones:

Dogs are people too.

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You're 18 and I'm 18 and we're both 18 woooo buddies. (I realise this is pointless ok)

w00t w00t. now get me some plane tickets and we can buy cigs together and not smoke them cause i dont even smoke