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I wanted to try my hand at making buffer gruffer men. I think it turned out okay!

#ts4 #the sims 4

Keegan : This is so cheesy, did you get your date ideas from cosmo or something?

Dante : I thought this wasn’t a date.

Keegan : It’s not.

Keegan : This place is really nice though, I’ll give you that.

Dante : It’s my favorite. The food is amazing, the service is great, and it’s got great atmosphere.

We didn’t really talk much over dinner because I was busy stuffing my face. It was amazing. He ended up catching the bill at the waiter before I noticed.

Dante : So did you like it?

Keegan : I loved it. Thank you. I didn’t mean to make you pay though.

Dante : It was my treat sweetheart. I love spending time with you like this.

Keegan : Like what?

Dante : Without you looking over your shoulder at who is watching and just having fun. I know I joke a lot but I really wouldn’t want to make you miserable..

Keegan : Well, I don’t really know what I want or like, but you’re really nice. This is nice, whatever it is.

Dante : It’s sort of a date, if you want it to be.

Keegan : Yeah, I guess it can be, but what’s a date without some star gazing at the park? It’s got a really nice view near the fountain.

Dante : Then lets go!

Dante : Is it alright to kiss you?

Keegan : I don’t know, is it?

Dante : You know, it’s getting really late, we should really get you home before curfew.

Keegan : Wow way to ruin a moment.

Dante : I had a really nice night tonight, thank you for coming.

Keegan : You’re so corny, are you not going to force your way in and make fun of me this time?

Dante : I have to get home too silly. Sweet dreams sweetheart.

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Katrina : You never used to wake up this early.

Keegan : Well it’s not really that early and I’m hungry. I figured you would already be gone.

Katrina : I told you I was working on that but I can leave if you want me to.

Keegan : Stop acting like that, do you want breakfast or not?

Katrina : Nah, eating in the morning makes me sick.

Keegan : Suit yourself.

( We’re both so easily agitated in the morning..)

Katrina : Is this why you wake up so early now? To play with plants?

Keegan : It’s actually very therapeutic.

Katrina : I guess. Whatever makes you happy.

Keegan : I’m almost done if you wanna sit down and chat or something..

Katrina : Well I’ll bite, what do you wanna talk about?

Keegan : I don’t know anymore.

Katrina : Is it about your boyfriend?

Keegan : He’s not!

Katrina : Well why not ask him to be then?

Keegan : .. .

Katrina : I mean, if you like him why not?

Keegan : .. .

Katrina : Well don’t clam up now, you’re the one that wanted to talk.

Katrina : You’re so cute, clamming up and blushing like a school girl with a secret.

Keegan : Stop! Can we talk about this later? I don’t know if I can yet.

Katrina : Of course, I’ll give you a chance to take my advice and ask him out. Tell me how it goes. Oh look I bet that’s him calling to see if you’re down to netflix and chill.

Keegan : You’re gross, and embarrassing.

Katrina : I’ll leave you to your cute little secret. I’ve got places to be today anyway.

Keegan : Whatever...

I wish I could talk to her about this, she’s really the only person I have. Luca can’t know, I’m sure it would get weird since we live together. I obviously can’t tell my parents or anyone like that. I might like him, I don’t really know anything about this sort of deal. And now he’s texting me to meet him in public? What is he thinking? This town isn’t big enough for this not to get around if he’s going to act like he has been in public! Maybe I could explain to him about how this all really isn’t going to work.. Yeah.. that’s why I’m going.

Keegan : You’re late.

Dante : And you’re under dressed, I thought you got the memo.

Keegan : Excuse you, at least I don’t look like I’m writing a novel in Starbucks between sips of my pretentiously complicated latte.

Dante : I like it when you’re feisty, this will be interesting.

Keegan : I hope you don’t think this is a date.

Dante : Why would I take you on a date?

Keegan : You’re definitely not as nice, are you actually being a jerk?

Dante : I’m just matching your tempo, I figured you wouldn’t wanna actually go on a real date.

Keegan : Let’s just enjoy the art and not talk about it. I haven’t been here in a long time.

Dante : I see how it is, avoiding the topic? You’re like a teenager.

Keegan : I actually think the last time I was in here, I was a teenager.

Dante : I bet you can buy designer knock offs of all of these.

Keegan : Yeah probably. It’s sort of sad too, stealing other peoples work for money.

Dante : This museum is huge, you know, we could be alone in the next room. I don’t think anyone is around.

Keegan : What now are you going to woo me?

Dante : Only if you want, but I do really think you should change first before our next stop.

Keegan : Why is that?

Dante : It’s sort of a semi-casual deal. Collared shirts at least.

Keegan : Are you wine and dinning me?

Dante : Maybe ~

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Keegan : God you always pick the worst times to fuck with me like this! Can’t you just go away this time? And stay away rather than coming back?

Katrina : Woah wow, you’re acting like I burnt your house down and stole your dog, chill out, I just wanted to talk.

Keegan : Well I don’t want to talk to you anymore.

Katrina : Well maaaybe you want to hear me out at least? I just want to apologize.

Keegan : You’re a terrible friend, please leave.

Katrina : Aww sweetie, please don’t cry like that!

Keegan : I’m NOT! Go!

Katrina : You’re precious.

Keegan : I’m still pretty pissed at you!

Katrina : Of course you are, you’re right I’ve been pretty awful to you and I just wanted to apologize for all of that. I’ve kind of got my own stuff going on and you’re too nice to me sometimes. It’s sickening how nice someone could really be.

Keegan : Is that why you treat me like shit and run away all of the time? Because that really hurts.

Katrina : Sweetheart, you’ve not been doing so well yourself either, I hear you’ve earned quite the reputation when you’re drunk.

Keegan : Oh like you’re one to talk.

Katrina : Look Keegan, I’m sorry I suck and can’t be around all of the time to pick up your messes but I make my own and I’ve got to clean those up too! I just thought maybe since you’ve gone off the deep end we could maybe try to support each other before things get worse?

Keegan : Things are already worse! You’re here, my best friend isn’t here to support me, and I barely know who I am anymore.

Katrina : A hopeless romantic with a broken heart who needs some therapy? Oh and he kisses other boys sometimes in the back alley but that’s okay I won’t tell!

Keegan : Hey! that’s not funny!

Katrina : I saw you smirk, you’re still really bad at staying mad at me.

Keegan : And you’re still really good at taking advantage of heartbroken young guys!

Katrina : Wow that was cold Keegan Dowell, you’re getting the hang of this banter sort of thing now.

Keegan : Yeah whatever, did you just come here to make fun of me again or get my hopes up about us being friends?

Katrina : No, I really did come to say I was sorry. Keegan, I’m sorry I’ve done this to you, but don’t place all of your misery's blame on me. I’m sorry I’m a bad friend too, I should have told you what was going on more often than just running away, it’s what I’m used to and what I’m good at. I’ll try to be better, please forgive me.

Keegan : You know what, how about we both suck? And we both agree to try to be better about things.

Katrina : Cheers to that.

Keegan : I think a hug is in order? and maybe some pizza delivery, I’m pretty exhausted and some extra cheese would hit the spot.

We decided to talk a lot of stuff out, like a lot. Eventually it got pretty dark and we went inside to drown out the crickets with some quality crappy-late-night television.

Keegan : How did you even know about the alley anyway?

Katrina : Well....

Katrina : You sort of picked right next to my place of employment for your make out fest so I just happened to walk by.

Keegan : Would you do me a favor and not tell anyone?

Katrina : Oh sweetie, that’s not my business. You can kiss whoever you want.

Keegan : Stop smiling like that! You’re sick! You took a picture! What the hell!

Katrina : Hahaha, I figured whenever you needed a pick me up, I could get prints of it and put it at your door step or something.

Keegan : Ugh!!

Katrina : You’re so cute when you blush. You’ll have to tell me all about it some time!

Keegan : Whatever, it’s really late and I’m just deliriously tired. This time you sleep on the couch though!

Katrina : Sure thing captain.

#ts4 #the sims 4 #storytime

Dante : Do you feel better today?

Keegan : Yeah, but we should really get you out of the house. We can go through the back door.

Dante : Aww, no breakfast?

Keegan : Get your clothes on and come on, I really don’t want to be caught okay?

Dante : Fiiine.

Keegan : Hey, before you go, thanks for coming over. I really needed whatever this was.

Dante : No problem babe, we all do sometimes.

Keegan : Yeah, ok, just try to get out of my yard as soon as possible please.

Dante : Just so you know cutie, you’re a natural at it.

Keegan : Oh my god! Don’t say things like that! Just leave!

Dante : Haha, you’re blushing again, just call me any time you need to unwind sweetheart.

Keegan : (sighs) Finally... now I don’t have to panic anymore.

I went back inside after making sure he left, I was sort of afraid he would try to come back but he kept his word and made sure to really put some distance between us really quickly. Luca was already up so I decided to join him on the couch.

Luca : WOW! Look who’s out of their room and not pouting!

Keegan : Yes I know, I’m a real MVP.

Luca : Are you gonna be okay this weekend dude? I’m leaving soon so I can get to my parents house at a decent time. They would cop a real attitude otherwise.

Keegan : Yeah, I can order a pizza worst case!

Luca : I’ll see you then, I just wanted to make sure you were okay before I left. I wouldn’t wanna leave the baby without a baby sitter.

Keegan : Savage.

After Luca left, I went outside to read for awhile. I had the next few days off work so why not spend them enjoying myself?

Katrina : Heeeey Casanova, how’s it going?

Keegan : Great, the last person I want to see comes at the worst time possible.

Katrina : Don’t be like that, hear me out at least.

Keegan : Why should I?

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We sat down and just talked for awhile, I explained a lot and let out a lot of stuff. It’s really weird how I can’t talk to people I know very well but I’m willing to spill it all to basically a stranger. He listened intently and looked like he was searching for the right ways to say things to me.

Dante : Hey, that really sucks. I’m sorry I added to all of that..

Keegan : You didn’t know, it’s okay.

Dante : But can I ask then, why you’ve kissed me back twice now?

Keegan : Ugh... I don’t really know... it’s just nice I guess?

Dante (chuckling) : Are you saying I’m a good kisser then?

Keegan : I wouldn’t say you were bad, but mostly I meant kissing in general and not you!

Dante : Sounds like someones been a little dry lately ~

Keegan : That’s none of your business!

Dante : How about I cut you a little slack since you’re so cute. I’ll give you a little “7 minutes in heaven” so you can pretend I’m a cute girl or something, and in return, you stop pretending you’re not totally into this. I’m the only one who has to know after all ~

Keegan (facetiously) : Wow what a great deal! I can’t believe it! My first gay experience gets to be with the worst person on the planet!

Dante : Just get in here.

Keegan : Pomf! What are we gonna do in the dark closet?

Dante : You’re really cute when you smile you know ~ Just close your eyes and go with it.

Keegan : I’m really ticklish be careful please.

Dante : I’ll be gentle, don’t worry.

Keegan (whispers) : Shit! I think Luca is home!

Dante : Aww... that was fun while it lasted. Looks like I need to make my great escape.

Keegan : Not yet, I have something in mind.

Dante : Sounds like fun.

Dante : I like where this is going ~

Keegan : Just shut up and tell me if I’m doing something wrong.

Dante : Noooo problem sweetheart ~

Luca : ( I wonder if he’s okay? like for real? I hope he didn’t do anything stupid. I should just check on him real quick, I feel like he would have came out by now. )

Luca : ( Aaannd there’s a strange man in the house, in his bed, sleeping with him. )

Luca : ( I’m just going to pretend I didn’t see it at all )

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Dante : But I must say, it’s pretty cute that you’re taking me to your room already even though you just got so defensive about it. ~

Keegan : !!

Dante : ♥ ♥ ♥

Keegan : !!

Keegan : THAT’S THE KIND OF STUFF I DIDN’T WANT TO HAPPEN!

Dante : Why did you kiss me back then?

Keegan : Ugh! I don’t know!

Dante : I think you’ve got a lot of feelings you need to sort out.

Keegan : I do too that’s why I’ve been staying inside for the last week! And stop doing that! Do I really look like I’m in the mood to do some sexual exploration?

Dante : A little yeah. You’re blushing. And is that a smirk I see? ~ Did I just make you feel a little better?

Keegan : Ugh.... let’s talk about this where I won’t have to worry about explaining it to someone I live with. I think I would die of embarrassment.

Dante : Sounds like someone’s trying to tidy the closet for themselves.

Keegan : Stop before I change my mind and get a restraining order against you. I’ve been sort of staying in my room and sleeping for the most part when Luca’s home so he won’t think anything of me not being awake.

Dante : Whatever you say cutie ~

Keegan : Just make sure you lock the door.

Dante : Ooooh ~ Absolutely ~

#ts4 #the sims 4 #storytime

I fell asleep on the couch for awhile until my phone started ringing.

Keegan : Hello? Who is this?

??? : Who do you think cutie? It’s Dante.

Keegan : What the fuck? how did you even get my number?

Dante : You gave it to me obviously. But anyway, I haven’t gotten a call from you since you gave it to me so I thought I’d check in on you.

Keegan : Uh, yeah. I guess I’m okay. (ugh this is really weird, why is this guy calling me anyway?)

Dante : You don’t sound okay, I’m gonna come over, see you soon!

Keegan : What?? No!

Keegan : What the hell did I even get myself into? (how does he even know where I live?)

Dante : Hey cutie how’s it going? You look terrible. Did ya miss me?

Keegan : Uh thanks? and no? (what is wrong with this guy?)

Dante : I’d say you did! You look like you’ve been crying.

Keegan : Yeah great observation asshole. There’s a reason I didn’t want you to come over.

Dante : Hey now! I was just playing with you. I figured since I didn’t see you for a few days around the library that maybe something was wrong.

Keegan : What the hell? How did you even know where I would be?

Dante : I like to read and I see you around there a lot. Sorry to scare you sweetheart.

Keegan : That makes sense I guess.. (but it doesn’t explain how he knew where I lived.)

Dante : I figured I could stop by and check on you since you basically disappeared off the face of the planet. Plus judging by your puffy face and dark ass house you needed some company.

Keegan : Ugh, fine whatever.

Dante : You know what would make you feel better? If we continued where we left off..

Keegan : Is that what this is about?! No! I didn’t- I- stop please!

Dante : Ok ok, I’m sorry. I’ll keep my distance.

Keegan : For one, I barely know you! You called and just sort of showed up at my house after you kissed me in a back alley. For two, what makes you think I want anything to do with you like that? I sort of just got friend-dumped by someone who already dumped me and it’s sort of fucked up to think about. For three, I have a roommate and I don’t know when he’ll be back so why on earth did you think it was okay to just come to my house without listening to me first?

Dante : Hey, hey. I can leave, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to disrespect you like this. And yeah, that’s pretty fucked up, if you wanna talk about it, I’m here to listen. I can book it when your mate gets back if you want. But for the record, you kissed me back, what was I supposed to think?

Keegan : I didn’t know what else to do!

Dante : I’m also 99% sure you used tongue first.

Keegan : Okay, can we not talk about it?

Dante : Only if you’ll forgive me for all of this.

Keegan : Yeah I really suck at staying mad at people.

Keegan : I guess we could like, watch a movie in my room or something. But I really don’t want to try to explain you to Luca, I really, really, would rather him not know.

Dante : Not a problem. My lips are sealed darling.

#ts4 #the sims 4 #storytime

Luca (yelling through door) : Hey Keee~gan! My parents called and want me to come visit this weekend. I know you’re not asleep bud but since you’ve made it clear you don’t want to leave your room for awhile I’m going to pick you up some groceries before I visit so you don’t die. If you want anything specific just text me!

Keegan (also yelling through door) : Okay!

I called myself into work for the next few days and said I had the flu. In reality, I just couldn’t stop crying about literally everything and figured it would be better if I just took a mini-vacation. It’s been about a month since I last saw or talked to her but it still stings in a way I can’t quite describe. The last few weeks have been exhausting though...

She never did show back up to “work” and I got a little bored... I decided to turn into a tornado of negative emotions and sweep everyone and anyone up with me.

And my mission was clear; swap spit with, make out with, flirt with, and charm someone new every night until I was empty and couldn’t care less about her anymore.

I don’t remember much through the drunken haze of saliva and fogged glasses but I do remember thinking I was going to fall and get a concussion on the sidewalk...

When a guy I had been joking around with and hanging out with that night asked me to get some fresh air with him..

and took me off guard. (and off balance, even though I had only been drinking soda that night.)

This gentlemen certainly did not want fresh air but instead to play tonsil hockey..

I can’t say I hated it.

I also can’t say I plan to leave the house for a bit because now I’m sad and confused about a lot of stuff...

#ts4 #the sims 4 #storytime #keegan dowell

Keegan : ughh.... why..?

A week or two went by, I had lost count by then. I was still coming home late, and being punished for it in the morning.

Everything started to become one long repeating annoyance.

I’d drag myself out of bed, drag myself into work, drag myself into that toxic place where she apparently works, and drag myself back home and back into bed just to restart the whole thing.

I was disgusted with myself.

So I’d drink it away.. that terrible feeling. Or just pretend to so I had a reason to be there.

I couldn’t even look myself in the mirror anymore.

Why besides being heartbroken did I feel this way? Because I still miss her. I went there every night just to wait to see her, and she never showed up.

I truly am a hopeless human being. I don’t know if she made me this way or if she brought it out in me, but I don’t remember being so.. forgiving? in love? unstable? Whatever it is, I miss her.

#ts4 #tw:alcoholism?#stop being depressed looking all the time srsly #storytime #keegan dowell

here you go, some trans kids!

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i love the new gender functions u 3 u

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i honestly love seeing cute customers and making sims of them oops

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oh look some more townie redos~!

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After a week or two, things went back to normal mostly. I went back to tending the garden to take my mind off of stuff.

I went back to work like normal. No one seemed to really have noticed anything had changed. I’ve always been fascinated by when my own world was crumbling, everyone around me seemed so normal, like time wasn’t stopping for them.

Everything around me kept going on as normal. The rest of the world didn’t share my heartache, my deepest desire to at least keep being her friend. The rest of the world couldn’t remember her smell from time to time and cry in the bathroom occasionally. So I tried to move along with the rest of the world.

I even scored a few dates from time to time.

But, they always ended up the same. I would get a curdling feeling in my stomach and have to make a run for it.

And sometimes I would go drink, to forget for awhile how I felt. But no matter what I did, I always seemed to end up sitting on the bed in that basement, waiting on her to open the door, just waiting. It started to get dusty, as if no one had touched it in a long time. I still just waited though.

#sims 4 #ts4 #storytime #keegan dowell

Katrina : I’m sorry Keegan... you’re too nice to someone like me.

Luca : HEY!

Luca : Katrina, what do you think you’re doing? Why are you doing this to him?

Katrina : I’m leaving town, so he can get over me for real this time.

Luca : I wouldn’t have called you if I would have known you would do this sort of shit to him!

Katrina : This isn’t my fault. He didn’t listen to me!

Luca : This is your fault! You need to make this right!

Luca : He loves you with every fiber of his being and you have the audacity to just leave? Without even saying goodbye or thank you? You’re a fucking bitch!

Katrina : Yeah? well I told him I was and he still loves me so that’s not my problem that your secret crush is sad now! It’s his responsibility to make himself feel better, not mine! I’m leaving, don’t call me, don’t text me, don’t try to find me! He needs to deal with this himself.