So, beyond just leaving each other alone, my problem is that you won't take accountability for everything you did do with Chelsey, spreading her lies about me, etc. whether it was illegal or not, walking up getting in my face trying to call me crazy when I had a full on panic attack over my stalkers being at grandma's, saying people forcibly locked me in a room at grandma's when I actually willingly hid in a room and cried, spreading one of the family members lies about the whole family hating me when she wasn't in the right mind on drugs (she's sober and is generally civil with me now by the way so I don't care to talk about that shit anymore) meanwhile having the audacity to call ME a drug addict for simply smoking weed while you were pushing the lies of ACTUAL addicts, making fun of my panic attacks over being stalked, and everything else, and I have yet to get an apology for that or at the very least see you admit that was wrong. And side note yeah sorry, I didn't lie about anything. You heard grandma's phone calls and Taya messaged you telling you to leave me alone so you know they still don't agree with your side of the chelsey shit and the "whole family" doesn't actually hate me like you say. There were plenty of family members that said they would stand up for me and my mom against you and even Jamie when she was bothering my mom and I, if you came and started shit with her and that was the truth. And yeah, grandma did say you weren't allowed to bring people anymore which was on that phone call. I wasn't lying about that unfortunately, but that said, best I can say is that accountability and apologies go a long way and that shit can be fixed. People can forgive and forget if you just apologize.
Me and that part of my family are generally pretty fucking forgiving, some a lot of them more forgiving than me tbh, as long as people can have a civil conversation, apologize, and better themselves. They will open themselves back up entirely no matter what happened, but I'm more of the type to keep people at a distance and just be civil when I have to be and they at the very least understand where I'm coming from like I respect them for letting certain people back in their life. But if you're expecting me to say all that stuff that was said was a lie though, I can't because it wasn't. Like I said, you heard the phone call, you got the message from Taya, and so forth, so I don't know what to say about that beyond they forgave you and that's that. Really the worst I did was call you names and talk shit as a result of being smeared and having been attacked by Chelsey and you, but I don't lie about anything here. Never lied about you or anything some of the sober part of the family said. The most I think I could apologize for is dragging up drama from our past in relation to this shit and making fun of you on here whenever you were smearing me, assuming you apologize for spreading Chelsey's lies first. Correct me if I'm wrong I guess, but that's where I'm at.
Ultimately, a big issue I think you have though is putting too much trust into people you hardly know and then rolling with it and our beef wouldn't have gotten so out of hand if you just didn't believe all these lunatics, take their drama you don't know enough about so personally, and spread their lies with them. You may not have been the initial liar but you did a lot of messenger type shit like speaking on things you didn't witness from people you don't know super well and that wasn't cool. Whether your intentions were good or not. I just suggest not doing that anymore and the drama in your life would probably dectease significantly. Like stop putting yourself out for people that you barely know and are prone to taking advantage of you and using you for their own drama. You can have good intentions but that still doesn't make it right or okay for the victims on the receiving end or even good for you either. Going in blind with friendships and just immediately trusting anyone is one of the most damaging thing you can do to yourself. And honestly, I am more than willing to sympathize with it if you take accountability and learn from it this time.
If you could take accountability for all of these things and smearing being wrong, and didn't come at me sideways when I requested anything you might have to help my case, I wouldn't be so mad and posted petty shit on here the most recent time you are talking about. You keep excusing your behavior and trying to paint a bad image of me like I was coming at you for no reason when there WAS a reason and leaving a whole lot of your part, like about why I even posted that shit about flipping you off and shit and I don't get that. I wouldn't have even gotten petty like that had younger said "I'll be at the party and i'll make sure you know I'm there 😉" like excuse me?? You're not going to fucking antagonize and essentially threaten me like that wihtout me talking shit back. You always do this thing where you post some bullshit like that trying to provoke me and then scream to grandma and the internet that I just "randomly"posted shit about you for no reason and it's bullshit. Then recently, you misunderstood me and made a big deal about it and it rightfully pissed me off, and you did a lot of cruel things to me before that with Chelsey either way. You may not have done anything illegal or meant to support anything illegal and you may not have played as big of a part like she did, but you still supported it at one point, helped spread her lies, got mad when I defended myself against you guys, made fun of that illegally recorded video, and everything else and that was wrong and deserves an apology and then it could be moved on from entirely. Even before all this and you being friends with Chelsey, I'd say I deserve an apology for you coming at my throat back in 2021 cause you assumed I was spreading rumors about you when I wasn't and then dragging me into hahna and zachs drama out of nowhere after that, which was like the last time we had beef on social media before all this. Then there was something to do with you adding Sam back then too but I'm not going to ask for an apology for that because 1) pretty sure you know now that adding the boyfriend of you don't get along with isn't cool and 2) he very well could have been twisting that situation to make it sound worse than it really was now that I know he is a conniving liar. Like maybe you only sent the request once and he made it look like you sent it again to stir shit up, who knows, don't care anymore. The only reason I even gave a fuck to bring our other beef before this Chelsey shit up though is BECAUSE of you were smearing me with Chelsey. I wouldn't have been dragging that back up and comparing the past to the present if that didn't happen. It was all shit I would have gotten over but all that shit with Chelsey made it hard to not talk about our history before that. Like we had 4 fights in the past all of which came down to you either judging me or accusing me shit that I didn't do and then the adding my boyfriend at the time thing which is now irrelevant to, and yes you apologized to me for the first two fights we had back then and I appreciate that, but never got an apology for the Hahna shit and you essentially saying I was lying about being stalked before you were even friends with Chelsey during that conversation. Then the shit you and Chelsey were doing was similar so it pissed me off that the same shit kept happening over and over between us and since I was being smeared, I showed my side. But overall, if you took accountability for you supporting Chelsey harassing me and all that being wrong and gave me more understanding about why I was so pissed off at you in the first place, then maybe I could apologize for all the roasting and drop all our beef alltogether. That's where I'm at.
You became friends with Cece and then smeared me just assuming her side of things were true because of some petty shit from between us in the past, brought her and my ex to a sentimental family place without asking grandma and knowing we didn't get along, cheered when she posted that video Sam took of me, etc and yeah, maybe you didn't understand the severity and the extent of what she was doing yet and she was manipulating you to believe her lies, trying to put myself in your shoes with that, but it still wasn't right and I would say my reaction should be understandable and you should get that by now. When someone has genuinely been harassed and stalked by the same person for years on end and then they start getting people to buy into their bullshit and those people start ganging up on them too, that shit is not easy to handle well and without defending yourself and getting mean toward the people attacking you. This blog literally says it. I am not a stair case and I won't act as one when I'm being smeared and attacked period. I get that you just wanted a friend and that she duped you into being her pawn and believing her bs, I do get that, but that was still a mistake that should be apologized for. If you were willing to talk things out like mature adults and exchange apologies fairly, I really wouldn't give a fuck anymore. Seriously dude, imagine if you were in my position having people following you around and post lies about you on social media all the time. Anything I ever posted was BECAUSE she posted lies and dumb shit about me first or you relaying those lies. Not saying you blatantly lied yourself or MEANT to follow me around and might have just been hanging out with her, but clearly, SHE did that shit on purpose, you now know she's an insane liar, and you did think my upset over being stalked was funny when I was actually going through something extremely traumatic that yeah, you didn't understand at the time but that still happened. You thought I was just being dramatic based on my mental state in high school when we were close back then and I guess I get that kinda, but that was still not cool and I would say I should get an apology now especially now that you have an understanding of how crazy she is and she lies about you too.
Like, knowing all this shit now, you probably wouldn't be very nice back after all that either and I wish you would understand my position. If none of that happened on top of everything else and then getting mad thinking I was trying to make you lie later on when that wasn't at all what I said after you guys stopped being friends, I wouldn't have had any reason to be that mad at you beyond our dumb shit from years ago - that I probably could have moved on from by now, mind you. I wouldn't be talking about flipping you off and saying petty shit on here if you didn't go out of your way to try to provoke me and then I wouldn't be pissed off after that if you didn't get mad when I asked for a respectful conversation to discuss IF you had anything to help me with my case to fill me in on considering this is an actual stalking situation. That is what I was implying the entire time. Never once did I say I wanted you to lie about anything.
I was essentially saying if you did have any information that could help my case, let me know and we can squash this and you bit my head off and then started posting about me on Facebook. If people bite my head off and attack me like that, yeah, I'm gonna roast them on my own account. Just like they are doing to me, and that is fair. And I'm sure you would do the same thing if you were me.
I wasn't even posting about you anymore either besides requesting help once I saw you weren't friends with her anymore BECAUSE I AM BEING FUCKING STALKED WHICH IS A SERIOUS CRIME MIND YOU so I'm not sure what you mean about me "not stopping" other than that one post I made about filling me in on anything if you could. All I posted was that and then you misunderstood what I was saying and you tried to smear me over it and EVEN went as far as saying you wouldn't help with a literal fucking crime just because of some now frankly petty beef between us, which is low as fuck in my opinion. And yeah, nobody is going to put up with someone trying to smear them without saying something about it and me especially because I am not a push over.
And all of this isn't me trying to offend you or come at you. I'm just explaining where I stand and why I was being petty the last time I posted about you in the first place and how your actions toward me have been wrong. And why me being upset at you throughout the time you were friends with Chelsey and everything you guys did together and then that last situation was valid at the time. This is me asking you to put yourself in my shoes for 2 seconds to understand why even I talked down on you and then I can apologize for any of the rude shit I said or whatever the fuck and maybe we can totally move on from it. That's it.
Oh and one more thing, I never got mad about you going to the new years show and left you alone, literally just hung out with my boyfriend and our friend while he operated the lasers so I'm not sure what you heard or what you are talking about. Like, it was a public event that he got hired to do the lights and bring the music equipment for. You also weren't friends with Chelsey anymore or brought her with, so yeah no, not that big of a deal to me. That's an entirely different thing than bringing my stalker and my ex to grandma's private property potentially putting me in danger and then minimizing it, whether you understood that was a big problem at the time or not. Public places that we both go to and when she's not popping up there, I don't give a fuck. I don't think YOU specifically are dangerous to me and it's not that hard to ignore you. And also with the bar thing, maybe you didn't know but SHE knew I hung out there all time and made fun of my kareoke videos I took there, and then, "coincidentally" took you there to hang out when she literally never goes there. It was fucking creepy and weird. She was physically stalking and you just happened to be there believing she wasn't I guess. Like genuinely, that shit is mostly irrelevant now that you guys stopped being friends. Most of this shit has little to do with you and more to do with her at this point. I was just mad that you were enabling and supporting it and smearing me with HER lies FOR her mostly and then most recently, I was mad that you still weren't taking accountability and bit my head off over a post that wasn't even meant to offend you when you stopped being friends with her. But you really haven't been relevant to me since you figured her bullshit out and started leaving me alone after, aside from that last thing that happened. So I'm not understanding how I "wasn't leaving you alone" when frankly, I had been since you stopped supporting her / making posts about me related to her and idk what to tell you anymore dude. All I know is as long as you're not smearing me in regard to me being stalked by this freak anymore and you get it now, I don't care to be petty anymore.
