iāll cry in the security of your arms | 776 words
summary: volt doesnāt like being surrounded by too many people. He hides on the rooftop to look at the stars until someone sit by his side.
authorās note: Hello! Iām here with more vash x volt drabble! (i have a whole file full of them) If youāre reading this, thank you! if you wanna know more about my oc you can click here! For a bit of context, Volt in Trigun would also be an independent in a unlisted ship that fly away from earth. He was the first independent and was treated very badly on this ship. He was the only survivor after the big fall.
The sky was covered in lights, everyone in the tavern was drinking to their heart's content, happy that everyone was saved. Volt looked at everyone absentmindedly, everyone had a smile on their face. The laughter was loud and echoed in the small tavern. After a moment, Volt excused himself silently, going out to hide on the rooftop where we knew no one would come to see him. So there he sat, looking up at a sky colored by worms. That is until he heard a noise behind him. His reflexes getting the best of him he swiftly got out his knife and put it under the intruderās throat. Until he saw that this intruder had soft baby blue eyes and blond hair. He gasped and quickly withdrew his weapon.
āIām sorry! I didnāt mean to attack you! God Iām so sorry I hope I didnāt leave any wounds.ā Vash just laughed softly.
āYouāre fine, don't worry! I should be the one apologizing, for sneaking behind your back like that.ā He plopped down next to him and smiled. Volt escaped his soft gaze nervously.
āYou should go back with the others. There isnāt much to do here.ā
āI wanted to see you. Besides, I also needed some fresh air.ā A comfortable silence fell between them, both of them looking at the sky. Volt hugged his knees tightly finally letting out the question that has been burning his lips since he met the blond.
āDo you think Iām selfish?ā
āWhy would I think that of you? You saved my life twice!ā
āI think I am. The Big Fall. Sometimes I catch myself thinking that Iām glad it happened.ā
āHorrible isnāt it? So many people died. Butā¦ At that time I thought that it was either them or me.ā
āDoes this make me a selfish person, Vash?ā Volt looked at him with tears in his eyes that he wasn't allowed to fall. Vash sadly smiled and cupped his cheek, wiping away a single tear that fell down Voltās face before hugging him tightly.
āIām sorry. You suffered a lot donāt you? Itās okay, Iām here now. Youāll be fine.ā And as Vash kept whispering words of comfort to him, he felt like a downfall of emotion crashed violently onto him. He melted in Vashās embrace, his face buried in his neck and his hand holding tightly onto his jacket.
He finally allowed himself to cry for himself. For his own sorrows that he swore to keep for himself deep down locked in a corner of his heart. But Vash came and walked past all his boundaries he so hardly set up to protect himself and found behind them a small child wounded, crying his heart out. Vash carefully took him into his arms, singing a lullaby to ease the scared child in his arms who immediately hid his face on his chest.
He cried, screamed, let out an insane frustration and hatred that he didnāt want anyone to see.
āAm I only a monster to them?! They took EVERYTHING away from me and crushed the hope and love I once felt. Vash please, please tell me, will I be able to love them? Can I ever love someone again without having this crippling fear of being hurt?!ā Volt screamed his eyes red and cheeks puffy while Vash kept whispering āItās okay, let it all out.ā a hand lost in his white locks.
āIām sorry you werenāt given the love you deserve, no that we all deserved.ā He cupped his face in his palms, Volt felt safe just by his gentle gaze on him. āIām here now. Iāll be the one to give you the love you deserve. And Iāll show you. Iāll prove to you that despite everything, thereās still kindness in this world and that youāre also kind and beautiful.ā Volt was shocked for a moment, new tears came flowing down his cheeks. He let his face fall on Vashās chest and hugged him tightly, exhaustion predominant in his usual kind traits.
āI wish I could've met you soonerā¦ā He whispered before falling asleep on him, Vash still petting his hair softly.
āTheyāre asleep Wolfwood, you can stop hiding.ā He suddenly said, the black haired man coming out from his hiding spot.
āYou knew I was there since the beginning huh.ā He replied, a cigarette between his lips.
āHm. I knew you didnāt want to interrupt him. So you heard.ā
Wolfwood sat beside Volt, still sleeping against Vash who put his coat on him so he wouldnāt catch a cold, and let out a sigh.
āI guess we all have our own demons to fight.ā
