Ultimate ACL Recovery

30 ultimate frisbee player, Colorado originally from Michigan. Aerospace engineer. Horse side blog: prettypurpleponies

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Did some fun safety pin nail art today 🌸

My own left vs right hand practically an insta vs reality post 😂

[ororium-z]

Happy Pride!

[rootbeergoddess]

Every pride, you must reblog this. No exceptions

[thesaltofcarthage]

I love that four different people on my feed scheduled this joyous person to reblog by 8am on June 1. I look forward to seeing this a dozen more times today.

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I feel like I took the cowards way out by choosing just roster with kelp instead of practice playing with Molly. There are lots of good reasons for doing so but I’ve been trying to make Molly brown for so long and had kind of given up on making it and turned it down so I wouldn’t have to spend the whole season trying to squeeze my way into the bottom of a team to maybe play a couple of points. It also felt risky to sort of invest in the two year plan when I’m already 32, have started getting more injuries including pulling my hamstring at Molly brown tryouts two years in a row.

But it makes me feel like I gave up on myself. Like oh I’ll just play with the easier team instead of trying to push myself all season. And take the guaranteed small win of getting to play at the us open instead of reaching for the top.

And so I feel bad and like I listened to the pro cons list (that I even missed several important things on, all in favor of Molly brown) instead of going with my gut and betting on myself.

But I’ve already committed to kelp and now it’s too late to do anything else. So now I’m trying to just lean all the way into kelp in an attempt to salvage my own poor decision making. I just really really hate feeling like I made the wrong decision for myself. I can deal with bad things happening to me pretty well, but it’s so so so much worse when it feels like it’s my own fault.

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I feel like I need to use my partner as a sounding board less, because he’s less of sounding board and more just tells me what he would do in the situation, which is fine most of the time but not all of the time. He’s like not great in general at recognizing that people making different decisions than he would do are not always making the wrong decision. Like sometimes people value different things so will make different decisions and that will be correct for them

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How insane is it to change my flight to go to a frisbee tournament?

I’m currently coming back from Europe on July 12 and stopping in Michigan to visit my mom for two days because my boyfriend has a work conference there. But I would rather fly from Europe to a frisbee tournament in Oregon on Friday July 10th and then fly straight back home from there. If it was just me that’s what I would do.

But then I wouldn’t get to see my mom for those two days and would be leaving my boyfriend for those last two days in Copenhagen. But I’ll still be there for five days and he likes solo travel. I’d also rather go visit my mom for longer later in the summer or early fall and try to coordinate with my brother to go at the same time.

It’s a bit more money to change my flight. But then I get home two and half days earlier, which at the end of a two and a half week long trips is preferred. I do trade two days in Copenhagen for two days of frisbee in Oregon, which I think is what I’d rather do crazy as it sounds. I am then leaving my boyfriend for two days but he will be fine. I will miss seeing his parents during our layover to Michigan and obviously miss out on seeing my mom in Michigan. Plus it feels weird for my boyfriend to be in my hometown without me.

If I was just making solo travel plans I’d just switch and go see my mom for longer later. But there’s other people involved so it’s hard. It’s like fine if I miss the frisbee tournament but also it’s the first competitive one and I want to play and am worried if I don’t play they’ll establish systems without me and then I won’t get to play as much at the next two. And it’s also hard because I turned down a practice player spot on a better team to play for this one so it feels like I really ought to try and maximize my tournament play to make that decision worthwhile

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Should I change it?

Change my flight, go to PEC, visit mom later, get home sooner

Keep flight, miss tourney, two more days in CPH, two days in MI, gone for longer

Voting ended onJun 3

[ultimateaclrecovery]

How insane is it to change my flight to go to a frisbee tournament?

I’m currently coming back from Europe on July 12 and stopping in Michigan to visit my mom for two days because my boyfriend has a work conference there. But I would rather fly from Europe to a frisbee tournament in Oregon on Friday July 10th and then fly straight back home from there. If it was just me that’s what I would do.

But then I wouldn’t get to see my mom for those two days and would be leaving my boyfriend for those last two days in Copenhagen. But I’ll still be there for five days and he likes solo travel. I’d also rather go visit my mom for longer later in the summer or early fall and try to coordinate with my brother to go at the same time.

It’s a bit more money to change my flight. But then I get home two and half days earlier, which at the end of a two and a half week long trips is preferred. I do trade two days in Copenhagen for two days of frisbee in Oregon, which I think is what I’d rather do crazy as it sounds. I am then leaving my boyfriend for two days but he will be fine. I will miss seeing his parents during our layover to Michigan and obviously miss out on seeing my mom in Michigan. Plus it feels weird for my boyfriend to be in my hometown without me.

If I was just making solo travel plans I’d just switch and go see my mom for longer later. But there’s other people involved so it’s hard. It’s like fine if I miss the frisbee tournament but also it’s the first competitive one and I want to play and am worried if I don’t play they’ll establish systems without me and then I won’t get to play as much at the next two. And it’s also hard because I turned down a practice player spot on a better team to play for this one so it feels like I really ought to try and maximize my tournament play to make that decision worthwhile

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Grief is so weird. I just found myself sobbing because a pen ran low on ink.

It wasn’t working so I open it up and saw that it was low and went oh that’s okay I’m sure my Dad will send me some new ones for my birthday or Christmas. And then I remembered that he was never going to do that again. And most of my presents as a kid were from both parents but you knew which ones actually were from which my parent. And my dad was a big writer, always had a notebook and a pen on him at all times just in case he got a good idea, and he he always encouraged my writing so wanted to make sure I could do the same. And they were some of his favorite pens, but he would get his in black or blue ink but he would always get mine in purple. And he would just get them for me every couple years so I would never run out. But now if want purple pens I will have to get them myself because he’s no longer around to gift them to me and that just makes me sad and just really drives home that he’s not actually here anymore

[fallenintime6]

💖💖💖🦄🦄🦄💯💯💯

Aquarius ♒️♒️♒️ I belong to you in my dreams ✨️

[mizzbrattywi]

♐️🏹 I hope so much energy comes through for your future!

[salm-007]

I transform my mind to the right of the people I am looking for.

- I call bullshit. 🙄😆

[sweetreddelicious-59]

I value your opinion and would never want to be rude. 🤔🤨

I speak to you on the phone and will call you tomorrow. 🤦‍♀️😆

[davesnothere]

I reevaluate the whole situation.

[millerflintstone]

♑(sun) I avoid the fact that you are going to be able to get the car seat.

♏(rising) I transform you for your time in my mind

[ultimateaclrecovery]

I deserve a hug and kiss for my life right here and I will be forever thankful to have it all back and that you can have a wonderful time together and be together forever I will always love and be there to you my dear

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I have pulled my hamstring again 😭😭😭😭

I pulled it last year at Molly browns final closed tryouts and again at this years final closed tryouts so maybe I should just stop going to their tryouts (they always end up cutting me anyway).

It was my last tryout at least so now I just have to try and get my hamstring to heal up before masters regionals in four weeks while anxiously awaiting the results of the final tryout.

Molly brown has basically said they don’t have any roster spots but they are looking to take practice players and I don’t know if I would want to do that. They’re one of the top five women’s teams in the country, their coach is basically the best coach in the country and I’ve been trying to make this team on and off for the past ten years and I don’t know if I can turn it down. It would be so fun to get practice at such a high level against that caliber of player all summer. On the other would I even survive that? My hamstring can’t make it through tryouts and my cold briefly came back Saturday after tryouts too.

I also have a roster off from the second team in Denver kelp. Last year they were one spot away from earning a bid to nationals (top 16 teams in the country) but they’re loosing a handful of their top players so idk if they’ll be quite as good this year. They’re should still be pretty good, are going to a couple good tournaments (including the us open which I’ve low-key been dying to play at), and their top seven is pretty on par with Molly (drops off from there) that have coaches but not the caliber of mollys coach.

So I don’t know what I want to do. Molly brown does practice a good bit more, but both teams have the same amount of free weekends.

On the one hand I do want to be the best I can be and I think practicing Molly could help me get there, but tournament experience is also really valuable. And I’m not sure if kelp would ever off me a roster spot if I turn it down this year and idk if even playing with Molly all summer would get me on the team next year. I’m also 32 and idk how much longer I can play super high level frisbee for (see pulled hamstring for exhibit a).

And all this stress may be for naught because they may end up just cutting me outright still

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Baby pony!

Mom said my baby pony and you no touchy but we just looked as we walked by. What a cutie pie

[thecottonwoodkid]

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I just need MB to tell me if I made their closed tryouts or not so I can then tell KP whether I need another week or can accept their offer right now and then tell all the other teams I’m playing for KP. I just want to have summer schedule known alreadyyyyyy. I hate this waiting game

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Expanding my crafting repertoire by learning some darning. Or at least making a little patch with my new mini darning loom.

These pants were in my rag pile as goners and this isn’t really the patch type to fix them but they came out better than anticipated! Truly I wanted to practice the pattern before attempting a repair on the elbow of a sweater that I do like.

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Delicious food weekend 😋

Another neighborhood local ice cream place has an “ube-b-baby” with white chocolate Friday night. And then brunch this morning with churro beignets and breakfast Mac and cheese 😋😋😋

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A lovely Saturday and Sunday. Rode the pony Saturday and then we got Japanese food.

And Sunday I played frisbee (more tryouts 😬) in the sunshine, and then read my book with ice cream on my porch swing.

I also did laundry, grocery store, cooked for the week, put away the laundry while calling my mother and general life tidying.

Now I can to relax in the couch with a belly full of tacos

[triflingthing]

The fairytale palace of Quinta da Regaleira in Sintra, Portugal

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I thought I lost my hair clip changing in the bathroom before my riding lesson but then I found when I took off my sport bra like five hours later.

I also finally (finally) hit 8 reps in chest press with the 50lb dbs 🎉🎉

Also KITTY 😻