Just Some Random Person

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Gay Problems

I have one question to all of the gay people out there but before I start, I just want to be clear that I have nothing against the LGBTQ+ Community. In fact, I am part of it but... Was there a time when you thought about how your life would be better if you were straight? How there would be less discrimination and where your family fully accepts your sexuality? Because I have been thinking about this for quite some time now. I don’t hate being gay, but I just wish people would be more considerate and understanding.

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It’s hard not having a friend. A friend who you can rely on. Who you can trust to be there always. A friend who will support you and scold you for being “marupok”. Yes, I had friends before but it doesn’t feel good. I would always worry about what they feel because I’m afraid they might get bored. And I was right.

It sucks being alone all the time.

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Kinda disappointed for today. Nothing fun happened in class. I was kind of scolded during one of my class and it was not fun. Like at all. I’m looking forward for the game later. Though she will not be there watching. Sad, I know. I’ll try to do my nest for her though.

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I just wish that the feeling’s mutual. If not, it would cause so much pain for me.

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Fun fact about me: I don’t like saying “crush”. I prefer saying like. For example, I don’t want to address my crush “crush” I perfer address her as the person I like. I feel like it’s more formal and proper.

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Have you ever experienced liking someone that all you want to do is spend time with that person?

So here’s a thing. I just got out from a relationship about a week ago. However, I was planning to break up with that person like, almost the end of November. So, moving on was quite easy. (Although it is not really easy because I am that type of person who reacts to everything late). 2-3 days after the break up I realized that I am starting to like this girl. I met this girl during a celebration of some sort in our university. Ever since then, we started hanging out every after our practices. Now, I just can’t stop myslef from thinking about her. It’s like all I can think of is her. I know that we both are bisexual, but I don’t knowww. She’s kind of complicated. She’s very hard to read. She would always send these signs or something. I don’t want to get too attached because I don’t want to get hurt in the end. She’s just... URGGG. I just like her soo much it hurts. I’m afraid I’d ruin our friendship if I tell her what I feel. Well, I think she kind of know by now that I like her LMAO. I’m trying to keep it nit obvious and lowkey but I can’t. I just, I like her so much.

I’m hoping that the feeling’s mutual. 🤞

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Alone time

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I'm back bitches

After being gone for a very long time

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like. (pt.1)

I like her. yes I do. But it hurts seeing her everyday knowing that she can’t be mine. Hearing her talk about the person that she likes. But it’s fine. At least she’s happy...

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"How long are you going to pretend that you're fine?"

Probably...'till the day I die. I can't do anything about it. If you let people see that you're weak, they're going to take advantage of it. And that would just add up to all the bullshit that you are going through. But I don't think I can take forever to pretend. I hate pretending... Yet I'm doing it. I can't do anything about it. I don't want people to go away just because my life is not as great as theirs...

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Life is such a bitch, I hate it!

Why can't NO ONE understand me?!

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😍😍😂😂

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Why so cute?💞❤️

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Always happy

"Who told you I wasn't happy?" That's the last thing my friend told me before he committed suicide. We were texting and I told him to "be happy. Just always know that I'm always, always here for you" then he replied with "who told you I wasn't happy?" So i said "no one. I don't know, I just, I can feel it." Then his mother called me early this morning and told me the bad news... I will miss you bro. RIP Tristan

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What's wrong with the world today? (Pt. 1)

A guy once asked us this question; "What's wrong with the world today?" And he told us that, "The thing is, religion is what keeps us apart." And i do agree with it because of the fights between religions. But he then continued, "If only muslims do not exist, our world will be fine. There'd be no war, no problem with regarding to the government vs the citizens. And maybe, there'd be no natural disasters happening." And we were all shocked. Why would he say such thing? So i stood up saying that's not true. Then he raged at me. Why though? The muslims did nothing. At some point they did but it is only because they wanted equality. They wanted to be treated normally. Because when we say muslims, what comes to our mind is 'terrorist' , 'war' , 'bad' I am a catholic and I stand for what is right. And in this situation, what the guy said was wrong.

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Grades

My grades doesn't define who I am.

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School

Can someone please explain to me why we need to study things that we are NOT going to use in the future. Some things we study are useless.

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Growing up with religious parents

They would push me to go to church and wear nice dresses every Sunday. They would always tell me, "You're going with us or else you're going to burn in hell." I just don't get the idea of religion. If he is true, why's the world a mess? Why are there so many bullshit things happening in this so called world? Just...why? Can't he just make our lives easier? With no problems?