[ultraviolentchemtrails]

18+ only. mdni.

-30

-female

-switch

-dms and asks open

[confuusedbrunette]

ugh i just wanna ride a cute nerdy boy until he's crying and begging and grabbing at my hips, trying to get me to stop before he cums inside me, whining and being so loud when i force it out of him 🙈

[stillhereitseems]

🥺🥺😵‍💫 "you can't touch anywhere else but your nipples while I'm at work" I'm goneeee. I am actually deceased. I've been doing nothing but that for the past two hours 😖 can feel how wet I am between my thighs

Not allowed to edge anymore and I couldn't help but order more toys 😵‍💫😵‍💫 A vibrating butt plug... I've never tried that before, but I've been taking it so well in my ass all week

Fuck I feel so sluttyyyyy

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

someone pleeeeeasse tell me this... it's so hot being ordered to only touch my nipples and forced to keep going even when i'm so needy that my clit hurts and i'm dripping

[empty-sigh]

dry humping while you moan into my mouth sounds so perfect right now

[stillhereitseems]

🥺🥺😵‍💫 "you can't touch anywhere else but your nipples while I'm at work" I'm goneeee. I am actually deceased. I've been doing nothing but that for the past two hours 😖 can feel how wet I am between my thighs

Not allowed to edge anymore and I couldn't help but order more toys 😵‍💫😵‍💫 A vibrating butt plug... I've never tried that before, but I've been taking it so well in my ass all week

Fuck I feel so sluttyyyyy

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

someone pleeeeeasse tell me this... it's so hot being ordered to only touch my nipples and forced to keep going even when i'm so needy that my clit hurts and i'm dripping

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

i need someone to give me orders and tell me i can't even touch myself except to play with my nipples. it literally makes me so desperate and wet and the need feels soooo good. tell me i can only do it for an hour and then make me beg you to do it longer, make me beg you to edge just once. make me watch porn for hours and tease my nipples and not let me edge no matter how much i beg. make orgasms not even a part of the deal, make me beg just to touch my clit a little, no penetration, or JUST penetration, no touching my clit. make me keep my hands off my pussy and tease my nipples every and any chance i get for days, weeks. make me cry because i need to edge just once, pleeeeasseeee. i need help keeping my hands off my needy pussy so bad, and help making it needier.

(asks and dms open)

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

i cant get used to it

i'll never get used to it

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

need a subby boy to take my frustrations out on. i'd love one that cums too fast by accident, theyre soooo cute. the more embarrassed, the cuter they are. i want one i can sneak up behind and breathe on his neck and tease his nipples through his t-shirt and he starts whining and begging for me to stop or else he's gunna cum. he starts to breathe harder and faster as he starts to feel to orgasm approaching before his little dick is even fully hard. i'd tell him he doesnt have permission to cum but that would only makes it worse. he starts to double over slightly, moans escaping and maybe even a sob. he's shaking and leaning his chest into the teasing to his nipples, he knows he's going to fail but it feels so good and within seconds, still not even fully erect, he cums in his pants for the second or third time that day, cock totally untouched. maybe i'd never touch him again if i don't need to to make his cute little dick cum. is that too much to ask? :(

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

sooo unbelievably needy, i'm gunna spend all day teasing my nipples and watching vids of other ppl cumming while i squirm and soak through my panties and i really wish i had someone to tell me i'm a bad girl if i touch myself down there, that good girls don't touch themselves. wish i had someone to use me and just grind on my thigh like theyre fucking a pillow, ignore my whimpers for attention, refusing to touch me except to tease my nipples and make me needier. i need it so bad

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

Yeah... Fucking love.... But like as much as it hurts I wouldn't trade it for anything. Sure I still see old messages from them before we were official and I start tearing up, yes I'm still very famously not over them but god my heart just yearns and wants to pour years of love out. Does it make trying to be with someone new almost impossible? Sure but it's pretty par for the course that nothing's easy or simple for me. If we were normal well adjusted people we'd be way too powerful so we had to be nerfed :(

he deactivated and so I can't even see the messages. I may have said that already but I was drunk as hell last night so I forget haha. I have basically nothing. a picture somewhere I now feel compelled to delete. but he's just gone. poof. and it's for the best for him, it really is. there's so much I can't give at the moment, but... yeah. still feel like a part of me is gone because the things we shared just can't be replicated. and I feel so stupid saying that about someone here but it's just what it is. a connection is a connection.

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

who else decodes you?

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

plagued by phantom noises

that that skeletal beast

was haunting all my steps

questioning all my choices

with that dagger held unsheathed

i felt sick at my contempt

for you were lonely

you were like me

like some outside force had sent me

if i was easy to kill, you woulda done it already

you are at my feet

we're by the fire

you're a healthy

gentle

purring

beast

and i'm alive

if you were easy to kill, i woulda done it already

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

when it happens

i'll be miles away

and a few months late

didn't know where i was runnin to...

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

don't think about

all those things

you fear

just be glad

to be here

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

Nahhh you're right, I understand, I'm coming up on year 2 of it this year and I'm still kinda not over them lmaooo but personally I only have myself to blame. That's why I'll just continue keeping to myself and going to therapy.

therapy is truly magical.

i wish i could make use of it... i'm in a place where i ruined that for myself too. it's a pattern with me XD

the blame isn't easy to live with... i'm not even sure if the person i'm stressing about even gives a fuck. i hope he doesn't because i hope i didn't hurt him. i hope he just got bored waiting.

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

please please come back i know i'm screaming into the void but please come back

[ultraviolentchemtrails]

i'm a preacher with no pulpit

spewing a sermon that goes on and on...

well if we take all these things

and we bury them fast

and we pray that they turn to seeds

to roots

and then grass

it'd be alright, it's alright, it's easier that way...