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my “normal” blog

[unamifleur]

skipped breakfast today, finally back to my roots 🧘‍♀️🙏🏾

[unamifleur]

i tried and have been trying to recover from this thing but it’s not what it seems

there might be something wrong with my brain but eating more and seeing your body change like that?? not cool man

i wish i could just not eat or not think about not eating and just not eat but it’s not that simple

i hate how much i eat and i hate how i look, because i have gained weight and i knew that would just be apart of the process

my belly is so big and so are my thighs and my arms

just everything

i know i can do it

i just need to not eat

[unamifleur]

today was bad

im stressed for finals, i have these humongous pimples on my face and i found out that my ex moved on from me

not to blame my lack of discipline on these but they’ve just been weighing heavy on my poor soul

anyway time for me to study and dsitract myself from eating more

[unamifleur]

today was good

i was able to skip a few big meals today fortunately

ive been eating big for awhile now so i’d like to cut back on how much i eat because i’d like to be 125 pretty soon

i maintained 133 for a couple of months but my brain says not enough so onwards

[unamifleur]

woaaah been a couple months

im back on my bullshit (aka relapsing)

[unamifleur]

how many aura points does one lose when constantly yearning to be accepted and loved as you are? how many aura points does a girl lose when seeking acceptance and validation in her romantic relationships because it is what she lacked as a child?? how many aura points does a person lose everytime they self-reflect so much and finds out that so much is wrong with them that they’re constantly blaming themselves in situations that aren’t their fault and does a lot more work on themselves than anyone around them? how many aura poi-

[unamifleur]

picrew from @alex-somehow-survived | this was so freaking cute and fun to make :p, thank you love for showing this <3

[unamifleur]

getting broken up with and then getting your period two days later, would NOT recommend

[medusadyke]

academic dishonesty is not something you can spin as moral lol i do not want to share a career field let alone a social sphere with a bunch of chatgpt using ass bitches

[medusadyke]

"you're just scared your diploma is going to devalue" i'm afraid you dumb bitches are going to become my colleagues and drag social services to hell

[unamifleur]

i cant do this anymore