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[quotemadness]

“Let’s remember this day, even when we don’t know each other anymore.”

— Jennifer Egan

[anittaalvarescabral]

📸 | Anitta is the cover of the historical edition of the magazine ELLE Brasil, in celebration of the 50 years of career of the photographer Bob Wolfenson.

[ladyeliserose]

Aphrodite’s Hoe Playlist:

Heaven by FINNEAS

Cherry by Lana Del Rey

Best friend by Saweetie ft Doja Cat

Boyfriend by Mabel

Hot girl summer by Megan Thee stallion

Begging for thread by BANKS

Diamonds by Normani ft Megan Thee stallion

High school by Nicki Minaj

34+35 by Ariana Grande ft Megan Thee stallion

Say so by Doja Cat

Lust for life by Lana Del Rey ft The weeknd

Problem by Natalia Kills

WAP by Cardi B ft Megan Thee stallion

How to be a heartbreaker by MARINA

Bitches by Tove lo

Sour Candy by Lady Gaga ft BLACKPINK

Earned it by the weeknd

Up by Cardi B

Girls will be girls by Sophie Beem

Love is wicked by Brick and Lace

You don’t own me by Say Grace

I put a spell on you by Annie Lennox

Hypnotic by Zella Day

Body by SYML

Undisclosed desires by Muse

Close by the weeknd ft Tove lo

Feeling good by Nina Simmones

Talk that talk by Rihanna ft Eminem

Dangerous woman by Ariana Grande

All Night by Beyoncé

Come and get it by Selene Gomez

Cruel Summer by Taylor Swift

Alejandro by Lady Gaga

You shook me all night long by AC/DC

Killer queen by Queen

God is a woman by Ariana Grande

Ain’t my fault by a Zara Larson

Boss bitch by Doja Cat

Straight shooter by Skylar Grey

Truth hurts by Lizzo

Looking at me by Sabrina Carpenter

Thank u next by Ariana Grande

Cute without you by Emma Blackery

Like that by Bea Miller

High heels by Jo Jo

Girls/Girls/Boys by Panic at the disco

Call out my name by the weeknd

Circus by Britney Spears

Rude boy by Rihanna

All the good girls go to hell by Billie Eillish

National anthem by Lana Del Rey

Milk and cookies by Melanie Martinez

Bad girls by MIA

Flex by Fifth Harmony

Primadonna by MARINA

My way by Ava Max

Bad to you by Normani and Ariana Grande

Wicked Heart by Diana Vickers

Rebel girl by Bikini Kills

One woman army by Porcelain Black

Call me by your name by Lil Nas X

Woman by Kesha

Hard out here by Lily Allen

Body of my own by Charli XCX

Cool for the summer by Demi Lovato

Bad things by Camilla Cabello

Eyes on fire by Blue Foundation

Monsters by Ruelle

Change your life by Iggy Azalea

American Boy by Little Mix

Countdown by Beyoncé

Dark horse by Katy Perry (Slowed)

The ballad of Mona Lisa by Panic!At the disco

Taki Taki by Cardi B

Lady marmalade by Christina Aguilera

Side to side by Ariana Grande

Not that kinda girl by Fifth harmony

Paper planes by MIA

Gangsta (orchestral version) by Kehlani

S&M by Rihanna

Boss by Fifth harmony

Cake by Melanie Martinez

Gasoline by Halsey

Daddy issues by the neighbourhood

Talk dirty by Jason Derulo

Booty by Jennifer Lopez ft Iggy Azalea

Cant remember to forget you by Shakira

Tambourine by Eve

Yoga by Janelle Monae

Starboy by the weeknd

Señorita by Camilla Cabello ft Shawn Mendes

Fetish by Selena Gomez

She don’t by Elle Mai ft Tye Dollar $ign

Good for you by Selena Gomez

Black Swan by BTS

Doin Time by Lana Del Rey

Summer boy by Lady Gaga

Parents by Yungblood

Junkies on a high by Green Day

Woman like me by Little Mix

Love me harder by Ariana Grande ft the weeknd

Do it again by Pia Mia

Come get her by Rae Strimmund

Anaconda by Nicki Minaj

Hotel room service by Pitbull ft Nicole Scherzinger

Keep on by Kehlani

Bad girl by Avril Lavigne

Si Huberias Querido by Pablo Alboran

Sexual by NEIKED

Take me to church by Hozier

Fire for you by Cannons

Hands on me by Ariana Grande

Hips by Diana Vickers

Whenever wherever by Shakira

Donatella by Lady Gaga

Strawberry shortcake by Melanie Martinez

Go forth and be sexy!!! Xx

[opens-at-nightfall]

Another bejeweled spider web, shimmering in the starlight like a diamond necklace…

[medievalraptures]

It’s been a year and a half since I left you, and I still think about you from time to time and the times we spent in the sun. Hand in hand. Arm over arm. We were obsessed with each other.. constantly felt the need to be closer to each other. I remember one time when you held my hand and told me that you felt that even being skin to skin wasn’t enough to satiate you, that you had this weird urge to “merge” with me and become one. We were so connected. I am forever grateful for our relationship, and the love we shared. I forgive you for projecting your fears and insecurities on me towards the end and putting a lot of pressure on me as a result. It ultimately pushed me away from you, and I no longer felt emotionally safe with you. Despite that, I am happy to see you doing so well. I always knew that you’d reach your goals, without a doubt. I wonder if you regret pushing me away, knowing what you know now. I loved you, flaws & all. I’ve never loved anyone with their flaws, except for my family. You were my family. We were so close. And though I hate to admit it, you were right. You had made me so unhappy that I was pushed into making a decision that wasn’t going to be good for me. It wasn’t good for me. But it did ensure that I burned the bridge that would lead me back to you because I’ve always been afraid of how much I loved you and the lengths that I would go for you. You would’ve bled me dry. I did what I had to do to protect myself from you and your demands. Funny thing is that I got a 6-figure job at 25 years old and was admitted into a decent MBA program only 2 months after I ended things. I’ve saved a large sum of money with the hopes of buying a house in a few years, all by myself. And I’m in the process of applying to USC because I don’t want to settle for anything less than what I deserve. I think that you’d be proud of me. And I want you to be proud of me because there’s a part of me that will always love who we were to each other end together. I wasn’t willing or able to do everything you wanted me to do. Even that sentence alone is strange, I realize that.. but that’s who you were. You had a lot of needs and you were not an easy person to be with. But I genuinely, deeply, completely loved you until the moment that you told me that you wouldn’t lose anything if you lost me. That was devastating to me. And nothing you said afterwards would ever undo the damage that caused. There was a part of you that meant it, despite your efforts to convince me otherwise. Because there’s a fucked up part of you that only values monetary gains, and you looked at me as an expense.

[unbridledraptures]

Yesterday, I was in a dreadfully long Starbucks drive thru when I saw a happy couple holding hands while walking to their car and I immediately got the urge to cry. I am so unhappy w my patenter, that I’m constantly walking ahead of him (or away from him) when we are out and about (which is rare.. but that’s another issue). It was a nice reminder that there is something good out there.

[medievalraptures]

Tbh I’ve been unhappy w my partner for a looooong time now, primarily bc he compensated for his insecurities by lying to me about his accomplishments, habits, etc. and this perpetrated into a vicious cycle where he kept lying bc he knew I was unhappy w the relationship in an effort to appear better than he actually was? Super counteproductive and unhealthy. It kind of got better sometimes (?) but I felt more like a mother figure than a gf and honestly it wasn’t cute. I was probably playing out unhealed traumas from the past. I now realize that he’s a broken and anxious person who can’t give me what I want anytime soon. My future partner needs to be someone who’s able to handle someone who’s as head strong as I am, without feeling little as a result. I did my best to help him; but I think it’s best for him it I take a step back as well. It’s not good for him to constantly be reminded of his downfalls when attempting to heal. Best wishes and adios !¡

[unbridledraptures]

I miss intimacy.

[medievalraptures]

The reason why your mentally ill and toxic behavior hasn’t negatively affected me is because I don’t take you seriously. I haven’t for a long time. I’ve been operating on autopilot, too busy with work to fully realize how dangerous you are. Had I been an insecure and/or weak person, you would’ve mentally destroyed me with your compulsive lying and manipulation tactics. None of it phases me simply because I know better and almost feel sorry for you. But I’ve done my time. A year is more than enough time to determine if this is an issue we can resolve and move past. Clearly, it isn’t. I don’t have a need for companionship when it brings me nothing but problems. It’s also not right of me to keep someone who I do not respect in my life, simply because it fulfills some of my needs a minority of the time. What am I even doing? Like, seriously, what the fuck is this? Me to me rn: Are you not embarazzed? This is really EMBARAZZING.

[andrafantino]

[porterr-robinson]

[johnwickofficial]

Me

[banksalec]

[chewbacca]

Lizzie McGuire  |  2x01 - “First Kiss”

[medievalraptures]

Put a finger down if you dated someone who lied about taking the LSAT, getting into law school, possibly going to law school, working at a law firm, going on a “work trip”, driving lyft, drug addiction, selling drugs, going to therapy, and more! :D 😀🙋🏻‍♀️

And when you found out & confronted him about it, you were called names such as “dumbass girl” and told that you’re not “thinking straight”. Other times, he would break down in tears repeating his lies, insisting that he’s telling the truth, so you felt bad for him bc he’s broken and went along w it for the time being bc it was so uncomfortable but shortly after realized that even THAT was a manipulation tactic.

How fun. :)

[medievalraptures]

In retrospect, that wasn’t a good idea. But it seemed worth the shot. I didn’t feel comfortable being complete authentic self after finding that there was so much deception on your end. I withdrew little by little. Piece by piece. One by one. Step by step, as I always do. And it came to a point where I didn’t really like who I became. An authoritative or parent figure. It’s not my job to motivate my partner and I should never have to beg for the truth. No no no. What a distaster.

[medievalraptures]

i refuse to be a chess piece in your vendetta. it’s all very high school and leaves me feeling icky + sticky.. like i need to take a shower.

some appreciation would be nice.

i took the time and space to unpack. untie. re-organize. and make an objective decision on what stays, and what leaves. it hurt to find that my value as an individual was monetized. i resented that i was placed in a position where i felt inclined to “prove” my worth. prove that i was worthy of love. it all kinda went down the toilet from there, as it should have. i loved through and through, in the only way i know how to. i regret none of it, though i’m sure you do. hope you’ve found a new home in the gutters.

i’m a person of habit - typical earth sign. stability and security creates an ideal environment to flourish. but i’m trying to break that. i’m not confident that i’m doing all that i need to be doing (typical cardinal sign bullshit, but it’s true). i’ve done really well on paper. my resume is fantastic. my salary was fantastic (stupid coronavirus). i’m confident that i’ll land on my two feet, no matter where i’m thrown. even if it’s to the wolves, and it has been for the past few months. but am i doing the internal work? am i on the right spiritual path? am i proud of myself? no, not entirely. bc there’s so much that i can do. yet, i’m paralyzed by my anxiety.

[infected]