“Yes, but… I thought I would have found it by now, but I miscalculated. Maybe we should go back to the TARDIS and come back when we’re sure where we’re going. Besides, who am I kidding? I’ve taken you to a million pretty places, it never stopped us from ending up in fights like these. It’s always the same thing.” he sighed and ran a hand through his hair, his hands shaking slightly. “It’s always me asking for more then you saying no then me somehow trying to fix things. As if asking you not to actively try to get yourself killed was selfish. It’s always me giving it my all to fix things. You think I want a peaceful boring life in a cabin with you? I’m the Doctor too! I want thrill and adventure and yes, I want to have a dangerous mermaid join us! But I’m trying to protect you because we have a son, a son too young to understand duty or honor when I have to explain to him how and why his mommy died saving the doctor. I’ve lost children, wives, family. You don’t get it. You probably never will. But I’m tired of fighting with you… And I’m tired of fighting for you. I’m just tired, Megan. An island isn’t going to fix our relationship. Nothing will. Love is just not enough to keep this relationship going any longer. We need more and love is all we have. I gave up so much for you, I fought so hard, I changed so much. And you never asked me to, I just did it because it was right. Because I thought you deserved better than who I was and what I had to offer. It’s unfair for me to ask you to do the same. But then it’s unfair for you to ask me to stay.“ he looked up at the stars, as if they could give him all the answers he needed. “You don’t remember, but I fell for you and you didn’t love me back. So I said: ‘Ok, I’ll leave and come back when I’m over you. You won’t even miss me because I’ll make sure to come in 5 minutes, but years older.’ That was a great plan, but you wanted to be loved so you didn’t let me walk away. And we had many beautiful memories together after that. But it was a very selfish thing to do, Megan. You don’t love me. Love is sacrifice. You just love being loved by me. You love that I changed for you. You love that I’m always there for you. You love that I plan all the dates and presents and dinners and breakfast. You love that when you break my heart, I somehow find it in me to feel guilty and make it up to you. But I don’t want to feel guilty for wanting more anymore. I’ve been with you for so long. And you lost your memories and we had to start all over. And now we’re stuck. I made a mistake asking you to marry me. You will never be the wife I need. It’s not because you don’t want to stay in a boring cabin with me and grow old. It’s because you would rather stand at the doctor’s side than mine. Because if it were him that was here and not me, you would have been more than willing to go on a mermaid pirate adventure. You would do anything for him. Just like I would have done anything for you. But now I have nothing left to give anymore, Megan. So you can either be stuck with the pile of shit I was before we met, a very tired pile of shit. Or you can walk away from us. Whichever you choose, don’t do it because of the love you feel for me or the fear of not being happy. Do it because it’s the right thing to do, and be honest with yourself.”
Megan’s urge to roll her eyes at him was only stopped by the pain in her heart, and by a nagging voice in the back of her mind that wasn’t Storm’s: things your husband cannot bring... She shook her head and took a step back, her face cracking like old wood. “Storm, we’ve had this conversation so many times. At this point I think you know what I’ll choose, and that I’ll choose to keep fighting for you. Because it’s not a choice, it’s who I am. I fight for the ones I love. But you know that. And I changed for you too.” Her voice softened, but the tone was more bitter.
“I spent less time with the Doctor, held myself back from fussing or getting myself in dangerous situations, I picked up mine and Tristan’s lives and moved into your TARDIS because it would have made you happy. And it made me happy too, I was happy to do those things for you, to see you smile...” She sniffed and wiped her eyes. “God I wish I could save you from this, I wish I could save you from your doubt and sadness and fear but I don’t know how. I’ve tried Storm, and it kills me to see you like this but... I think we both know the choice here is yours. You know I’ll fight for you and love you, always. But are you giving up for good this time? Have you really become the sad, bitter man on a cloud again? Don’t push me away...” She trailed off and gently took one of his hands in hers.
“Please love, don’t push me away for my own sake. We’re both better than that. You know that I’m with you ‘til the end. And this is not to make you feel guilty. But if this is it for us, and you’re the man on the cloud that I first met, the one that threatened me and my unborn son and then apologised...” She choked and forced out her last words. “I’ll walk away. I mean it, if it’ll make you happy I’ll walk away. But only if it will make you happy.”