Midnight, Moon, Self-forgetfulness

Xe/xem/xir // soft/softs • iel/lui Sideblog for posting and reblogging poetry, web weavings, art… 22y/o, aromantic, french

[unfathomable-understanding]

Collecting poetry and web weavings. Also posting a bit (drawings and poetry), tagged « my art » :)

Characters or ships are tagged simply (Zuko, Yue, Zukka, Klance etc…). I sometimes make web weavings for fanfics, which will be tagged as follow:

ictyitmbalw for I confess to you in the most blasphemous and loving way

mw(bikyu) for Missing Words (but I know you understand)

etc

Tag system :

Pain for the angsty ones and soft for the happy ones.

General tags are : love, friends, anger, family, siblings, father, grief, lonely, identity, kindness, hate, touch, passing time, soulmate (platonic and romantic), trans, bodies or body, living

[morgue-orchid]

a snippet of the piece i drew for my birthday today, featuring my favourites 🦇

[hamza-only]

Unfortunately, my sister will die today if I don't get her the right medication. Her anemia has reached a critical stage, her body is gradually deteriorating, and she can no longer bear the pain.

[hamza-only]

I hope everyone will participate or donate to save my sister. I want the new year to be beautiful; it's just beginning, and I'm having bad luck. I hope you will stand with me.

[xxxemberedxxwandererxxx-deactiv]

please donate and share to help to get their sister the right medication to save her life as her anemia is getting worse and worse each passing day and I cannot imagine how much pain she is in, show some compassion and lend a helping hand today and support them all the way ^

[unfathomable-understanding]

My superpower is that I have transgender eyes that are able to see ANY character and transgenderize them on sight. Reblog if you agree

[unfathomable-understanding]

I will eat you alive before I let your teeth scrap against that name again.

I guard the name my parents gave me like a rabid fox guards its den. I keep it locked away behind metal doors and heavy chains and I bury it all as deep as can go. I tear it off of papers and screens and people’s mouths until there is nothing left of it. I melt the letters of it and wish it could sizzle blazing hot against the tongue of anyone who dare utter it still.

I forget chores and places and feelings yet that name sticks to me like glue. The metal doors and heavy chains and dirt might keep it away from the world; it does not keep it away from me.

I know when my father says Li he think [ ]. I know when he says Li he thinks daughter. He forcefully keeps it on the surface, reshapes the letters I melt and refuses to let the doors close.

I will bury the memory of him if he does not let it go. I will burn the world until that name is forgotten entirely; until there is nothing left of it at all, except maybe for the erased shape of it on class photos from primary school.

[unfathomable-understanding]

Having an older sister goes like this

I love you. I’m glad you went through everything first. I’m sorry you had to. I love you more than mom. I love her more than our father. We’ve lived through the same things but it doesn’t hurt you the same; I wish you understood my rage. I love you. I’d take a bullet for you. I wish you’d live for me. I think you really need to see a therapist. I love you. I’m sorry I’m hard to live with. I love you. I wish you separated the laundry by colors instead of putting everything together in the washing machine. No one understands me like you do. I love you. I’ll argue with our father so you don’t have to. I know you hate conflict. I love you. You were the first person to use my name. I love you. I wish you were okay. You always stay on your phone so I have to clean the table, and nothing annoys me more than that. You sit and listen to my clumsy explanations for forgotten chores and the way my brain functions. No one else does. I’m so glad I live with you. I love you. Thank you for letting me stay in your room when the parents fought when we were kids. I love you. I could probably live without you. Your name has been in all of my passwords for ever. All the other passwords in our family are your birthdate. I love you. I like the way you don’t touch me when I don’t want you to; I like the way you tell me no when I ask for hugs sometimes. Forehead kisses are our things, please don’t forget. I love you. You don’t listen to my dreams anymore but I wish you did. I love you. You accept all of my truths without flinching. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

[kvassretriever]

[tallullahssacredlamb]

Frank O’Hara “Homosexuality” / Adrianne Lenker “Anything” / Trista Mateer “The dogs i have kissed” / Phoebe Bridgers “Waiting room” / Salma Deera “Letters from Medea” / Mary Oliver “Little crazy love song” / Sufjan Stevens “Cimmerian shade” / Richard Siken “I had a dream about you”

[cataclysmictide]

please stay - lucy dacus/unknown/unknown/warsh_tippy and zelda - whatever, dad/langston hughes/warsh_tippy and zelda - whatever, dad/unknown/unknown/warsh_tippy and zelda - whatever, dad/fortesa latifi/unknown/unknown/robertszombie/please stay - lucy dacus

[devilmaydaycare]

Brigid Grimtaker

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"I haven't been the same since you left. Maybe that's for the better. Maybe that's the push I needed to be the sister I was supposed to be for you. To be the person you believed I could always be. It just hurts that it took so much pain for it to happen, and I can’t even show you this side of me."

[speedy-beans]

hauntings or something

[morgue-orchid]

its been a while, ive been having brahms withdrawals

[lelif]

the beauty of life

- // @fairycosmos // ? // - // @cassidyshotchocolate // - // - // elsie de wolfe// @podencos // afternoon on a hill, edna st. vincent millay// rien ne va plus, margarita karapanou, tr. by karen emmerich// - // - // @ annalauraart on instagram// culpable, joy sullivan// - // @ jordanklancaster on instagram// @ niall.breen.comics on instagram// agatha christie// @plasticlove1984 //sweeter than fiction, taylor swift// the summer day, mary oliver

[unfathomable-understanding]

On Chronic Pain.

[1-jar-of-stars]

On Friendship.

[lucidloving]

@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu Gotouge, Demon Slayer // Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance // David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories // Tennessee Williams, Notebooks

[lelif]

on survival

-// @aridante // @orivu // @buzzkillgirls // ? // ? // richard siken// @cemeterything // moomin, tove jansson// @disenchanted-killjoy // isn't that enough, shawn mendes// @ prettytheyswag on twitter// @ coletyumuch on twitter// ? // ? // bird by bird, anne lamott// undertale// @strawberrycircuits