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If you know, you know.

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                                                  LET’S REACH FOR THE MOON!

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I like to think they would have been friends

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‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒  TFW THE MASTERMIND YOU’RE TRYING to stop starts talking about his ass and you wonder if you’re in the right Squid Games...

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                                                  LET’S REACH FOR THE MOON!

[0000218-deactivated20211217]

#𝟎𝟎𝟎𝟎𝟐𝟏𝟖   ——   a   private,   selective   exploration   of   𝐂𝐇𝐎   𝐒𝐀𝐍𝐆-𝐖𝐎𝐎   of   n*flix’s   kdrama   𝐒𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐃   𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄.   the   study   of   what   lies   beneath,   self   -   preservation,   fighting   for   survival,   betrayal,   &   hurting   the   ones   you   love.   triggers   on   this   blog   include:   death,   murder,   mass   murder,   extreme   violence,   suicide   &   suicidal   ideation,   classism,   manipulation,   &   occasional   nsfw   content.   please   proceed   with   caution.   anti   -   n*tflix.   written   by   𝐉𝐀𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐑   (   25+,   trans,   he   /   him   ).   this   blog   is   𝐍𝐎𝐓   𝐒𝐏𝐎𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐑   𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐄.   read   rules   before   following.   𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐃.   𝐒𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐃   𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄.   𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐑.   𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓.   𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆.

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@0000218​ asked:

it's alright. i'm fine. ​

‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒  HER FAUX CONCERN WAS QUICK to be replaced by truth, her eyes narrowing down at him, contemplating just leaving him to his own devices. If he was fine, then she wasn’t necessary in the moment, after all, and she didn’t see any reason to give him her time of day -- and yet...she remained. Hand would raise and tap the side of his head, a quick quip thrown his way, ❝ You BETTER be alright! ❞ Out of all the new group’s members, he was by far the most intelligent and strongest (they needed both in their arsenal if they were going to shove it to Deok-su)! The betrayal she’s gone through just recently still stung her heavily, leaving her with a bitter taste stuck on her tongue like the constant scent of death that surrounded them ; if she was going to make it far with these people, then she had to cling to them, hold to them, make sure they knew how much they needed her! A headache might seem so mindlessly easy to handle, but the concept of her helping him might just lend herself some more time with them before she had to leave their sides to destroy them later in the game...

        The same hand that had tapped him on the side of the noggin now was accompanied by other hand, index fingers massaging his temples, an attempt to seem more...nurturing to him ; she was great at pretending to be someone she wasn’t if it meant her presence was seen as a positive. Fraud was underneath her belt and she could play the part for him ; she could play the part for all of them since they seemed so easy to convince -- aside from the stink eye girl and this one right here. So, in order to gain some good favor, this was her saving grace (or what she hoped was it). ❝ We need those brains of yours intact for the next game ; you’re our best player! ❞

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@0000199​ replied to your post:

SLAMS MY HANDS Jun-Ho my beloved

[Edna Mode Voice] Oh, darling, you push too hard -- okay, I’ll do it!

[unfortunatesculs]

Okay, if I re-download wire, who should I make an account for?

Han Mi-nyeo

Hwang Jun-ho

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0000218​:

#𝟐𝟏𝟖   𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐒   ——   HAN MI-NYEO.   ○   @unforunatesculs​   △   𝐒𝐇𝐔𝐅𝐅𝐋𝐄𝐃:  ❛❛   the bravery   ♫   every word is a knife in my ear.   ❜❜   □   𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒:   𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑..

❛❛            every   word   from   your   mouth   is   a   knife   in   my   ear.            ❜❜

‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒  IMMEDIATE RESPONSE IS INTERNAL DAMNATION spat at him in his face, her mind stewing upon his words as if he’d killed her himself, but her restraint is powerful, knowing him too strong an ally to throw away just yet. She didn’t outright hate him, but he didn’t exactly make her feel like she had when it came to Deok-su: agony, hatred, heartbreak, pain -- no, Sangwoo was...different, difficult, but, hey, he still had some hots about him. If not for him, she might have died in that tug-of-war game, bleeding out on the ground while Deok-su got to yuck it up with his men... Somewhere down the line, she might need him again to spare her from death -- death death death -- just the concept left her breathless and shaking. 

        Shoveling buckets of internal conflict aside, she presses a smile across her features and gently sways a hand, ghosting it over his stained cheek, wondering whose blood was still there after so long. ❝ Don’t be like that, babe, ❞ she’d teasingly scold, hand thrown up in the air to wag index at him, ❝ Pushing me away will just get you into trouble! Your group needs me -- ❞ what a silent plea to keep him on her side. ❝ I know so much about Deok-su and his group, so if you don’t want to hear my voice, you can go without learning their weaknesses! ❞ She was bullshitting him, knowing next to nothing about them, but she didn’t have to tell him! She had YEARS of fraud under her belt to keep her going, so this had to work, right? He’d be DESPERATE to get ahead of the game, right!?

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0000199​:

@unfortunatesculs​ — small starter (hwang jun-ho)

      ❛  who are you, sir? how did you get in here..?  ❜

‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒‒  CAT MAY HAVE CAUGHT HIS tongue the moment he hears a voice speak up from behind. His entire body tense against the stare of the gentleman, not quite frozen with fear but rather stuck in place of not knowing how to respond exactly ; if he should tell the contestant his number, it could spark rumors spread, others could locate who the imposter is among them, or he could be shot dead from the name uttered from their lips -- number 029. While Contestant 199 knew not know name or his number, this still left Junho speechless momentarily, hesitation in turning around to face him: unknown to unknown. Clearly 199 knew that he didn’t belong ; anyone who removed their masks was easily spotted as being a wolf in sheep’s clothing -- or maybe he just meant how he got into the locked restroom...too late now for second chances.

        The bathrooms were his saving grace (no cameras, no guards, no risk) and the removal of his mask had been done only on instinct of removing hair from his eyes ; a contestant entering here was an unaccounted for variable. Eyes shifted to the door, squinting at it before returning them to the other, lowering his guard for the slightest of seconds. ❝ Who I am doesn’t matter ; what matters is what I intend to do. ❞ Square, the icon of supremacy among the shapes meant he could keep his power in place should there be a guard intending to enter, but, for the time being, they were alone enough for hushed conversation to take place. ❝ The air vents -- ❞ finger pointed up briefly, ❝ You won’t tell anyone, will you? ❞ To gauge the type of person this person is, he merely paused, eyeing him with scrutiny to watch how he’d respond -- to lay out all his information on the table would mean giving 199 the advantage over him ; there was no telling what some of these people in here were like,

[ahoyvampire]

[unfortunatesculs]

PLOTTING CALL! reserved for mutuals only.

since I’m a shy person, this will be the best way for us to interact and get to know each other! Like this post and I will come into your IMs and we can begin plotting! ♡

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Like this for a starter | specify muse!

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𝙾𝙽𝙻𝚈  𝙼𝚄𝚁𝙳𝙴𝚁𝚂  𝙸𝙽  𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝙱𝚄𝙸𝙻𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶  𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴  𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂.

these are lifted from the hulu show with the same name, triggering content may be possible, please read and reblog with caution. adjust any as needed!

sometimes a second chance is just another chance to get it wrong.

you’ll hear me bassooner or later.

i’m going to stop you before you accidentally say I’m not sexy.

please stop me.

the sharing of stories is kind of transactional.

isn’t it insulting to flirt now?

seventy’s the new forty.

suddenly it’s rude to tell a secretary she looks nice in a pair of slacks.

who the hell knows?

no. to that whole sentence.

rock icon sting is a dog-poisoning murderer.

he’s like the next OJ. a hot, buddhist OJ.

embrace the mess. that’s where the good stuff lives.

this is exactly like die hard!

no one wants a murder podcast about real estate!

even the elevator wanted that story to end.

a cat never really leaves you, because they transmit parasites.

i loved our shows.

it’s setting money on fire i don’t care for.

oh, you’re the other one. got it.

those are our proverbial onions, raw and peeled.

and yours? care to peel for us?

sometimes it’s easier to figure out someone else’s secret than it is to deal with your own.

it’s so hot in here. do we have to do this in a closet?

i mean, a murderer probably lives in the building.

i guess old white guys are only afraid of colon cancer and societal change.

i’ve fallen in love with so many dead people.

do you appeal to anybody?

you are scoring a murder mystery, not DJing a hobbit’s wedding.

yeah, you look pretty poor.

i’m totally migraining, you guys meet the sea witch without me.

so go on ahead and enjoy your cute little lives.

i literally pass him in the elevator once a month, just so you know.

new yorkers have a special way of communicating.

true crime num-nuts.

i don’t tip. i think it’s elitist. i send out autographed photos instead.

i’m gonna fucking find out.

calls bother them for some reason.

i think our list of suspects just got longer.

i will burn it and snort the ashes like it’s 1982.

can i just stream it later and spare myself?

i can’t tell if you’re acting or not.

oh, believe me, when he’s acting, you can tell.

who educated you?

i want you to be less mean.

no one ever brings anyone a turkey with bad intentions.

oh my god, there’s food.

really? do you not see this coat?

i have this recurring dream. i’m in bed. i wake up and there’s a man standing over me.

what the fuck is in [optional:name]’s mouth?

so, i kick him right in the nuts.

i grab my knitting needle and i take him down to the bone with that thing.

sometimes, when i can’t sleep, i imagine brutally murdering that dude.

i’m out like a light. works everytime.

it’s not what you think!

oh, you fancy.

new york can be a fucking lot.

all the eyes on you. all the time.

hey baby, where you goin’ so tough?

two thousand women report assaults here every year.

it’s a place that makes you binge watch dateline to find out on to not end up on dateline.

it was the most constant refrain from my childhood.

the fuck?

look, nobody liked him.

can we all just be grateful that he’s gone?

let’s see if [optional:name]’s free. i’ll call her.

should i text?

say something nice and move on.

Does anybody have anything they would like to share about [optional:name]?

oh! how did you get here?

it was open.

i don’t lock my door. never have.

the motherfucking garbage bag!

why would he get on the elevator with that?

there’s a chute on every floor.

what was in there?

we all had the same thought?

ah. different thought.

we should do our own podcast.

i’m not dying. it’s anxiety.

is it cancer?

i just need to know how invested i should get in you.

you don’t adopt a twenty year old dog.

it happens sometimes when i talk to people.

i have it managed.

i just don’t talk to people.

what do you share?

i just.. i just find dating exhausting.

if it works out, scary. and if it doesn’t work out, scary.

i just want to go home and plant my face into a pillow.

sounds like an afternoon.

do i want to break into a dead guy’s apartment and go through all his shit?

it’s the first time i’ve ever been alone in like .. ever.

i tend to make packs where ever i go.

what happened?

i shared. i got a second date.

i need to sleep for a month!

it’s about a jealous stalker and surveillance.

it actually seems like it was written by .. a killer.

right. you should wait. plenty of time.

are you kidding me?

every breath you take is no love song.

well, at the end of the first act, there was the amazing number.

i can still hear the sound of them all hitting the floor.

chorus boys tend to stick together.

there is no bigger flop than my show.

we got bad reviews before we even opened.

what the fuck! oh my god!

what the shit was that?

we just wanted to see how you were holding up.

i wish i were dead.

now’s not a good time, so.

any comments?

we’re gonna go down there and look around for clues. wanna come?

you liked it, right?

is that what my face is saying?

this doesn’t make sense.

where do we start?

i got in the elevator with these two weirdos.

approximately twelve minutes from now, i will be murdered.

apparently one of you jerk offs did it.

i can’t stop thinking about this.

we should do our own true crime podcast.

right now the only thing that matters is there’s a killer on the loose.

oh, that is a very good line.

i think we’re onto something big here.

why are they all selfies?

so i don’t draw suspicion.

i’m gonna pass out!

get the who, the why and the why now.

get the what and the what?

see, why would you say what? i never said what. there’s no what.

shit just got super real.

get out of the building now.

keep your eyes peeled!

anything could be a clue.

do you consent to being recorded?

i like the emotion. keep that.

the crying is covering the dialogue.

are you associated with the deceased?

just in passing. not his passing. just when we pass by.

we find the right connection and all this cracks open.

i can’t tell if i want it to be nothing or i want it to be something.

turns out the ones you think you know best, might be the ones you know least.

every true crime story is actually true for someone.

yes, and this is just occurring to you?

i think we should just hit him with the charmer.

is it on now?

i’ll take the lead on this.

well i can turn on the charm.

why did this happen to you?

i want to solve this murder so catch me up.

i know. it’s weird.

seems like everyone in the building loved her.

they both died the same day.

really? what did you hear just exactly?

i shouldn’t speak ill of the dead.

something about a missing ring?

why would you say it like that?

i wouldn’t put it like that.

what did you do?

what is wrong with you?

you’re taking too long.

i faint at the sight of blood.

you know, there’s a cat in your freezer.

you’re right. we should be more respectful.

what episode is this from?

i saw that bullshit on youtube this morning.

i’m so lost here. can someone please fill me in.

i literally feel myself aging when i listen to you.

how do you not know anyone.

you know what, i think you should stay upstairs.

we should just promise not to lie and trust each other. i can do that.

filming something today?

i’m not wearing make up.

i was just coming up to get you.

i have a way in.

those were made up mysteries.

maybe you’re right. maybe going at it alone is better.

hi. i’m not sure why i’m doing this.

i hate new years eve. it means winter break is over.

you’re a goddamn asshole! what the fuck was that?

i saw someone. 

in case i’m next.

the secrets are the fun part.

who’s telling the truth? who’s lying?

you don’t have to sign your texts. i know it’s you.

what kind of person leaves their window open and then gets mad at a cat for wondering in?

[littlelovelymemes]

𝐚𝐬𝐤  𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞 :    𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒄𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒆𝒐𝒖𝒔  𝒒𝒖𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒔

‘  i’ll  find  you  again ,  wherever  we  end  up  next .  ’

‘  the  enormity  of  my  desire  disgusts  me .  ’

‘  please ,  one  more  kiss  in  the  kitchen  before  we  turn  the  lights  off .  ’

‘  i’ve  been  lost  but  i’m  here  now .  you’re  the  only  person  who  has  ever  been  able  to  find  me .  ’

‘  almost  dead  yesterday ,  maybe  dead  tomorrow ,  but  alive ,  gloriously  alive ,  today .  ’

‘  you  are  not  broken .  ’

‘  you  can  love  and  be  loved ,  despite  what  may  feel  like  the  eternally  brutal  nature  of  the  world .  ’

‘  i  did  violence  to  my  own  heart .  ’

‘  will  i  be  forgiven  for  the  sins  i  did  not  commit ,  but  created ?  ’

‘  i  would  never  kiss  anyone  who  doesn’t  burn  me  like  the  sun .  ’

‘  i  would  rather  break  the  world  than  lose  you .  ’

‘  i  think  you  and  i  have  known  each  other  in  a  few  lifetimes .  ’

‘  i  didn’t  know .  i  had  no  idea  how  greedy  my  heart  really  was .  ’

‘  is  that  why  the  idea  of  losing  you  torments  me  so  much ?  ’

‘  how  long  have  i  been  without  you ?  ’

‘  am  i  foolish  for  wanting  this ?  it  will  end  in  flames .  it  always  does .  ’

‘  sorry  about  the  blood  in  your  mouth .  i  wish  it  was  mine .  ’

‘  if  i  love  you ,  is  that  a  fact  or  a  weapon ?  ’

‘  tell  me  how  all  this ,  and  love  too ,  will  ruin  us .  ’

‘  and  you  realize  the  one  person  in  the  world  who  loves  you  isn’t  the  one  you  thought  it  would  be .  ’

‘  it  cannot  be  a  mistake  to  have  cared .  it  cannot  be  an  error  to  have  tried .  it  cannot  be  incorrect  to  have  loved .  ’

‘  finally ,  i  plead  guilty  of  adoring  you .  ’

‘  a  child  weaned  on  poison  considers  harm  a  comfort .  ’

‘  without  realizing ,  i  find  it  in  myself  that  i  cannot  stop  thinking  about  you .  ’

‘  tomorrow ,  when  i  wake  up ,  i  promise ,  i  will  be  better .  ’

‘  someone  has  to  leave  first .  this  is  a  very  old  story .  there  is  no  other  version  of  this  story .  ’

‘  when  i  imagine  myself ,  i  am  always  leaving .  i  couldn’t  draw  my  own  face  if  god  asked .  ’

‘  do  we  simply  stare  at  what’s  horrible  and  forgive  it ?  ’

‘  i  wanted  to  let  go  of  the  pain  even  though  it  was  the  last  thing  that  felt  alive  from  you .  ’

‘  have  i  endured  loneliness  with  grace ?  ’

‘  i’ll  be  your  slaughterhouse ,  your  killing  floor ,  your  morgue  and  final  resting ,  walking  around  with  this  bullet  inside  me  ‘cause  i  couldn’t  make  you  love  me  and  i  am  tired  of  pulling  your  teeth .  ’

‘  and  then  my  soul  saw  you  and  kind  of  went ,  ‘ oh ,  there  you  are .  i’ve  been  looking  for  you . ’  ’

‘  sometimes  it  feels  like  someone  else  is  wearing  my  body .  ’

‘  i  spent  my  life  arguing  how  i  mattered  until  it  didn’t  matter .  ’ 

‘  who  knew  my  haven  would  be  my  coffin ?  ’

‘  dead  is  the  safest  i’ve  ever  been .  ’

‘  i’ve  never  been  so  alive .  ’ 

‘  you  know  what  i  was  gonna  tell  you  before ,  but  didn’t  have  the  nerve ?  you  got  your  name  written  all  over  me .  i  got  my  name  written  on  you ,  too .  ’ 

‘  you  already  are  something .  you  always  were .  and  you  still  have  time  to  be .  ’

‘  you  know  me  by  heart .  it  infuriates  me  that  you  know  me  by  heart .  ’ 

‘  why  am  i  waiting  for  you ?  hungering  and  thirsting  for  you  in  every  cranny  of  my  soul  and  even  in  my  ribs ?  ’ 

‘  you  came  with  a  handful  of  pain  and  a  smile  which  broke  the  ground  under  my  feet  as  the  earthquake  does  when  two  people  meet .  ’

‘  the  only  good  thing  is  that  i’m  getting  used  to  suffering .  ’

‘  the  return  to  time  was  not  my  choice .  ’

‘  we  are  built  to  live  inside  each  other .  this  means  we  are  built  to  ruin .  ’

‘  time  does  not  bring  relief ;  you  all  have  lied .  ’

‘  time  does  not  know  how  to  keep  our  hopes  safe .  ’

‘  you  needed  me  so  much  that  you  had  to  end  me .  ’

‘  there  are  days  where  i  am  morbidly  in  love  with  you ,  and  this  is  one  of  those  days .  ’

‘  i  know  no  end  to  desiring  you .  ’

‘  i  fear  that  i  am  both  too  much  yet  not  enough .  ’

‘  yes ,  yes ,  yes ,  i  do  like  you .  i  am  afraid  to  say  the  stronger  word .  ’ 

‘  a  heart’s  a  heavy  burden .  ’

‘  life ,  as  i  see  it ,  is  all  about  farewells  rather  than  reunions .  ’

‘  heaven  is  real  and  you  only  had  two  minutes  to  prove  it  to  me .  ’

‘  it  was  already  love .  ’

‘  everyone  desires  love  but  also  finds  it  impossible  to  believe  that  they  deserve  it .  ’

‘  i’ll  love  you  until  i  forget  how  to .  ’

‘  i’ll  love  you  until  i  forget  how  to  and  then  i’ll  fall  like  my  knees  aren’t  already  bruised  from  doing  it  and  i’ll  remember  why  you’re  worth  the  ache .  ’

‘  of  course  i’ll  hurt  you .  of  course  you’ll  hurt  me .  of  course  we’ll  hurt  each  other .  but  this  is  the  very  condition  of  existence .  ’

‘  nothing  makes  me  sadder  and  nothing  makes  me  happier  than  you .  ’

‘  i  love  you  and  i  do  not  want  to  love  you ,  it  is  too  much  and  too  difficult .  ’

‘  grief  is  just  love  with  no  place  to  go .  ’

‘  i  felt  my  life  with  both  my  hands  to  see  if  it  was  there .  ’

‘  you  do  this ,  you  do .  you  take  the  things  you  love  and  you  tear  them  apart .  ’

‘  i  hope  it’s  love .  i’m  trying  really  hard  to  make  it  love .  ’

‘  if  you  touch  me  again  i  might  burn  up  in  the  cold  air .  ’

‘  i  asked  you  not  to  leave  several  times .  ’

‘  i’ve  only  adored  you  lifetimes  ago  and  here  we  are .  it’s  nice  to  see  you  again .  ’

‘  all  time  ever  does  is  pass  and  all  i  ever  do  is  remember .  ’

‘  i  feel  as  though  we  were  never  strangers ,  you  and  i ,  not  even  for  a  moment .  ’

‘  i’d  choose  you ;  in  a  hundred  different  lifetimes ,  in  a  hundred  worlds ,  in  any  version  of  reality ,  i’d  find  you  and  i’d  choose  you .  ’

‘  nothing  about  this  is  soft  but  we  pretend .  ’

‘  maybe  you  and  i  are  just  a  dream .  ’

‘  i  know  you  loved  me  too ,  you  knew  me ,  and  it  gladdens  my  heart .  ’

‘  i  promise  i  shall  never  give  up  and  that  i’ll  die  yelling  and  laughing .  ’

‘  i  don’t  do  anything  with  my  life  except  romanticize  and  decay  with  indecision .  ’

‘  the  world  was  made  so  that  we  could  find  each  other  in  it .  ’

‘  you  don’t  meet  the  people  you  love ,  you  recognize  them .  ’

‘  i  think  you  and  i  have  known  each  other  a  few  lifetimes .  ’

‘  this  body  knows  fear  like  a  front  porch  knows  welcome  –  it  is  always  coming  home .  ’

‘  i  miss  you  more  than  i  remember  you .  ’

‘  if  i  could  have  done  it  all  again ,  i  would  have  loved  you  better .  but  i  could  not  have  loved  you  more .  ’

‘  we  could  have  been  happy .  i  know  that ,  and  it  is  perhaps  the  hardest  thing  to  know .  ’

‘  you  want  a  better  story .  who  wouldn’t ?  ’