So I decided to make one of these for the kids who grew up unable to function normally because of a narcissistic hoarder. Fair warning, there's a high likelihood everything in this blog will be triggering to someone.
Is anyone else here an adult child of a parent with severe (stage 4 or greater) hoarding disorder that would be willing to share their experience with me? I'm trying so hard to rewire my brain to be more productive and view tasks as a reward for having my own space to manage and care for, but the executive dysfunction is incredibly debilitating from 20+ years of the experience of growing up with someone who suffers from Hoarding Disorder.
I'm just looking for others in this community that are struggling with the same things I am and maybe just feel a little less awful about the way the PTSD rules even the most minimal of functions. Maybe a human who understands how chores as simple as walking a bag of trash outside can feel emotional and overwhelming. I need to be a wife and mom who contributes more fully to the household tasks. But I need someone who understands to talk to through it.
If all else fails, this can be a place where someone else can realize they're not alone.
Today's victory: I actually did the dishes.