* phantom pains.

𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐋𝐋: 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐈𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐀 𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐑 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘. 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐈𝐒 𝐀 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘.

[entales]

* one part lividity, one part decomposition, five parts myth.  original character multimuse, written by izzie.

[ungratefuldead]

all my writing energy has been going into dnd lately but here’s a thought: audrey dnd au. you should be in her adventuring party

[exai]

gotta figure that one out

nov 26

[ungratefuldead]

compassionhero​.

     “i’m talking about how you’re here. right now. and you were up last night, too.”   well, night meaning whatever rotation they pick for sleep out in space, anyway. the droids can keep a watch and they both know it.

     uh, not that he’s been keeping tabs.

     luke drops into the other chair and pulls up one knee, a pose that makes him look younger. he’s still dressed — still in his boots, even.   “just thinking, i guess.”   then amends, half smiling,    “daydreaming.”    some have said.

       ❛ you keeping tabs? ❜   she asks anyway. it comes out more amused than accusatory, but that’s okay. she’s too tired to pick a fight, and at this point, she’s spent enough time with luke to know he means well. even when he’s--- you know, A Lot. she watches out the corner of her eye while he settles into the other seat.

       daydreaming, he says, and for a moment he sounds more like the tatooine farm boy than the galactic hero. audrey arches a brow, leans her head back against her chair.   ❛ get your shoes off my upholstery, ❜   she says. then:   ❛ about what? ❜

[ungratefuldead]

well this is embarrassing. i said i would be back and then immediately got nudged into DMing curse of strahd, so i spent all week doing campaign prep. now maybe i’ll be back

[ungratefuldead]

hello everyone thank you for your patience and your kind words.... i do appreciate it and i’m feeling solidly better today. i may even attempt writing soon :0

[ungratefuldead]

not to be depressing in public when i haven’t even been here a lot as of late.. but if anybody has some positive vibes to spare i would appreciate it

[ungratefuldead]

zoombinis update:  glorious day. i am about to bring the final traveling party of sixteen zoombinis to the promised land of zoombiniville

[ungratefuldead]

@compassionhero sent:  when’s the last time you slept?

       her mouth twists to one side in a sort of halfhearted frown, and she says,   ❛ if you’re talking about the dark circles, it’s just my face. ❜   even so, luke isn’t completely off-base. it’s not that audrey doesn’t sleep--- at odd hours and in strange places, granted--- but whether she’s sleeping well is a different question.  and no, she isn’t.

       ❛ m’just keeping an eye on the ship, ❜   she offers as explanation. maybe luke will even believe her.   ❛ you get mynocks along this run, sometimes. anyway, what’s your excuse for being awake, then? ❜

[ungratefuldead]

whinedarksea​.

@ungratefuldead asked:   ❝ i can’t trust anyone or anything these days. ❞ but like, melodramatically

     “Tell me about it,”   he sighs without looking up from her computer, like he doesn’t know exactly what this is about, which is Him, Sitting With Her Computer. He doesn’t normally snoop this openly, but he got bored waiting for her. Guessing her password ate up some of the time, but getting into her apartment was really, shockingly easy, given that he stole her key a few months back and let her think she’d lost it.

     “You were out of baklava,”   he says, by way of explanation for the box on the table. Click, click at the trackpad.   “Hey, what the hell is a Zoombini?”

       ❛ gee, sorry i haven’t been stocking my fridge for you specifically, ❜   she grumbles, kicking her shoes off next to the door. she moves to the table, where the lid of the box in question is flipping open and closed, as if it were a toy batted at by a curious kitten.   ❛ some guard dog you are, ❜   she tells ted, shooing the cloud of ectoplasm away from the snacks.

       baklava in tow, she sidles over to odysseus and the laptop, prodding him with her knee because her hands are occupied.   ❛ i’m gonna report a break-in, ❜   audrey says to him.   ❛ they’ll change the locks. what was that about zoombinis? ❜

[weltenwellen]

Rilke Rainer Maria, Letters to Benvenuta

[ungratefuldead]

i’ve come up with a lot of little AU / fandom verses but starwar audrey really has a special place in my heart.... i think because she’s the closest to mainverse audrey in narrative arc? i was talking last night about how sw audrey maintains, and arguably takes to the extreme, this central aspect of, like... “the first thing audrey learns [to do with her abilities] is seeing things that other people don’t, and the second thing she learns is how to hide it”

it’s a little different (in that mainverse audrey is surrounded by normies and can hide her mediumship by lying to psychiatrists / generally Not Talking About It, while for sw audrey, hiding her presence in the force is a power in itself), but the crux of it is still there! and i think that’s why it’s my favorite verse!

tl;dr yeah it’s fun for me to explore all sorts of scenarios, but there’s a degree to which audrey doesn’t feel like audrey to me unless she spent her entire childhood having to hide huge parts of herself

[ungratefuldead]

any verse where audrey becomes a public figure by association with another character is incredibly funny to me because she’s just so weird. imagine trying to interview her

[ungratefuldead]

sometimes you just gotta make another picrew of your best girl

[ungratefuldead]

compassionhero​.

     “jimmy?”   the look on his face says, no way, but in a completely different direction.   “wow, i haven’t heard from him in years.”

     artoo beeps, but it’s less a word and more a noise. luke doesn’t bother asking what’s up. if artoo wanted to say it, he would. but if something’s got that droid contemplating, then what’s going on in his circuitry is anyone’s guess.

     “what about this? maybe i could come on your next run, if the two of you don’t mind too much.”   his tone, less blindingly eager and more restrained, indicates that he already knows how much she minds. he pauses.   “all you have to do is talk to me for one trip.”

       she doesn’t know what else she was expecting. at this point, you could pluck a random stranger off the street, and she’d believe that luke was on a first-name basis with them, their kids, and their second cousin twice removed. which is, unfortunately, a quality that’s hard to dislike.  fuck this guy and his--- genuine interest in the people around him.  as complaints go, it’s lackluster.

       audrey purses her lips, thinking over the offer. they both know jimmy won’t mind; that's not the problem. one trip, he says. just one trip.

       ❛ you gonna lift the supplies with the force? ❜   she asks him dubiously, as if this is a job interview. but it’s the closest thing to a yes that luke is going to get from her.

[ungratefuldead]

well folks i think it’s time. we have to move back to the neopets rp boards

[ungratefuldead]

sb: you’re a good person audrey: fuck off, i’m--- hold on. audrey: [carefully picks up a bug on her fingertip and deposits it in a safer place] audrey: as i was saying, i’m mean