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My art has taken me sooo many places, so me feeling disconnected from it is pretty jarring and almost like an identity crisis

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Looking forward to this new year. New decade of life, new city, new versions of the same big dreams. Cheers to 2026! 🥂

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I need to fuck something ASAP

I miss having someone moan in my ear and enjoying it thoroughly.

It truly sucks to believe you’ll never experience the love you want or you won’t find a companion. Like I’m actually sick of this shit and as much as I wanna blame one person I can only blame myself for my actions and what I accepted.

Fear ran my life and diving too deep kept me there. It was safer to be alone than to be vulnerable for someone else to come and do the same damage. Cause why do I deserve that? I don’t, so I make sure of it. Which in the end just keeps me from what I’m seeking. I let someone go that probably would’ve given me everything I wanted but I didn’t think it was for me cause the last time I let someone in I got crushed.

I’ve tried for the past 3 years or so to just not seek out companionship. When I do, people run like their feet are on fire. When they come on strong, I run. So I just want to rid myself completely of the desire. It’s exhausting to want what doesn’t want you.

I got older… but not much has changed.

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Franny Choi, from “Real Talk”, Floating, Brilliant, Gone

I want strong enough friendships where the people care so much about me that they plan things with me in mind. Surprise birthday parties, friendsgivings, game nights, any intimate gathering. Because it’s easy to find people to just go party with but to invite/be invited into your home is a different level of ratings.

Maybe my desire for that stems from a selfish standpoint… I want to have proof of people caring about me. It sparks a certain jealousy in me and I know I have to give to get but I also don’t want to do these things solely for reciprocation. Idk. I feel like the things I want from people in life are very juvenile and when I had the opportunity to have it, I didn’t appreciate it and now it won’t come back. Life lessons I guess.

#thoughts as I spend the holidays alone #not even mentioning relationships because that’s an even further stretch

Doley for the holidays, I wonder why that is…

Idk why spite fuels me so much. Like someone will say or think something about me and I’d feel the immense urge to prove them wrong + essentially shit on em. But it doesn’t even make any sense to do cause it’s only me harboring those feelings.

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